Usagi POV

As I sit here upon my white cloud, I watch the scene unfold. It stings knowing I have caused so much pain.

It started simple enough, my background I mean. I was your average teenage girl, lazy and whiny, my motto: Ignorance is bliss. That all changed when a certain talking black cat happened to wander into my life.

I had always been told that I was nothing special just another fish in the sea of conformity. This cat, "Luna" as I learned, revealed secrets that I may have never wanted to know. She explained how I was part of a Sailor Senshi, that I was the super hero Sailor Moon! Sounds great, huh? It was, at first. I mean I had something to live for, well for a while, but it didn't take long to learn that I would die protecting these people, but I continued fighting, being as selfless as possible.

While I was a Senshi, my Social life started disappearing. I rarely was able to enjoy video games; Concerts, even all my parties or sleepovers were disrupted by yumas. Naru, poor Naru. She was always in the middle. In my 'normal' life, she was my best friend, but as Sailor Moon she was just another civilian. So eventually I just gave up on being her friend, fearing that one-day I may be responsible for her death.

Then there was Mamoru. Arrogant, rude and devastatingly handsome. We fought every day, finding anything and everything to fight about. It may have seemed that we hated each other, but in reality, it was a barrier. We were afraid of the other being hurt. Little did we know that the other was a Super hero. Mamoru Tuxedo Kamen, I, Sailor Moon.

Life is ironic in so many ways. The very night we learned who the other was, was the night we expressed our feelings. To top it of further we also learned I was the missing princess Serenity, and that my Mamo-Chan was my missing prince Endymion. Turns out that we swore to love each other for all eternity and found each other in this life. We said that nothing would pull us apart. Who knew that it would be one of US to break our relationship? Ironic eh? Now I'm up here as everyone is below me, Minako-Chan, Ami-Chan, Makoto-Chan, Rei-Chan, Naru and even Mamoru. I see them all in my home, weeping and mourning over my 'Lost' Soul. I'm not lost, I'm free. I see Mina, Ami, and Mako holding Luna and Artemis, gathering in a circle blaming themselves for my death. If any one is to blame it is him.

What is this? Why am I being pulled? I'm back on earth, but I'm not seen. I am sitting on my bed and I see someone walk in and sit next to me. It's Mamoru. Why does he look so distraught? Isn't this what he wanted?

"It's all my fault." I hear him murmur as he buries his head in hi hands.

"Your right it is your fault" I say silently. Unaware of how changed my heart will be in the next period of time. "Why does it have to be this way?" He asks and I can hear his broken heart coming through his voice, and for the first time I am aware of his tears. 'Oh god I have made the biggest mistake of all.' " It's all that Damn Dream's fault. If I hadn't listened and pushed her away to save her, she would still be with me. Oh Usako." He says so softly that only I can hear.

Now I realize why everything had happened. I haven't just ruined my life; I've ruined his as well. Oh mamo-chan, forgive me. The taste of salty tears fresh on my lip. The next moments are spent in silent reflection before I see him open the bag I had left everyone. He goes through the contents and I see the reaction on his face as he sees my compact. I know he knows that I jumped out of the window when I drained my energy instead of "Falling" when I slept walked. The guilt is eating me alive and I need air, so I slowly open the window so will not scare him.

At the creak the window makes I see him jump and turn. It kills my heart as I see the hopeful look on his face, I see the desire he has that the noise was me, for him it must drive him crazy, and too little does he know that it truly is me. When Mamoru turns again I see him knock the bag over and I see my letter tumble out. A part of me is breaking, but at the same time mending.

The letter is the good bye I need him to see. To let him know I love him and that I always have and always will. I can't help but laugh at how true the last line is. I am watching him, closer then he knows. I watch him as he finishes and I catch what his eyes are fixated on.

The gold star shaped locket. My locket. His locket. Our locket.

I watch him lift the locket and place it in his pocket, and head down the stairs, to the room in which my body lies. I watch as he sees my body laying there in a crisp white dress, which resembles closely my serenity dress. I watch closely as he walks over to me, making sure the room is clear of life. I feel a tingling sensation upon my lips as I watch him kiss me one last time. I can feel his cool breath in my ear as he leans over and whispers to my body. The words shock me to my core "I'll be with you soon...my love…my Usako." I try so hard to stop him from going through with this, but it is all in vain. Mamoru lies there next to me and drinks from a small vile in his hand. 'Cyanide' I say silently. I Feel warmth as he grabs my body's small hand in his own.

At this point I can hear the strong thought that pulses through his mind as he dies 'I'm so sorry my love, I'm Sorry I left you alone' …. 'No Mamo-Chan, I'm sorry I left you alone. I'm sorry I gave up so easily. I'm sorry to hurt you so much. I'm sorry I was in your life.' I Cry pitifully and I feel my body raise back up to my cloud, and I lay there crying at the pain I have caused.

"It was all my fault." I feel a warm hand upon my shoulder and it causes me to sit up and wipe the tears from my eyes, but when I behold the face of the owner of the hand, the tears are more fervent upon my cheek. "Don't cry anymore Usako." He lightly cups my face. "We are both to blame, but it doesn't matter anymore as we are together now." I close my eyes and feel content as I am wrapped in My Mamo-chan's Strong arms. "Yes Mamo-Chan, we are." We stay that way for a while and I hear music play and I open my eyes to see a star shaped locket, gold and shining it plays a song, our song. For it is Our Locket.

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