I Just Need Your Honesty

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Chapter 1: Why do you always lie to me?

'I hate him… I hope that I really hate him! But my heart still says that I love him too much… But why he never admits his feeling on me?! That swordsman loves me… I know it! I still remember how he tried to comfort me when Vivi broke up with me. That time, when I was crying in the kitchen…'

--- flashback

The kitchen door cracked open... Zoro stopped at the sight. He looked at Sanji who was sitting on the floor, body shivering, not looking at him. Zoro saw a paper on the table and walked toward it.

"W-What are you doing here?! Get out of my kitchen!" Sanji shouted to him, still not looking at him. His voice was different from usual because of the sobs.

Zoro took the paper and Sanji quickly stood up to take it back. And that was when Zoro saw his tears on his cheeks. Zoro grabbed the paper tightly and tried to read it as Sanji was still trying to get it back, pulled Zoro's hands but to no avail.

"Zoro! Give it back to me! I said give it back!" Sanji shouted and sobbed.

'Sanji-kun, I'm so happy to be your girl since we were in Arabasta, but I'm sorry, I think our relationship is far enough now. I've decided to break up with you. Don't worry about me; I'm Kohza's girl now and I'm going to marry him. Don't reply this letter because I don't want Kohza to know about our relationship. Thanks for all. Vivi.'

Zoro kept in silence. He still stared at the letter and his mouth opened a bit. Sanji had stopped trying to pull the letter from him and he fell down to the floor again, knelt, covered his face with his hands and cried.

"What the fuck…?!" Zoro whispered sharply under his breathe.

Zoro tore the letter into parts and threw them to the floor angrily. Sanji just glared at it, wiped his tears. Then Zoro started to kneel beside Sanji on one of his legs. Sanji turned his face away and sobbed.

"Just… laugh at me if you want. Just… do anything that you want! I know you'll…" Sanji never finished his words. Zoro held his thin body in his muscled arms.

"Shut up… I won't do such things," Zoro said calmingly yet gently, tightened his grip on Sanji's shoulders.

The next second, Sanji started to hit Zoro's chest with his hands desperately, "You… Don't act like you care about this! Don't act like you know how my feeling is! Don't act like…"

Zoro held his thin wrists.

"Sanji…!"

"…Zoro… Let go off me…! …I said let go off me!!!" he shouted on Zoro's face. His cheeks covered by his own tears.

Finally he bowed his head and rested it on Zoro's chest weakly and cried again. Zoro sighed, held his body tighter than before. Sanji's sobs became louder and louder, he almost screamed. He couldn't hold his sadness and angriness anymore and he just moved his hands to hold Zoro's back. Zoro blushed.

"…I do care, Sanji. I do know about your feeling," Zoro started to caress Sanji's blond hair gently. He closed his eyes softly with his hand still moving.

After sat on that position for almost an hour, Sanji finally stopped sobbing. There's an awkward silence between them, until finally Sanji broke the silence with his whisper.

"…Zoro…"

"Huh?"

"…Why did you do this? Why do you have to cheer me?"

"Err… I…" he blushed, "We're all nakama, right?"

"…Only that…?"

Zoro blushed more, "Y-Yeah… How are you?"

Sanji moved to let go off Zoro's hug, "I'm okay. Thanks." He still grabbed the material of Zoro shirt tightly.

"Sanji… I hope you're really okay…" Zoro whispered and leaned forward. He touched Sanji's forehead with his lips. Both of them blushed. Zoro quickly leaned backwards.

"I… I'm… sorry if you…" Zoro hadn't finished his words when he felt Sanji's wet lips pressed against his left cheek, near his lips. He blushed even more, Sanji did too.

"Err… it's okay, Zoro…" Sanji blushed, "Now I… I just need to take a rest now. I'm gonna sleep in my room before our dinner time."

"Oh, okay." Zoro let go off Sanji's body and stood up awkwardly. He pulled Sanji's hand to help him stand up.

Sanji said nothing but he just smiled, and then walked to his room.

end flashback-----

'Zoro still glares at me with his blushing face everytime we meet… But he's always avoiding me when Luffy is being near us… That swordsman, he knew that Luffy loves me so he tries to keep his feeling on me by himself, in his deepest heart. Does he think I'm that stupid so I can't see it?! Why doesn't he try to understand my feeling on him too…? Why doesn't he think about his own happiness too…?'

"Hi Sanji," somebody came to the kitchen.

"…Hi Luffy, want me to help with anything?" Sanji asked him back.

"No, I just want to know, do you have any plan to do on this island?"

"No, what's wrong?"

"I… If you don't have any plan, why don't we walk around the town tonight?" Luffy blushed.

"…Ah yes! I have to buy some new food ingredients for our stock, so, you can ask Usopp or others," Sanji replied him, of course he lied.

"…Mmm, okay. I'll go ask Usopp and Chopper," Luffy walked out weakly.

'My captain, why don't you realize what's going on here?' he thought. A puff of smoke came out from his mouth.

That night, everybody spent their time in the town. Nami and Robin walked through cafes and shopping centers. Luffy, Usopp, Chopper, and Franky bought some random stupid items like Indian Drums (no offense to the Indians, really), Explosive Bubble Gum, and some Farting Pillows.

'I wonder where Sanji is now… Where are the markets?' Luffy thought.

Back to the Thousand Sunny, Sanji was washing all plates and cups after their dinner. Then he walked out from the kitchen, only to found Zoro was sitting on the deck, looking at the sea.

'Che… He's there… What should I do now? Where are the others? Ah yes, spending their time in the town… So, it's only him and me here…' Finally Sanji decided to walk to him.

"Hey, shitty-swordsman, why don't you go to the town likes the others?" Sanji asked, sat beside him.

"… How about you? Didn't Luffy ask you to go anywhere with him?" Zoro replied, still looking at the sea.

"He did. But I… rejected him," Sanji remembered about how he lied to Luffy, "I told him that I want to buy some new food ingredients."

"So why are you still here now if you want to buy…" Zoro hadn't finished his words.

"I lied to him, stupid."

"…Why?"

"Because… I don't want to have a walk with him, only with him,"

"…Why?" Zoro finally turned his face to him.

"Why do I have to? I'm not his boyfriend, at all!" Sanji answered him, tried to make him realize everything.

"…" Zoro turned away, "I know you're not. But, I think Luffy…" Zoro never finished his words.

"You think Luffy has a feeling on me and want to be my boy, huh?! Then why don't you think about my feeling too?! I don't have such feeling at him!" Sanji still tried to make Zoro know what was happening around them.

"…Why don't you try to reply his feeling on you? You knew already that he loves you then you can just try to feel the same, right???" Zoro looked at him and blushed, without even realized it.

"Because I love someone else, stupid!" Sanji shouted on him. He knew that his face was really red at the time, but he didn't care.

They froze for a second.

"…!!!" Zoro looked away.

"Hey, look at me! …Why are you afraid to know the next sentence of mine???" Sanji shouted and pulled Zoro's shoulder so they faced again. Zoro blushed even more before he turned his look away.

"…You… you're a coward! Face the fact, can't you?! Let me continue my sentence, the one that I love is…"

"SANJI!!! I don't… I don't want to know about that!" he squeezed his eyes close and blushed harder.

"…you," Sanji said softly, almost heard as a whisper, "I do love you, stupid."

"…Sanji," Zoro shove Sanji's hand away from his shoulder,"Believe me, Luffy is really serious about his feeling on you."

"Then I'm serious about mine too!!! Do you think I'm not…?" Sanji bowed his head weakly.

"… I… Sorry, I don't have such feeling on you, so you'd better just accept Luffy's love. He's really serious…"

"I can't!!! And I know you're lying to me! Why don't you just admit your true feeling honestly???" Sanji shouted again, but not looking at him.

"…I'm not! I'm telling you the truth!" Zoro shouted back to him, grabbed his collar.

"… I know Luffy is a good guy! I know he's the one who has made us all together! I know he has introduced us to a true friendship! I know he has be a good friend for you, and for me, and for all of us! It's okay if you want to see him happy, I think everyone does, including me. But you still have to admit your own true feeling! You still have to think about yourself!" Sanji shouted back as he was trying to not let his tears fall.

Zoro let go off Sanji's collar slowly and looked away again, "What do you mean?"

"I know you do love me… even if you'll never say it," Sanji said softly.

"Sanji, I…" Zoro never finished his words.

"I think… you just try to do anything as long as it can make him happy, right? Although you have to sacrifice your own feeling, your own love!!! Think about my feeling too, can't you?!" Sanji shouted to him again, turned his face away and wiped his tears that he couldn't take anymore.

"Sanji…"

"I can't have a love relationship with someone that I don't love, but I can have one with someone that I love and loves me!!! And you know it's you, liar!" Sanji grabbed his collar and hit his chest. He couldn't hold all his tears anymore, and he didn't care if Zoro see it.

"For how many times do you want me to tell you that I don't?!"

"Then why did you have to cheer me when I was sad?!? Why did your face always blush everytime we met?!? Why did you always look at me when we ate together?!? Why did you always worry about me so much when I came from a fight?!? Why did you… kiss me…?"

"…OKAY!!! Let me prove you, my only reason to do all of them is…… only lust!!!"

Zoro suddenly stood up and grabbed Sanji's wrist roughly.

"Zoro!!!" Sanji screamed as Zoro's nails pressed hard against his skin. Zoro dragged him strongly and roughly to the nearest room, kitchen. Sanji tried to let go off Zoro's grab, but he was too strong. When they arrived, Zoro quickly slam the door behind him. Sanji tried to stand up but Zoro pushed his shoulders and pinned him down on the hard floor.

"Zoro, you…"

Zoro kissed him lustfully, pushed his tongue forcefully. Sanji's eye widened, gasped. Finally, Zoro ended that kiss and breathed heavily. Sanji looked down and realized their position. He blushed.

"Zoro, what do you want???"

Zoro didn't say anything. He moved his upper body so he was kneeling now, and he started to take off his white shirt so fast that some of the buttons popped. After threw his shirt away, he went to Sanji's tie, jacket and shirt.

"Zoro!" Sanji tried to push Zoro's hands but to no avail, Zoro was too much stronger than him. His shirt's collar tore when Zoro took off his shirt without opening his buttons first and threw it away. Then his hands went to Sanji's buckle, and finally unzipped his pants.

"Zo…"

Zoro gave him another lustful kiss that made Sanji's head couldn't move as he pulled Sanji's pants down to his knees and undone his own pants. Zoro ended that kiss.

"Zoro, you… AAAAHHH…!!!" Sanji felt a pain between his legs as Zoro gave him a really strong thrust.

"This is what you want, huh??? You want…ah… prove, right?!"

"ZORO!!! Ahh… Zoro!! Ahh…!!! Stop it- AHH…!!" Sanji screamed. He could feel his tears flowed from his eyes. It was too hurtful for him. First, Zoro did it without any preparation or lubrication. Second, Zoro's dick was too big for him. Third, Sanji was a virgin.

"Ahh… shit!" Zoro cursed under his breathe. "ZORO!!!" Sanji felt some warm liquid in him. The next second, Sanji felt better, even though it was still so hurt. Zoro grabbed Sanji's arms stronger on the hard wooden floor and thrust into him rougher. His thrusts became faster and faster, increased the hurt for Sanji. More liquid filled Sanji. Sanji wondered was that Zoro's semen, or his own blood? The only sounds in that room were Sanji's screams and Zoro's breathes. Now, he could feel some liquid was spreading all over the floor.

Sanji thought they have been doing it for so long time even though he was not sure about it exactly. He wondered why the others hadn't come back yet. Finally Zoro stopped it all. He let go off Sanji's arms. He breathed heavily near Sanji's ear and his body was full with sweat. Sanji was sweaty and breathed heavily as well. His light colored body and face were reddened. There were tears all over Sanji's cheeks and sides.

"…Hah… That's it, Sanji… My only feeling on you is lust, not love…! Hah…hah…" Zoro's chest felt really hurt when he saw that Sanji was crying. He stood up and wore his clothes after cleaned his body with a blanket in the kitchen. Then he glanced at Sanji who was still sobbing before left him alone in the kitchen, slammed the door behind him. Sanji saw the dark night sky outside the kitchen before the door closed and the only thing that Sanji could hear was his own sobs now.

"Bastard…Liar…" Sanji whispered weakly to the empty room. 'That stupid swordsman… It hurts so much…! But it's not what he has done to me that made me hurt… I feel hurt because he still didn't want to admit his true feeling… Zoro, do you even know how hurt my heart is?!'

At the same time, Zoro was sitting on the floor outside the kitchen, leaning his back and head on the kitchen door. One of his hands was running through his green hair and another one was stroking his dick strongly.

'Shit! That hurts too much for even me! Did I do it too much so Sanji can't stop crying…? Shit! I'm so bad… I'm sorry Sanji… I do love you… Do you even know how hurt my heart is?!'

End of Chapter 1.

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A cliffhanger, huh? Review if you like, please!