Letter to the Reader: Heyyy. this is my first fan fic story and i hope ya'll enjoy it. This first chapter doesnt really have much action in the beinning of it but it gets a lot better towards the end of the chapter. Also, I name the chapters after song names or phrases from songs that i think represent the Chapter. I'll write the band name on top so you can check the song out. Plz review but for now I hope you enjoy...

Harry Potter and the Cynical Sanctuaries

Chapter 1: I Write Sins, Not Tragedies

If you were to be looking out your window at around midnight in the quiet street of Little Whinging, then you might have noticed the three teenagers slowly making there way up to # 4 Privet Drive.

You would see a girl with bushy hair but a pretty face none-the-less. But the face seemed to be drowning with worry as she was looking at one of the two boys ahead of her. Then you would see an odd looking red-head who looked confused and anxious at the same time, like he was waiting for something. Ahead of these two teenagers stood a lanky boy of 16, his messy razor black hair gave anyone who would look at him the thought that he was no one to mess with. His eyes were the color of grass and they didn't seem to be filled with worry or confusion at all. In his eyes you could see that he was longing for something. Something that he thought never would happen.

"How long till we get there mate?" The red-head asked anxiously. "My feet are killing me!"

"Its right up there" said the leader of the group. "When we reach there, I'll do the talking. I know them and one wrong thing can set the retards off the wall. If worst comes to worst, then we'll have to threaten them."

The girl suddenly blurted out what she couldn't keep in any longer. "Harry, are you okay?" She asked trying not to sound to sorrowful. "You've been awfully quiet."

Harry didn't answer. The boy was deep in thought, although not thinking about what other 16-year olds would think. In fact, he was thinking about things that would overwhelm pretty much any man let alone boy. Instead of thinking about girls, he was thinking how he would get the girls he loved in trouble. Instead of thinking about school, he was thinking about dropping out because of the many things he still had to do. Instead of thinking about careers, he was thinking if he would ever get to have one due to his demise.

Harry James Potter was no ordinary boy. He was a wizard. But that is not the thing that made him un-ordinary even though that would be enough for most people to call him a freak or a weirdo. Even in the wizarding world, Harry just could not be normal. Ever since he was the age of one, people have been plotting his death. A man called Lord Voldermont, a man many people fear to speak of is the sole reason of this. Ever since He-must-not-be-named as they call him first heard of this prophecy, he has plotted to kill the young boy.

Now he found himself walking towards a place he always dreaded. His aunt and uncle had verbally and physically abused him since Harry landed on their door-step 16 years ago. But he was forced to stay there because of his mother's protection. He could not be harmed by the Dark Lord until he turned 17, but for Harry, that was only a mere 4 weeks away.

It seemed that everyone who ever tried to help Harry was dead now, and he knew he must finally go after the one who made his a life a living hell for ages. He knew he had to kill him or be murdered by him. This was his destiny, and there was just no backing out. He thought of all the people who had died to save his neck, his parents, Sirius his godfather, Dumbledore his mentor. Even a schoolmate by the name of Cedric Diggory though he never was very close to him. But the point was that he's alone now, no one to save him.

He didn't want all there deaths to be in vain. He was going to avenge each and every person who was murdered by that man and his cronies. But before he could do that, he needed to find Lord Voldermont's Hocruxes. They are the only thing keeping him immortal and he needed to destroy each one so he could finally murder that son of a gun. He remembered what Professor Dumbledore once told him. "Harry, I don't want to make you feel worse but it's not your tragedy that will go in the history books, it's his sins."

"Harry! Are you listening to me?" Hermione asked patiently as to not upset this boy who has already been through so much. Harry immediately came back into the real world. "I said we're there, aren't we?"

It was true. In front of them stoop # 4 Privet Drive, mailbox and all. It was just another normal house in a normal neighborhood. Harry did not think one bit that his uncle and aunt would be awake at this time but he was very mistaken. As soon as Hermione used Alohamora, the lock clicked and revealed his aunt and uncle both sitting in fine leather chairs made of the best cow skin money could buy. His aunt was knitting something that looked like a present for Dudley while Uncle Vernon was reading the sports page of the daily newspaper. He stopped abruptly when he saw the trio.

"WHAT IN THE BLOODY HELL IS THIS!?" Uncle Vernon roared with more anger than Harry had ever seen from him.

Harry was just about to scream back when he remembered how Dumbledore handled a similar situation last year. "Uncle Vernon," Harry started. "These are my friends Ronald Weasly and Hermione Granger. They will be staying with me for the next 4 weeks."

Uncle Vernon turned redder with anger at this statement. "I'll be Damned boy if I let more freaks stay in this house. WE HAVE IT BAD ENOUGH WITH YOU HERE!"

Hermione looked absolutely horrified, how can someone be so incredibly mean? She was just about to say something when Harry held up his hand to silence her.

"You see Uncle Vernon" Harry continued. "Both of my friends are aloud to use magic outside of school. I don't wish to threaten you, but we'll have to stay here till my birthday but then we'll be out of your hair for good." Harry finished politely

Uncle Vernon just looked horrified as if someone had slapped him across the face. He knew that he couldn't do anything so, he just grumbled something and turned around and left the hallway.

Harry taking this as a cue to go upstairs, signaled to there friends and led them to their bedroom. When they were half way up, Harry's Uncles voice rang through the house.

"It'll be 4 weeks and NO MORE" Vernon shouted. "You have been causing ruckus in my house for the past 17 years! And its high-time you get OUT OF HERE." He finished emphasizing the last 3 words."

"Nasty little git that one isn't he?" Ron blurted out. Inside he was burning with rage seeing how his friend had been treated all his life.

Harry smiled and said "Oh no. He's having a good day today."

Ron and Hermione smiled back half-heartedly as they went up the rest of the stairs. They both just couldn't take him being treated like that and shrugging it off like it was nothing. But they knew from experience not to approach the subject so they thought they might just have a few nice conversations to sooth him and then get down to business. Business of course meant finding the Hocruxes.

They put all the luggage in their room and started poking fun at Harry's Uncle. By the time they were done, they had made fun of him so bad that every time he was mentioned from then on, a smile crept up on their faces.

Harry knew the real conversation must come soon so he thought he might as well just start it now. But just as he was about to, an extremely heavy boy walked into the room looking very devilish like he was just about to do a thing that made him very happy.

Harry's Cousin Dudley walked in and let out a yelp of fright when he saw Ron and Hermione. It looked even scarier to him due to the fact that Ron was twisting his wand in his hand absent-mindedly. He had just gone up to his cousin's room to tease on him and he knew Harry couldn't use magic again without getting expelled from his stupid school so it was worth a try.

Harry got up calmly and introduced them. "Dudley, this is Hermione and this Ron. They'll be staying with me till my birthday." He smiled at Dudley's dumbstruck face. He was looking forward to this moment all day.

"Dad is gonna blow his top when he see's them" Dudley managed to croak out still awing the two people like they were aliens. He never expected that two people who are like Harry can just look like normal teenagers. The girl was actually kind of pretty…What was he saying?! Their freaks! That's all there ever going to be! But he couldn't stop thinking of how the other side of the world must be. The side of wizards.

Harry was extremely confused when he saw Dudley just close the door and he could have swore he saw a hint of longing and envy in his look as the door closed shut. He had no time to dwell on it because Hermione's voice brought him back under the O-zone.

"Is he always that shy?" Hermione asked looking at the spot at where he had just left. "He seems like a nice kid. Not how you described him, Harry."

"I don't know" Harry answered confused. "He usually the devil's assistant. Always beating me up with his gang but as soon as he saw you guys…I don't know…It looked like he was a cute overfed shy little teenager. Trust me. He's exactly the opposite.

Harry pushed this aside and moved on to what he was about to say before he got interrupted. But once again he could not finish because Hermione got out what she had to say first.

"Harry, we have the next 4 weeks to talk about the hocruxes. Let's just relax tonight."

Harry started at her like she was a stranger and by the looks of it, Ron was doing no different. It was never like Hermione to put off something. Maybe she thought Harry had been through enough and that he needs just a little time off. And when he came to think of it, she was kind of right.

"Yeah, that would be nice Hermione" Harry said gratefully and smiled at her. "Thank You."

Hermione blushed and mumbled something about how it was no problem and then got very interested in unpacking her things.

Harry noticed that he and Hermione had really drifted off in the past year. Between the meetings with Dumbledore, Quidditch, Ron and Lavender problems, and the Voldermont War, they just hadn't talked to each other as much as the other years. And when they did, they would be either arguing or talking about something too serious to really enjoy the moment. Also, because of Harry's suspicions with Draco Malfoy and Professor Snape that both Hermione and Ron thought untrue.

He could not blame them of course. No one had really believed him and he had no hard evidence. But, he thought Ron and Hermione would at least try to believe him. They made no such try. But Harry turned out right, Malfoy was planning on killing Dumbledore and Snape had been betraying him for several years. Everyone had apologized to him very profoundly after that incident when Draco was too cowardly to kill Dumbledore so Snape stepped and shot the curse that made Harry's life hell for so many years. Aveda Kedavra.

Hermione like she always does sensed Harry's worry. "Harry, come on, forget about all that for now. Let's just have one day of worry-free fun. How about it?"

Harry smiled again and answered "Okay, sure Hermione. What do you guys want to talk about?"

Ron piped in. "So. How are you and Ginny doing?" he asked nonchalantly.

Harry shook inside his body so Ron and Hermione couldn't see. He had just broken up with Ginny Weasly, Ron's brother, at the time of Dumbledore's funeral. It's not that he didn't like her. But she was just too precious to him to lose someone like her. He hadn't told Ron or Hermione, not because it slipped his mind but because he didn't want to see their reactions in the slightest bit and after a short pause he finally came clean.

"Um…We broke up at Dumbledore's funeral." Harry said quietly. "I couldn't put her in the middle of all this mess. She would be a big distraction and I couldn't risk that." He finished and looked up to see the reactions.

Ron looked like he had been told he was adopted just staring. And Hermione looked concerned but for a second, he was sure he had seen her eyes flash when he said those words.

"Mate…" Ron started but couldn't finish. He finally got the words out. "How could you?" He asked in a raspy voice.

Hermione added. "Well it's your choice Harry but we thought you liked her too much to give her up?"

Harry glanced at them and then said "Yes Hermione, I still like her, but I think I like her so much that I just can't lose her to Voldermont or anyone else. I just can't.

He noticed Hermione looking sad for a second but then he thought it was just pity so he rubbed it off. Not really caring. She then came to put an arm around him and comfort him.

Ron was still looking dumbstruck at Harry as Hermione put her arm around him. Then he finally let it all out. "HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER?! No Wonder she looked so miserable on the train! YOU broke her damn heart! Do you really think she need that?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE!"

Hermione tried to get Ron to sit down by pushing down his shoulders and he did but that did nothing to stop his rant at Harry.

"MY WHOLE FAMILY WILL HAVE YOUR HIDE. Now I know why my brothers were all giving you nasty looks at the station. BECAUSE YOU BROKE UP WITH MY BABY SISTER.

No one expected Harry's reaction, not even him. He too started screaming, but louder than Ron. I'M SORRY. I DIDN'T WANT TO GET YOUR POOR LITTLE BABY SISTER MURDERED!" He calmed down dramatically and continued. "Ron, come on, you know I had to…" But he was cut off due to Ron getting up and slamming the door mumbling something about the bathroom.

Harry knew it would take him a while to find it seeing that he didn't know the house so he got up to go find him and talk to him but Hermione held him down.

"Give him time, Harry" Hermione said soothingly.

Harry obeyed and sat down on one of the beds Hermione had summoned up. How could he be mad at him for protecting ginny? I knew it would hurt her but Ron didn't have to make it seem like I told her to get lost and I never wanted to see her again. He even began to question if he still had feelings for ginny but then he realized that he still must have but right now they were hidden underneath all the stress.

"He'll definitely come around Harry, he still hasn't gotten used to the fact that his baby sister is dating, so he won't be too happy that she got dumped."

Harry nodded but didn't say a word. His mind was in deep thought about everything that had happened the past year. He had gone from "attention seeking teenager" to "The Chosen One."

"Harry" Hermione continued. "It's been a long day. How about we both get some rest?"

Harry mumbled his agreement but then noticed since there was only one bathroom in the house and Ron was using it that he needed to change in front of Hermione. They had been friends for so long but he only slept in boxers.

Hermione sensed the problem and blushed furiously. "I'll wait outside. Call me when you're done." And then she ran out of the room door and closed it.

When he called out to Hermione who also needed to get dressed he said he would just step outside and let her get dressed. It was a very awkward moment seeing that Harry had no t-shirt on and only Boxers but Hermione couldn't stop starting at all the scars on him.

Finally, after both were done. They got into their covers wondering where Ron was, but then finally Hermione lost control and asked the question.

"Harry, where did you get all those scars? If you don't mind me asking."

Harry smiled. "This one is from the Basilisk in second year" pointing at the long one on his arm. "That one is from the Dragon" Trying to point out the thin scar across the bottom of his back. Harry was going to continue but Hermione stopped him.

"Okay, I get it Harry" Hermione said smiling. "Your life sucks."

Harry couldn't help smiling again and replied "No, It's just a walk in the park."

Harry fell asleep with a smile on his face despite everything and he had no idea in Hell why.

He woke up an hour later to see the door close and Ron's suitcase out. He ran after but only could catch a glimpse of him disapperating which he was doing illegally seeing that he failed his test. He no doubt went his home, The Burrow.

Harry however, had no intention of stopping him which surprised even him. He went inside and thought that he wouldn't tell Hermione and act like he was discovering it the same time she was. He wasn't sure why. Maybe because he didn't want Ron on this mission if he didn't want to be. And if he's going to get mad over Ginny then who needs him. Right?

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Ron picked up his trunk which he had never bothered unpacking in the first place and left. He thought he saw Harry wake up but he ran fast enough down the stairs so there was no way he could catch up. He knew he didn't have his disapperating license but he knew the ministry wouldn't have known who did it but just the area it was done in and Hermione had her license so he could easily get away without being caught.

And without a second look back he was gone, he wasn't sure what made him the way he got when Harry mentioned him breaking up with Ginny. But he had no time to think about it as he felt the sensation of being squeezed through a tube and then going out the other end and there he saw his home, The Burrow.

As he got closer to the door he thought about what he had done. Harry had broken up with Ginny! She must be so heart-broken. He felt guilty about leaving them but it all got erased after he remembered what Harry had done. No doubt the rest of the family were just the same as he is maybe worse. They all thought of Ginny as the princess of the family. Ron knew that the whole family was home due to Bill and Fleur's wedding in 3 and a half weeks.

The trio was planning on going for it and then spending the rest of the time at the Burrow till Harry's 17th Birthday and then they would finally get into action with finding the hocruxes. Harry told them that he wanted to go to Godric's Hollow first where his parents were buried and Ron had absolutely no problem with that. Ron didn't even know where to start with the Horcruxes and probably neither did Harry but he was thinking very hard. It would explain the lapses of conversations he was having with the other two.

Ron finally reached the door and got into his room as quick and quietly as he could and then entered his room in which he shared with Charlie, one of his brothers, for the time-being. He got onto his bed and thought of his hatred at Harry again. Was it all because of Ginny?

No, it wasn't. There was another bushy haired girl in the way. He liked Hermione. He never wanted to admit it to himself but he couldn't deny the fact after Dumbledore's funeral. But Hermione and Harry were the perfect couple. Everyone thought so, ever since 4th year with Rita Skeeter there has been rumors. No one would expect the Side-Kick of Harry Potter to be dating someone as amazing as Hermione Granger.

She did show signs of jealousy last year when I was dating Lavender. But he knew it was just because she cared and had always disliked her. Why was Harry always just so lucky? Now he knew the true reason he was mad. Not because of Ginny, but because of Hermione. He couldn't blame Harry for all this. It really wasn't his fault.

Sure he was lucky and got all the girls and fame but he knew that Harry wanted just to be a regular guy and not to be awed at on the street and such. He would give anything to have my life Ron thought. He had truly made a mistake, but there was no way he would forgive him. What was done is done and there is no turning back. That's one of the lessons you learn when you hang out with the famous Harry James Potter.

The red-head woke up to shouting from downstairs. It didn't seem like fight shouting. More like agreement shouting like they were trashing someone's name, but Ron couldn't care less. He got up rather groggily and noticed that no one had probably noticed him. Charlie usually acts dead in the morning and didn't see him and he probably hasn't entered his room yet. He thought he should go downstairs and tell the family the story about Harry. Ron just hoped they would understand.

The rumbling from downstairs was getting louder and Ron wondered who they could hate that much to keep bashing. He brushed his teeth and took a quick shower and heard someone crying from a room. It was ginny. Of course she still hadn't gotten over Harry. Ron wasn't mad at Harry anymore but knew he couldn't go back after the way he acted.

He put on some old clothes because he wasn't planning on going anywhere that day and took off downstairs. He made out the voice of everyone in the family including Fleur. They were definitely bashing someone and the only people defending the person was Fleur and Ron's dad and mom were just listening on the conversation that The Weasly Children were having. He finally got close enough to hear what they were saying.

"How could he do this to her? She's so young!" Bill exclaimed and Ron heard mumbles of agreement from almost everyone at the table.

"He's just a stupid kid. He doesn't know what love is or anything." His roommate Charlie said rather forcefully.

Who could they be talking about? It couldn't be Voldermont. But if not him then who?

Fleur then spoke up. "That's right! He's just a kid so just because he heart the girl doesn't mean he's as bad as Lord Voldermont!"

Fred was next. "He might as well be!"

"He didn't even deserve her." George said disgusted. "Harry says he's fighting off Voldermont with love. What love does he have?!"

It all came down to Ron like he was hit by one big reducto spell. They were talking about Harry! Comparing him to Voldermont! The guy who saved half the families necks from danger including his own. And, mom and dad were just sitting there, which Ron had no doubt that they agreed with their kids but would not say it openly.

Ron suddenly became angrier at his family than he had ever been before. He climbed up the stairs to get his trunk which he didn't unpack again and left the room hauling it downstairs fast. His whole family gasped at the sight of him thinking that he was at Harry's.

"YOU NO GOOD SONS OF A GUN! HOW DARE YOU!" Ron roared definitely angrier than he was the day before.

Mrs. Weasly laid an arm on him and said. "Dear, shouldn't you be at Harry's?" Her voice was rather uneasy.

"I was and get your arm off me you WOMAN!" Ron said looking like a lion about to kill "And I come back to hear my family trashing the person who has saved most of our GOD DAMN LIVES! We're NO DIFFERENT FROM THE MALFOYS! The only person I can stand to look at RIGHT NOW is Fleur!"

"Honey, let us explain" Mrs. Weasly said. But Ron cut her off.

"I know THE WHOLE STORY LADY, and you all still make me sick." He knew what he was going to do next to prove to them that they were being retards.

He first rounded on his dad. "So what? Do you think your all high and might now that you got promoted in the Ministry huh? Are you joining Scrimegour to help him prove Harry's a LUNATIC? Or are you venturing out on your own and making your own "HARRY IS A NUTCASE" club!? Did you not forget last Christmas when he SAVED YOUR from that stupid snake!? Mr. Weasly looked like he had just got the wind knocked right out of him

He then rounded on Fred and George. "OH! And YOU probably think your cool because of that STUPID JOKE SHOP EH? Well don't forget the Harry gave you the money to FREAKING START IT!" Fred and George looked like they were about to punch him but he continued

He then rounded on Bill before sneering at Charlie because since he was in Romania all the time, he couldn't say anything against Charlie. "SO BILL, are you forgetting that Harry is the reason your about to marry Fleur!? No. Oh well I thought so considering THAT US WEASLY'S DON'T GIVE A ABOUT ANYONE BUT OURSELVES!" Bill looked taken aback but Fleur actually had a smile on her face.

He then rounded on his one and only mother. "You do know that most of our family would BE DEAD RIGHT NOW if it wasn't for Harry?! Do you know that he has done nothing to deserve this!? He has saved Ginny more times than I CAN EVEN REMEMBER" Ron said pointing at Ginny who had come down finding what the ruckus was about. Mrs. Weasly looked like she was about to cry.

He then spoke to his whole family. "I AM NOT LIKE ANY OF YOU. You guys were comparing Harry to Voldermont when you guys are acting more like him than you imagine! I AM ASHAMED TO BE RELATED TO ALL OF YOU!"

With that, he left a house for the second time in two days and disapperated away without looking back.

Thanks For Reading! and as i said plzz review. it'll let me know how good i'm doing. The title of the chapter is the title of a song sang by Panic! at the disco. The name more than the song reminds me of the chapter. Thanks again. The next 3 chapter's are already up due to the time it took me to stop being a new memeber on here and post stories.