I do not own the x-men, I do not make money off of any of the stories that I right and this is just for fun.

How long has it been since I've smiled or laughed or been happy? Too long, that's how long. I have thought long and hard about what I'm about to do but it must be done. I have waited long enough and I shall not wait any longer. What is it that I am going to do you ask? Well first I am going to get a total makeover. That means hair, nails, makeup, you know, the works. Then I shall get a new dress and go out on the town. I mean Remy is not the only eligible bachelor on the face of the planet. He is not the end all and be all and he is certainly not going to be the one to drive me insane. There shall be a total change starting with him coming to my room every night. Oh, he can come if he wishes but I shall not be there, I will make it my business not to be anywhere near him. Why? Why? I shall tell you why! Because every time he is near me I can feel my heart breaking, every time he stands near me and looks at her I feel the tears welling up and every time he speaks of her I want to just lay down and die. So I shall not allow my self to hurt any more, I will not be is shoulder to lean on when he is whining and I will certainly not destroy my soul any longer. You think that I am being drastic. I am not. I just can't do this any more. It hurts too much. I am only human, people seem to forget that, that I am only human, only a woman. Why should I be the one who is strong? Why can I not breakdown and cry and have a bad day? Or be loved? Or, or………huh.
It breaks my heart to think of how he will feel when I give him the cold shoulder but I know that they will get back together and I will be alone as always. So I shall stop feeling sorry for myself and pick my self up. I have planned for a girl's night out. Jean, Betsy, my self and even Rogue is invited. I will dance with any man who asks and if someone offers to buy me a drink I will take it with a smile. I will not push men away anymore for the hope that he will see the love in my eyes and I shall see it in return. This is something I need to do for me. Me. How odd it is to think of doing something for myself….huh….strange…me. I think I like the sound of that, me. Me. ME! WOW, that feels really good.