Chapter 1
13 year old Sasame Kisa glanced at the boy sitting next to her an sighed, ignoring what the teacher was saying, finding the boy much more interesting. He looked bored, golden eyes staring out the window, chin resting on the palm of his hand while his elbow was propped up on the desk. Kisa sighed and had the sudden urge to touch his light brown/red hair, although she thought it would look nicer if he spiked it up.
She shook her head. Stop thinking about hair, think about Kaoru, no! Pay attention to sensei! She looked away from her crush, she admits it's a crush, Hitachiin Kaoru, and back at the teacher.
Okay, listen to sensei...don't look at Kaoru. She ended up glancing at Kaoru again. Such beauty. How is it possible for there to be someone identical to him? She continued to stare, although tried to make it look like she was staring out the window. Which seemed to work, because Harutari-sensei suddenly called on her.
"Sasame-san, since you seem to find this class so boring you'll be reading your poem to the rest of the class first."
She sighed, but didn't abject, and stood up, poem they were assigned to write for homework in her hand. She stood in front of the class, blushing as red as her hair. She held the paper in front of her face and started speaking softly.
"Speak up Sasame-san, so everyone can hear you." Harutari-sensei said.
Kisa blushed more and cleared her throat.
"As days go by
All I can do is wish to fly
Above the problems and disaray
So high above I'll finally say
Notice me as I see you
Don't ignore my feelings true
I watch you as you pass me by
Hoping I do more than sigh
Wishing that I was strong
Like other girls who do no wrong
That is why I wish to fly
Above all others and their cries
Because if I rise above you all
Maybe you'll hear my inner call."
By the time she was finished her face was as red as a tomato and her hands were shaking. Harutari-sensei clapped, smiling. The rest of the class clapped politly, though they all seemed indifferent. Kisa glanced at Kaoru through her hair, but he was still looking out the window.
"That was wonderful Sasame-san, alright, can anyone top that?" He turned to the rest of the class, preparing to pick the next student. Kisa silently went back to her seat and sat down, staring at her desk.
I have to tell him. I can't keep using poems to try and get his attention. I have until tomorrow to tell him, I have to! She didn't realize class was over and that it was lunch time until someone stepped in front of her desk. She looked up at her female classmate, Natsu Mayubi, and blushed. Kisa always envied Mayubi's long wavy brown hair and pretty face, but most of all she envied Mayubi's confidence.
Mayubi smiled and Kisa blushed, not sure what to do. Because of her shyness, Kisa didn't like to talk to people, which caused the rest of the class to think she was a snob. Mayubi always tried to get her to open up, but with her being so popular there was always a group of people with her, causing Kisa to feel uncomfortable and refuse to speak.
"I really liked your poem Kisa-san, mine wasn't nearly as good."
Kisa smiled shyly and was about to answer, but then more people surrounded her desk, asking about her poem. Kisa soon became clostrophobic and pushed her chair out. "I-I have to go to the bathroom." She walked towards the door, but not before hearing some comments.
"Geez, she's such a snob."
"I know, she thinks she sooooo much better than everyone."
"Did you see how she just ignored Mayubi?"
Kisa bowed her head and leaned against the wall outside the classroom, hitting her head. Stupid Supid Stupid! How can you expect Kaoru to like you now? Kisa blushed and glanced into the classroom and looked at the Hitachiin twins. Hikaru was playing a video game while Kaoru pointed things out. She had been in the same class as the twins since she was small and first devloped a crush on Kaoru a couple of years ago when a mean boy had cut off her ponytail as a joke. She had started crying and Kaoru gave her a hankerchief and told her she looked cute with any hair style.
She knew he probably forgot because he never asked for the hankerchief back, but she still hoped he did. She spent every year trying to find a difference between Hikaru and Kaoru, and she noticed that Kaoru's grades were always higher than Hikaru's, and Kaoru was a little nicer and his voice was softer when he talked. No one else seemed to notice, but Kisa had better observation skills than the others, seeing as her social skill stunk.
She sighed when the bell rang, signaling the start of the next class. She took her seat and spent the rest of class writing a note for Kaoru and placed it on his desk after everyone left, for him to find the next day.
Kisa nervously played with her fingers and waited for Kaoru, hoping he'd come. He hands began to shake and she glanced at her watch.
He's a minute late. He's not going to come, I should go-
"Kisa."
Kisa's head snapped up and she watched as Kaoru walk towards her, her letter in his hand. She suddenly felt embarrassed about the bunny print border of the paper and she blushed, but smiled anyway. He came. "Kaoru-kun, I-"
"Actually I'm Hikaru, you must have put this on my desk by mistake."
She looked taken aback. But it has to be Kaoru, I put it on the desk next to mine. She voiced her thought, but 'Hikaru' shook his head.
"That's my desk, Kaoru sits on my left."
Kisa blushed crimson and looked down, feeling stupid, but confused. "Oh, I-I'm sorry, but...I was so sure, I'm sorry." Her hands began to shake violently and she hid them behind her back. "Then, can you give Kaoru-kun the note, I really wanted to talk to him."
Hikaru held up the note. "Well Kaoru already likes someone so he asked me to come tell you."
Kisa let out a shaky breath, feeling heartbroken. Oh course he likes someone else. Her face heated up and tears began to form. "Oh...t-then I guess the note was a s-stupid idea." She reached out, ignoring her shaking hand, but suddenly Hikaru grabbed it and held it softly between both of his hands.
"It wasn't a stupid idea, I only wish it was addressed to me."
She looked up and gasped. "W-What?"
He grasped her chin, other hand still holding Kisa's, and smiled. "I think you're really cute, and I look just like Kaoru, so what's the difference, right? Go out with me."
She stared into his eyes and frowned. He is Kaoru, his eyes are softer and Hikaru would have been crueler when he shattered my hopes. Kisa sniffed and shook her head. "If I liked someone on looks only than it wouldn't matter, but I like Kaoru-kun."
"But we're the same."
Kisa shook her head and backed up, bowing her head. "Kaoru-kun is nicer and smarter than Hikaru-kun, he doesn't take as much joy from their jokes. I wanted to tell Kaoru-kun that I've liked him for a long time, I wanted him to know that all the poems I wrote were for him. I wanted him to know my feelings before I had to move away, but it doesn't matter." She grabbed the note and ripped it, letting it fall to the ground. She looked into the boy's surprised eyes, showing the tears rolling down her cheeks. "Goodbye, Kaoru-kun." She turned and ran away before he could do anything.
The second Hitachiin twin came out of his hiding place and ran to his brother's side. "Kaoru, what happened?"
Kaoru stared after Kisa, before smirking and looking at Hikaru. "She ran off when I said that 'Kaoru' liked someone else."
Hikaru sighed. "How boring. Should have known she would have been way more sensitive, she looked like she was going to faint." He laughed and patted Kaoru's back, who smiled, and they walked back to the school. "We'll see if she tries again."
Kaoru shook his head, looking down slightly. "She said she's moving, and that she just wanted me to know her feelings before she left."
"Did she know you were Kaoru?" Hikaru asked surprised.
Kaoru shrugged. "Who knows." He glanced back to where Kisa was.
She knew, and now she's gone.