Okey dokey! Finally offa my writers block!!
I'm feeling very sad today, but I have another song fic for you all.
This song has been used...millions of times in various fics...but I want to try to write one of my own...
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, or any of the characters, I am just a poor ol' girl. I don't own the song 'What Hurts The Most' either, Rascal Flatts does...
What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
Naruto sat in his apartment, his door locked tight, windows closed, and draped shut.
The rain poured outside, making a steady beat. A pot sat on the floor of his bedroom floor, catching the water that snuck its way into the room. He didn't care.
He leaned back on the pillow and stared at the ceiling, tears silently running down his cheeks, dropping onto the cold pillow below his head.
Naruto sniffed slightly as he looked over towards the calendar on the wall, tonight was when they celebrated his return. Naruto knew he was an idiot for saying what he said, he was depressed, and it was his fault, but he could care less, the bastard had no right to do what he done.
//Flashback//
"Sasuke?" Naruto called, staring at the raven haired teen infront of him.
Sasuke smiled slightly and took a step towards Naruto, the blond took a step back, pulling out a kunai and holding it protectivly in front of him.
"What do you want?"
He didn't reply, but took another step towards Naruto.
"Sasuke, don't come any closer, I swear if you do, I will kill you."
Sasuke just kept on taking steps until Naruto was backed up into a tree.
"Sasuke..." He didn't get a chance to finish, because Sasuke's lips were on his, giving his a chaste, but sweet kiss.
"Naruto...I'm sorry, I love you, please come back with me, forget the village." he whispered kissing Naruto again.
The kunai dropped from his hand and fell to the ground.
"Please Naruto." He whispered, sounding almost in tears.
Naruto looked into Sasuke's eyes, all traces of hatred, and distrust were gone, now only love and kindness were present, "Sasuke...I don't know what to say...leave the village...I don't thin-"
Sasuke silenced him with another kiss, "Don't think, do you love me Naruto?"
Naruto nodded silently.
"Then come with me..." Sasuke whispers kissing Naruto again, wrapping an arm around Naruto's waist.
Naruto resisted at first, but when he felt Sasuke's tounge run along the length of his bottom lip, he melted into the kiss, wrapping his arms around Sasuke's neck. He felt a hand run through his hair, drawing him deeper into the kiss, and farther from reality.
As they pulled apart, breathing heavily, Naruto smiled up at Sasuke, eyes still closed.
"I love you Sasuke." He whispers resting his head against Sasuke's shoulder, panting.
He didn't see the smirk on Sasuke's face, "I love you too Naruto."
Naruto hears a clicking noise, but pays no attention to it as Sasuke leant down and captures his lips again.
A sharp prick brings him back to reality as he pulled away from Sasuke and put his hand over the back of his neck, rubbing where the stinging was.
"What was-" He looks up at Sasuke, who held an empty syringe, "Sasuke?" he brought his hand from his neck, blood and a clear liquid was on his finger.
Sasuke chuckled, putting the syringe away, turned and walked away.
"Sasuke...I...what...I...you...said you love me..."
He stopped, and turned to face Naruto, "Me, love you? Naruto, you must be really naive, I don't even like you, you're just a mere obsticale, in my way, that I'm trying to get rid of. Once the poison settles in your system, you'll be dead, no one will know why."
Naruto stared wide eyed at Sasuke, "You bastard...You lied to me..."
"Good job Naruto, you're smarter than you look."
Naruto glared at Sasuke, his eyes flashing red, "You damn bastard, you tell me you love me, then you say you don't. Why? Why do you play with my feelings?"
"Because Naruto, you, are in my way of revenge. First it was your drive to bring me back, that I could over look. Then from a reliable source, I found out you were in love with me, so I devised this little plan to get rid of you, so I can get my revenge, and you...you will be out of my way."
Naruto growled, "So you think that this is all about you? You think that you're the only one who wants revenge, because you're family's gone? Open your fucking eyes Sasuke, there are others who don't have family, I don't have a family! I thought you knew that by now, you're not alone Sasuke."
Sasuke rolled his eyes, "I am alone, you have nothing on me, we're different Naruto, I had a family until my brother killed them, you...you have never had a family."
"You are the most un-greatful bastard. I can't believe I ever loved you. I hope Itachi fucking kills you." He picked the kunai up off of the ground and threw it at Sasuke, "I hope he kills you, you selfish bastard, and you go to hell."
//end flashback//
Naruto sighed and closed his eyes, crying silently, as he drifted off to sleep.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Dreams plagued his sleep, dreams of all the times before Sasuke left, when he could have told him he loves him.
//Flasback//
The kunai stuck out of Sasuke's shoulder, Naruto hit the target.
Sasuke looked at the kunai, then back at Naruto, "Idiot." his eyes were cold as he turned around and walked away.
As Naruto watched him walk away, the glare faded, and tears rolled down his cheeks.
"I hate you. I hate you so much...but..."
He dropped to his knees,
"I still love you..."
//End flashback//
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Early the next morning, a loud knocking woke Naruto up. He slowly got up, and opened the door. Sakura stood on the other side, a smile on her face.
"Hi Naruto, how are you today?"
Naruto smiled slightly, "Fine, would you like to come in?"
"Sorry Naruto, I have to hurry and get home, I just came to tell you there is a party tonight at seven at Sasuke-kun's we're celebrating his return."
Naruto opened his mouth to tell her that he didn't want to see the bastard, but she cut him off.
"Okay! See you tonight Naruto! I have to go now, Lee is waiting on me!"
He sighed and looked down, "Alright." he went back inside and layed back down on the bed, and closed his eyes, determined to try to get some sleep, and hopefully sleep through the whole party, so he wouldn't see the bastard's smug face.
//Later that night//
Naruto woke up and looked at the clock, 6:51, nine minutes before the party. He sighed and turned over, trying to go back to sleep, but he couldn't.
Getting up and walking to his closet, he opened it, deciding, he atleast should go, he owed it to Sakura.
Deciding on just a simple pair of baggy black jeans and a black shirt with orange sleeves, he put the clothes on and walked out of his apartment, not bothering to lock the door.
He walked down the path towards Sasuke's mansion, he yawned, he was still tired.
Looking up, Naruto stared at the moon, so free, so...bright...
"Naruto!" He heard a yell and there was Sakura, standing on the front porch, waving at him.
He sped up a bit, walking up beside Sakura.
She hugged him, "I'm so glad you could make it Naruto," she told him as she pulled him inside, where all of their friends were.
Naruto looked around at everyone, they looked so happy.
"Oh look Naruto, there's Sasuke-kun! Sasuke-kun, over here!" she yelled slightly over the crowd.
Naruto didn't eve look up as he heard Sasuke approching, nor did he look up when Sasuke greeted them.
"Naruto, you okay?" Sakura's concerned voice broke his muddled thoughts.
Naruto looked up, his eyes catching Sasuke's for a moment, "Yeah, fine Sakura-chan, just lost in my thoughts."
She smiled at him, buying the lie, she sighed, "Team Seven is back together again!"
She put her arms around Sasuke and Naruto, bringing them closer together as both Sasuke and Naruto made noises in the back of their throats, agreeing with her.
"Well, as much as I would like to hang around here, I have to go and talk to Lee." she said as she let them go and walked over to where she saw Lee, leaving Sasuke and Naruto standing there.
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Naruto opened his mouth to say something, but closed it as Sasuke turned and walked back into the crowd. Naruto shook his head and sighed, he knew it was a lost cause...Sasuke hated him.
He turned around, missing the pitying look Sakura and Ino sent him and walked out the front door.
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
He stared at the moon, bringing back his earlier thoughs, the moon, it was free, it watched over them, it was ever he closed his eyes as the wind blew.
"What are you doing out here?"
Naruto froze, he knew that voice "What do you want bastard?"
"Why didn't you die?"
Naruto let out a shakey breath, he was a fool thinking Sasuke would want anything else, "You didn't know bastard? I have a demon inside of me, Kyuubi flushed out all the poison before it went to my blood stream."
He heard Sasuke turn around.
"Did you ever get your revenge? The revenge that you needed so bad that you felt you had to kill your best friend?"
Sasuke stopped, "No." he said sharply, his voice cold, "I didn't. Something kept me from doing it."
Naruto chuckled, "Be glad you still have family." he said humorlessly.
"What's wrong with you Naruto?"
Not seeing that loving you
"You don't know do you? No matter how much I try to be angry at you for almost killing me, I can't."
"What do you mean?" He heard the curiosity in Sasuke's voice.
"I never stopped loving you Sasuke, never will. I try so hard to stop, but I can't, and you can't see that. You faked your feelings for me, and yet...I can't stop thinking about how safe I felt, in your arms." he turned around to face Sasuke, "You don't realize, that when you asked me to leave Konoha and come back with you, I was ready, ready to give up my dream, and I would have." he choked on a sob, "I would risk anything for you. Everything, but you don't care...so why should I?"
"Naru-"
Naruto turned away, "Just stop Sasuke, I don't want to hear it, okay? You obviously don't care, so just drop it."
"But-"
Naruto slowly walked away, "I still love you Sasuke, don't forget that."
That's what I was trying to do
Sasuke stood there as Naruto walked away.
"I love you too..."
Hm..do I smell a sequel for this?? lol...anyway, hope you like it! Oh yeah..my b-day is the 20th of this month! I'm so happy...could someone maybe...write me a fic for my b-day...I mean you don't have to, since I know everyone has better things to do than write stories for people they dont kno...
/sighs/ anyway, please review!