Aviéntame

I'm obsessed with her. . that was all to it. I'm obsessed with the way her hair moves in the wind, the way she glows every time she enters a damn room and the way her smile breaks my heart with pleasure. She's so gorgeous that it makes you wonder. . .is she really human or a goddess. I keep telling myself "she's too young to get married. . . way too young", that damn girl that haunted my dreams was getting married to the dumb blonde, who is actually one of my best friends. Why in the hell did she fall for him anyways?! He was an idiot. . . damn I know it she's going to get her heart broken again. Yes again, she kept going out with him through out high school and he kept breaking her heart, and now that it's our first year in college she thinks that he's an adult now so it's time to get married. But that's where she's wrong he was just a kid. . . a very immature kid.

I never really spoke with her a few words here and a few words there but somehow I had found a way to fall completely and desperately in love with her. Damn that girl. . . she's making me lose my mind each time I think about her. . . it sickens me. Each time when my girlfriend and I have sex, I'm not thinking of my girlfriend but of the one that I'll probably never have. I never loved my girlfriend to begin with. . . it was just an easy way to get some, because well let's face it the one I truly want, wanted my best friend. That's what sickens me also, that I'm just using a girl for sex, but I can't stop it.

"Sasuke I need to talk to you about Saturday night"

"About what Sakura?" I wasn't even paying attention to her I was too caught up in one of my paintings to listen to what she had to say. She got frustrated and said it more louder this time

"Saturday night Hinata and Naruto's engagement party. . . what will you be wearing?"

"Why does it matter?" making my voice sound monotonous just to piss her off

"Ugh because we HAVE to match!"

"Do we really?"

"Yes! Anyone who goes out with someone HAS to match whenever they go out" she was becoming agitated, I could tell because the way her eyebrows furrowed and because of the wrinkles on her forehead. I didn't say anything for a while, she just stood there waiting for a reply, so to make her angry even more I simply said

"Huh.. . I need to get new paint brushes"

"UGH!! SASUKE!!" she walked out of the room and into the kitchen, I smirked it was too much fun making her angry, I didn't love her so why did I care. Now if it was Hinata on the other hand. . . I would treat her like a queen.

I continued to paint, Sakura was still in the kitchen rummaging through pots and pans it was starting to aggravate me. How in the hell was I supposed to work! So I got up and went into the kitchen to see what she was doing. She was on her knees looking though the bottom cupboards, I noticed that she had already began to make dinner. . . just a small salad. I was about to say something when someone knocked on the door

"Oh Sasuke could you get that please I'm kinda busy"

I nodded my head as I walked over to the door. There was an angel standing in my doorway looking absolutely beautiful she stood there bitting her lip.

"Um. . h-hi Uchiha. . is S-Sakura here"

I was about to answer her but I felt someone behind me jump on my back and rest their head on my shoulder

"Hi Hinata!. . . where's Naruto?"

For some reason when Sakura asked that Hinata's eyes suddenly lost the twinkle that was always present.

"O-oh h-he couldn't make it"

"Oh well that's too bad please come inside"

Hinata shyly smiled as she walked in, Sakura was about to walk after her but I grabbed her arm

"you didn't tell me we were having a guest over"

"well you weren't listening to me. . . you were paying attention to your little finger paints besides I invited her for some girl talk so-you-can't- join" very roughly she pulled her arm out of my grasp and walked into the kitchen with her fake dopey smile. I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself "calm. . . calm. . . stay calm. . . your not gonna go crazy just because she's in the next room". . . oh yes I was.

I couldn't concentrate on the painting, I painted the same tree green. . . it was hard to think when she was in the next room. I just had to look at her to maybe calm me down a bit, so I leaned my chair back and was eye to eye with her. I guess I lost my balance because the chair leaned all the way back.

"Oh my god!! Sasuke! Are you ok?" Sakura ran up to me and helped me up, Hinata was standing in the door way. . . she had tears in her eyes.

"Um. . S-Sakura I should go now"

"Aw so soon?"

She covered half her mouth with her fingers, she was probably feeling a bit awkward after what just happened.

"Um. . y-yeah Naruto should be coming back from class now. . . I'm going to go meet h-him there"

Sakura grabbed my hand as we both walked Hinata out

"Bye Hinata! We'll see you on Saturday!" could she yell any louder. . . my god was she annoying.

"Poor girl" she looked down as she closed the door, why was she a "Poor Girl"

"huh what? What's going on with Hinata?" I asked a bit too enthusiastically, Sakura looked at me in confusion then smirked

"Aw your so cute Sasuke!" she ran up and me and clung to my neck, I didn't touch her. . . she was aggravating me right now.

"Yeah yeah just tell me what's wrong"

"Well. . . Hinata thinks Naruto doesn't really love her" I furrowed my brows of course he didn't he cheated on her at least 3 times! I sat down at the table and watched as she washed the dishes that was then when I realized she didn't make dinner for me

"hey where's my dinner?"

Quickly she turned around, soap dripping off of her hands and ran to the cupboard grabbing a box of cereal. She placed it infront of me and kissed my cheek

"Sorry baby"

I grumbled as she walked away

"So. . . is she still getting married to him?"

"Um yeah she is" the water was running, maybe that's why she didn't hear what I said next or maybe she didn't want to

"She shouldn't get married to him.."

Sakura should really use a different shampoo, it makes my stomach churn. It was some kind of shampoo that guaranteed to put your "lover" in the mood, but it only put me in the mood to throw up. She snuggled closer to me but I kept moving from her, if she aggravated me this much then why didn't I just break up with her? I would always ask myself this question every night. . . I could simply just get up pack my things quietly and leave. My head would always go through the scenario I'd get up really quietly grab some clothes as quickly as possible, walk out the door and drive down to my parents house, but if she were to wake up I'd drop everything and run as if my life depended on it. Heh. . . that would be fun, to really run away, to be free from your own prison, and in this case it was this room. . . the room with Sakura in it. Just thinking about all that freedom caused my legs to swing to the side of the bed, just a push of the arms and I'd be sitting up. But she stopped me

"Sasuke. . . can't sleep?"

"No. . just a bad dream"

she patted my shoulder, as she laid back down

"Oh ok just go back to sleep" that was another think I hated. . . she never really tried to cheer me up from something, I know I wouldn't have feelings for her if she did but still I would have at least liked her. . . . a little bit. Ugh oh well maybe some other day I'll end up doing my plan.