Saya woke up unpleasantly that night. Hagi sat in a chair next to the bed. Saya wrapped her arms around her waist and trembled. She felt the life in her womb, small but beautiful. Hagi's baby...it was meant to be Carl's baby though. Saya trembled, Carl's voice ringed into her mind.

"Saya, are you alright?" Hagi asked, setting a hand on her shoulder.

"Ye-yeah, just feeling a little sick. Can I be alone for a while?" Saya asked. Hagi nodded his head and left as Saya commanded. Carl's teasingly seductive words filled Saya's mind;

I am the man who loves you, Saya.

Hollowing something inside her, the subtle part of her soul that still loved him.

Long lost words whisper slowly to me

Still can't find what keeps me here

(Ohohohohh)

When all this time I've been so hollow inside

Saya dreamt of him again, dreamt of the first night he kissed her. The first time he kissed her and she did not fight. Then, in her slumber, recalling that evening of nightmarish reality. The night she killed him and begged for his forgiveness. The night she repented for killing him and loving him. Cried for him and held him, perhaps, clandestinely mourning Phantom. Phantom was a part of Carl, and she loved Phantom all the same.

A shiver ran up her spine and she felt his fingers on her neck, caressing her skin along the veins. He's still hurting, mocking, and seducing her.

I know you're still there

Watching me

Wanting me

I can feel you pull me down

"Carl?" she called out his name. She felt his lips on her neck, she shivered and squeaked.

I will be back to complete my love for you

"Please...stop..." she closed her eyes and wept. Her body was pulled into her memories, every caress flowing into her body. She shivered from it and feared it...and yet she loved it. At least, she remembered she loved it when Carl touched her.

Fearing you

Loving you

I won't let you pull me down

(ahhhahah...)

Saya pulled herself from the memories, still feeling a subtle recollection of Carl's caresses against her skin. The scent of his blood filled her nose and its sweet flavor in her mouth. She clenched her teeth together and squeaked as if she was about to gasp hysterically into tears. She shot up from the bed, tearing through her closet.

Trying to prove Carl was not there before she went mad. His heart beat in her head, pounding and pulsing into her as she listened. How lovely it sounded and how she envied it.

Hunting you

I can smell you

Alive (Ahhahhahahh...)

Your heart pounding in my head

"Please, someone tell me he isn't here!" she pleaded, clutching her head and whimpering. Her blood raced through her and her heart beat so loudly with the one inside her head. Ever since she had killed Carl (for personal and obliged reason) she had been haunted. Haunted by his touch, words, and burns, haunted by her love and hate for him. Carl was her unreal obsession now. There was no way to get rid of him, but she wouldn't let herself go back.

Go back to being foolish and unintentionally deceiving her friends and family. And most importantly of all; her lover, Hagi.

Watching me

Wanting me

I can feel you pull me down

Saving me

There had been times when he had saved her from pain. Saved her the pain of tears and truth by holding her and solacing her. But, he was just lying. Their love was not real and it was nothing but pure seduction. All that was necessary was Saya's body, all that was needed was a child.

And yet, Carl treated her like an equal. Like a long lost lover, his love felt so real. It felt so real that even Saya couldn't deny. She would lie awake for hours and ponder about his words and touch. Only hoping that all love she had for him would die.

She loved Carl, and Carl loved to hurt her. And, back then, she used to like it.

Raping me

Watching me

(Ahahah times 8)

(Watching me)

"Please, I just want him to go away..." she wept. She fell to her knees and tried to suppress the tears. But, Carl would never leave her alone. He was inside her, in her blood and a perpetual part of her heart. Subtly embracing itself to torture her with every memory and sensation he offered her. The day she awakened Carl had kissed and she should've ran away. She didn't even know him and she already granted him her trust...and her hand.

She was a fool and ashamed of herself for loving him. And also ashamed that she had killed the one being she first fell in love in this life.

AHHAHHAHHH

(Wanting me)

AHHAHHAHHH

(I can feel you pull me down)

She could fell herself sink into madness with his essence, slowly and fearfully being pulled down by his lovingly startling grasp. Pulling her down and down until she was afraid of the dark and savoring his body's warmth.

In the darkness he was the only one to protect her from her sins. The only one who could keep her sane in the darkness before she went mad with regret and passion.

Feel you pull me down

(Fearing you)

AHHAHHAHHH

(Loving you)

Saya, I will never leave you. I want revenge and in this world you belong to me. It's not exactly ideal but it's good enough. It's a world all our own! Don't you love me?

Saya screamed as she felt his arms embrace her. Her eyes shot open, her sanity lost in a sea of guilt and confusion. She wanted to go to that world, tonight she wanted to see him again. She felt his arms tighten around her waist, his hands on her stomach. She could hear him chuckle contemptuously. His lips to her cheekbone, softly kissing her.

And now, Saya, it begins.

AHHAHHAHHH

(I won't let you...)

I won't let you pull me down!

Close your eyes and give me your hand. No need to be afraid.

His hands tangible against her skin, and so was the pain.