I've written several Daikeru/Takedai's latey, and I decided that I should even that out with some good ole Daiken/Kensuke. After they defeated 'Big and Ugly' (Malomyotismon), disregarding the epilogue. Rambling thoughts. Angsty.
Disclaimer: Don't own the show, the characters, or the lyrics I used. First song is by Vertical Horizon (and is in two parts), the second is from Staind.
Warning: POV Ken, which I probably suck at. *Unconcerned grin*
^flashback...
...end flashback^^
{random lyrics}
I really don't want to move. The world wouldn't care. Yeah, so we won yesterday. Who cares? The world is the same as always. Yesterday will probably be rememberd as the best day of my life. Actually, make that everyday since I became me again, up to yesterday, and that's the best time in my life.
Everything that will follow will pale in comparison. I had friends, I was a hero, and my past was far behind me.
^Ken and the others stood in the realm between Digiworld and Reality, and faced Malomyotismon. Daisuke was at the forefront, hurling insults, and being heroically naive.
As all of their partners seemed to multiply into their separate forms, Ken looked at Daisuke, and saw brown eyes flicker his way in triumph, his affection for his partner and him, Ken, apparent.^^
I should have known that I couldn't push this that far away. I said yesterday that I was done dwelling in pity, but that was before. Before I came home and had to face my parents, before I saw that the bridge between both worlds had allowed the digimon to cross over, and find their partners. Not just our digimon, but one's that we had never seen.
Kari was thrilled. Of course, that was her secret wish. To have everyone in the world find the connection that she had with Gatomon, so that no-one would ever have to be lonely.
Yeah, well. That only works if your partner isn't at Daisuke's, playing with Chibimon. That only works if the love of your life doesn't seem to have forgotten that you exist.
I can't really blame him. His attention span is so short, it's a wonder that he recognizes me half the time. Amazing that he remembers my name better than he does Takaishi's. I guess you really can't say 'Ken' in too many different ways, though.
Silence can be deafening. There. The radio can keep my mind from turning morbid.
{So tired no of paying my dues
I start out strong but then I always lose
It's half the distance before you leave me behind
It's such a waste of time.}
Oh, Yeah, that's better. So not depressing. Maybe...
{'Cuase my shackles
You won't be
And my rapture
You won't believe...}
Nope. Radio off, silence on. I guess this really isn't that bad. I can try it again in a few minutes. Until then, I can study for my test on Monday in...
I don't have a test. Damn! Whoops! Mom would freak if she heard me say that word. Wait. She can't read my thoughts. Damn it all!...
Unfortunately, I don't feel better. If anything, I feel rather guilty, thinking words that I know my mother would disapprove of. She doesn't have to know my thoughts for me to want to confess them to her. The power of a mother.
Where was I? Oh, yeah. I saved the world yesterday. Give me a banner, and color it pink. I saved the world yesterday, and realized that I was in love.
Today, I woke up, and realized that the world was still the same, despite me, and that he would never love me back. Not like that.
Ask me now, does he love me, and I'll tell you yes. Because he does. Dai cares so deeply about all his friends, and I'm no exception. Hell, he's been over here constantly for the last couple of weeks, pestering me, and talking my ear off, and telling me all of his little secrets.
How could I have not fallen for him? He's wonderful. Not perfect, because his flaws are what make him distinct. Notot beautiful, but he has this irresistable charm that draws people in at the same time that it exasperates them.
If I keep thinking about him, I'm going to depress myself. The radio? Why not? Nothing to lose.
{And I taste what I can never have
it's from you...}
Kami, no! Not fair! Why, when I need some cheap lyrics and tacky bass-line, do I get stuck with depressing music with the sole purpose of bringing people to misery! Thinking about Dai is better than that.
My Dai-chan. My heart and soul, the only person on earth who I trust so completely, other than Wormmon. He's my opposite, everything I'm not, including straight. How can he be so oblivious to the fact that she likes Takeru? And why can't he realize that I love him so? Have I mentioned that life's not fair?
^The black cloud that was all that was left of Malomyotismon disappeared as a million points of light broke through his darkness. They all cheered, the digi-destined, and the children that they had gone to save. Ken turned to Daisuke, only to see him heading towards Kari and TK. He stopped when he realized that they were holding hands.
He turned abruptly, and headed back towards Ken, his smile not quite as wide, but even his disappointment not enough to spoil the victorious mood.^^
Females. Who needs 'em? I mean, really. Think about it. All they do is primp and whine, cajole their boyfriends into doing things like, shopping with her mother, and primp and whine some more. Why does he want to put up with that so badly? It's not like she's all that great to look at.
And no, I'm not biased. Just because I'm in love with him doesn't mean that I haven't looked at other people of both sexes...actually, he's the only boy I've ever looked at. No other male on earth attracts me like he does. No female does, either, but at least a set of nice curves will get my attention.
I swing two ways. Towards women, and towards Daisuke. I won't give a big speech about denying that I'm gay. Whether I lusted after a hundred men, or just one, I can't claim to be straight anymore. I'm openminded enough to find the titles unimportant. Love is love, in any form, as long as it doesn't cause the recipient undue pain.
Not the pain of exposure, or societal pressure, but the pain that comes from having your heart trampled on purposely, without remorse. Not that I've ever felt that way. I know Dai would never do that to me. He cares too deeply about our friendship, and he's loyal to a fault. I could betray him in a thousand ways, and he'd forgive me, simply because he calls me a friend.
I love you, Dai. Whether you ever feel the same about me, or not, is unimportant. Whether you know, or not, is unimportant. I just wish you could feel the same.
Disclaimer: Don't own the show, the characters, or the lyrics I used. First song is by Vertical Horizon (and is in two parts), the second is from Staind.
Warning: POV Ken, which I probably suck at. *Unconcerned grin*
^flashback...
...end flashback^^
{random lyrics}
I really don't want to move. The world wouldn't care. Yeah, so we won yesterday. Who cares? The world is the same as always. Yesterday will probably be rememberd as the best day of my life. Actually, make that everyday since I became me again, up to yesterday, and that's the best time in my life.
Everything that will follow will pale in comparison. I had friends, I was a hero, and my past was far behind me.
^Ken and the others stood in the realm between Digiworld and Reality, and faced Malomyotismon. Daisuke was at the forefront, hurling insults, and being heroically naive.
As all of their partners seemed to multiply into their separate forms, Ken looked at Daisuke, and saw brown eyes flicker his way in triumph, his affection for his partner and him, Ken, apparent.^^
I should have known that I couldn't push this that far away. I said yesterday that I was done dwelling in pity, but that was before. Before I came home and had to face my parents, before I saw that the bridge between both worlds had allowed the digimon to cross over, and find their partners. Not just our digimon, but one's that we had never seen.
Kari was thrilled. Of course, that was her secret wish. To have everyone in the world find the connection that she had with Gatomon, so that no-one would ever have to be lonely.
Yeah, well. That only works if your partner isn't at Daisuke's, playing with Chibimon. That only works if the love of your life doesn't seem to have forgotten that you exist.
I can't really blame him. His attention span is so short, it's a wonder that he recognizes me half the time. Amazing that he remembers my name better than he does Takaishi's. I guess you really can't say 'Ken' in too many different ways, though.
Silence can be deafening. There. The radio can keep my mind from turning morbid.
{So tired no of paying my dues
I start out strong but then I always lose
It's half the distance before you leave me behind
It's such a waste of time.}
Oh, Yeah, that's better. So not depressing. Maybe...
{'Cuase my shackles
You won't be
And my rapture
You won't believe...}
Nope. Radio off, silence on. I guess this really isn't that bad. I can try it again in a few minutes. Until then, I can study for my test on Monday in...
I don't have a test. Damn! Whoops! Mom would freak if she heard me say that word. Wait. She can't read my thoughts. Damn it all!...
Unfortunately, I don't feel better. If anything, I feel rather guilty, thinking words that I know my mother would disapprove of. She doesn't have to know my thoughts for me to want to confess them to her. The power of a mother.
Where was I? Oh, yeah. I saved the world yesterday. Give me a banner, and color it pink. I saved the world yesterday, and realized that I was in love.
Today, I woke up, and realized that the world was still the same, despite me, and that he would never love me back. Not like that.
Ask me now, does he love me, and I'll tell you yes. Because he does. Dai cares so deeply about all his friends, and I'm no exception. Hell, he's been over here constantly for the last couple of weeks, pestering me, and talking my ear off, and telling me all of his little secrets.
How could I have not fallen for him? He's wonderful. Not perfect, because his flaws are what make him distinct. Notot beautiful, but he has this irresistable charm that draws people in at the same time that it exasperates them.
If I keep thinking about him, I'm going to depress myself. The radio? Why not? Nothing to lose.
{And I taste what I can never have
it's from you...}
Kami, no! Not fair! Why, when I need some cheap lyrics and tacky bass-line, do I get stuck with depressing music with the sole purpose of bringing people to misery! Thinking about Dai is better than that.
My Dai-chan. My heart and soul, the only person on earth who I trust so completely, other than Wormmon. He's my opposite, everything I'm not, including straight. How can he be so oblivious to the fact that she likes Takeru? And why can't he realize that I love him so? Have I mentioned that life's not fair?
^The black cloud that was all that was left of Malomyotismon disappeared as a million points of light broke through his darkness. They all cheered, the digi-destined, and the children that they had gone to save. Ken turned to Daisuke, only to see him heading towards Kari and TK. He stopped when he realized that they were holding hands.
He turned abruptly, and headed back towards Ken, his smile not quite as wide, but even his disappointment not enough to spoil the victorious mood.^^
Females. Who needs 'em? I mean, really. Think about it. All they do is primp and whine, cajole their boyfriends into doing things like, shopping with her mother, and primp and whine some more. Why does he want to put up with that so badly? It's not like she's all that great to look at.
And no, I'm not biased. Just because I'm in love with him doesn't mean that I haven't looked at other people of both sexes...actually, he's the only boy I've ever looked at. No other male on earth attracts me like he does. No female does, either, but at least a set of nice curves will get my attention.
I swing two ways. Towards women, and towards Daisuke. I won't give a big speech about denying that I'm gay. Whether I lusted after a hundred men, or just one, I can't claim to be straight anymore. I'm openminded enough to find the titles unimportant. Love is love, in any form, as long as it doesn't cause the recipient undue pain.
Not the pain of exposure, or societal pressure, but the pain that comes from having your heart trampled on purposely, without remorse. Not that I've ever felt that way. I know Dai would never do that to me. He cares too deeply about our friendship, and he's loyal to a fault. I could betray him in a thousand ways, and he'd forgive me, simply because he calls me a friend.
I love you, Dai. Whether you ever feel the same about me, or not, is unimportant. Whether you know, or not, is unimportant. I just wish you could feel the same.