I have this major hankering to write a million words about some insane subject from this idea being formed in my head and I decided that I could only make it work for Instant Star for it is my favorite show of all time. I have been listening to "Sober"by Kelly Clarkson for the past couple of days and it got me thinking about an idea for an Instant Star One-shot but as I am writing out my plot I may take this to be a short story, like five or six chapters, and it would be taking place after season two. What it would be like if Jude were telling Tommy she still loved but was getting over him because after three months she is done being the self pity girl she had become because of his departure. So this is my preview of what is to come. This is just a preview, not a chapter, of the story. And I own nothing.
"Sadie, he's gone and as far as I can tell he isn't coming back," Jude says to her sister.
"Just because I love you and don't want to see you hurt anymore. I am going to tell you I am proud of you , because you realized that," Sadie tells her.
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"What if I told you things aren't what they seem to be Sadie?" Jude asks.
"What do you mean Jude?" a confused Sadie asks.
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"How do I know that he isn't the one for me?" Jude questioned. "I've loved him since I was fifteen. And that hasn't change one bit in the last three months."
"You don't and you never will if you don't try and get over him." Kwest reasons with me.
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"I have been thinking about him more and more lately," she pauses, "Why is that dad?"
"Because you have a sixth sense when it comes to him, and some how you know something that no one else knows about him. That is one reason why and the fact that you are in love with him. And no matter what anyone says you don't have to get over him." Stuart looks at his youngest daughter as he tries to explain how love works. "Things happen for a reason sweetie. Maybe this is God's way of testing your love for each other. Any nothing makes the heart grow fonder than distance."
"Thanks daddy. You always know just what to say to make me feel better." Jude says as she gives he father a hug.
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Some one writes the letter of a life time. She has decided that he needs to know the truth about everything, even if it means opening her heart up just to be broken again. There is nothing worse than being left by the person you love most in this world. Who will let their heart be put on the line.
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"Three months and I'm still sober"
That is a lot to say in one little fragment of a sentence that could explain my whole world to you. I am afraid of everything around me. I am not the little girl you left behind. I am this new woman that has loved you these past two years and yet you still think I am just some little girl who is wasting her time on you. How do you know how I feel if you have no idea what you feel. Let me get this through your head I am no longer the Jude you knew. I have grown to be this amazing woman who knows exactly what she wants and that happens to be you. And if that makes you uncomfortable well then too damn bad life is not always how you want it to be. I love you and always will. I am sorry that the only way I could through to you is by this letter. Now I am going to walk away and it is your choice to follow me and if you don't I will understand. Not everything is supposed to work out.
Love, Jude
Again this is only a preview, not the real thing. Thank you and Stay tuned to see what happens.