A new Story YEAH !!! this one ATM is being typed at my dads so there might eb a while between uploads, that is until i get my cord back.

Thank you all so much for your great reviews for Early Sunrise lets see how you like this one

You don't know the half of it

She glared at him how could he smile is he really that heartless she thought. She'd never really pegged Anthony DiNozzo as heartless but here he was laughing ans smiling. The women he loved she knew it, there friends knew had died two months ago thanks to one Ari Haswari in front of him no less.

"How could he get over her that quickly?" she asked her farting hippo Bert she didn't expect an answer she never did but talking to him let her vent her frustration out with out hurting her friends. She looked at her computer as Tony walked over to her.

"What is it Ab's you've been sending death glares at me all day" he looked at his friend tiredly rubbing his eyebrow.

Abby looked up and glared at him again this time into his eyes. "you don't care do you? The women you love and don't lie I know you do is dead gone and now you have some one new. It's all just a game to you isn't it? Did Kate mean anything to you at all or was it just a game you were playing? Was she a dream a conquest something you could never have but always wanted? Tony what was she ?"

It may have been the lack of food or the fact that they had been at work working on this one case for the last week he wasn't sure it could have been that he had not had a proper nights sleep in weeks or the fact that he was harboring a secret from his friends but he snapped.

"You don't have any idea what I have gone through after that day, you'll never know what its like to see your partner your best friends and the women you have loved for so long die, in your arms. I would never wish that upon you Abby ever its not something I want to relive ever again, if I could reverse time I would I would go back and tell her how I felt I would make sure it was me who Ari shot not he.

So I wouldn't have you glaring at me all the time I know you hate me for not saving her I hate my self for that did you think I didn't want to save her for goodness sake Abigail I love her I always have and always will and I kick my self every day for not telling her but noting is going to bring her back.

I wake up screaming every night because of the flash backs I have don't you dare say I don't care because you don't know the half if it. The only way I get to have a decent nights sleep is if I'm stone...cold...drunk...so get off your high horse and stop glaring at me like its my fault, I know it is so get over it ok"

Abby stared at him this was the first time he'd called her by her full name most people did that only when they were getting mad at her. Looking closely she could see the well hidden bags under his eyes, and the sorrow that was in them as well. He also never made full eye contact with her either.

"Then how come when ever I have seen you at all today you've been laughing and smiling?" she asked quietly

"It's a front ab's do you really think Gibbs would let me come to work if I acted how I really feel so you think I wear the thin layer of make up for fun no I don't I do it to trick Gibbs cause on the inside ab's I feel like I've been ran over by a ten ton truck, at high speeds"

Abby nodded it all made sense now when ever she saw him smile it never reached his eyes not like it had before and probably would when, the pain of losing Kate had gone but it would never be the same things would never be the with out her.