Author's Notes and Disclaimers:
Haunted
Written by Kyheena
Why?
Why does this have to happen?
Why now?
When I might have actually had a friend?
I mean, I love you.
I can still here his voice in my head. That cool, soft voice that made me feel comfortable, warm…as if there was someone in this whole forsaken world that might have actually cared for me.
I haven't felt like that since my mother died.
Mother…
The one person that I was sure ever really loved me.
I can still hear her voice at night. So soft, so soothing…Even now, over ten years after her death, I can still her at night, before I drift to sleep.
And now…
The heart is easy to have a pain, that's why living is painful.
And now I hear Kaworu.
People always feel pain at the heart.
He's now in my head too. His voice.
With my mother.
A person cannot erase sadness forever. Everyone is alone.
I hold my head and moan.
Leave my head, Kaworu.
I mean, I love you
Stop saying that.
It's not true.
I love you.
The voice repeats, over and over.
Repeats the same thing with my mother.
My mother…and my friend.
The two people who might have ever loved me.
But did I love them?
Extremely avoiding the contact of the first kind are you.
Everyone is alone.
Yes, that is true.
But…did I love them?
You fear to feel other people?
I hear my mother's voice, soothing, lulling my to sleep, like when I was a baby.
Mother.
Yes, I loved her.
Then…what about Kaworu?
However, people can forget, thus able to live.
But I don't want to forget them.
Not them.
I might have been born to meet you.
I loved my mother, and her voice haunts me.
And now his voice haunts me as well.
I hear him again.
Thank you. I am glad to see you.
And I cry.
~Fin