Chapter Four.

Last Time.

Buffy turned around on the stairs and replied to her sister.

"Nothings wrong. I didn't sleep well last night so don't worry about it," she said and continued to walk up the stairs.

"Was that Buffy?" said Willow coming through the hall with a bowl full of pancake mix.

"Yeah. Some things not right, I just know it." she said

"Well, we'll find out later. First we need some food in our bodies, then we shall see what's troubling Buffy. I'm sure it's nothing, just slayer stuff and all," she said putting an arm behind Dawn and moving her into the kitchen.

"Yeah, we'll find out. We have to," she said and that was the end of the conversation.

Now.

Upstairs, Buffy's Room.

'I can't keep doing this, I want keep doing this, I'm strong, then why is it every time I see him I get reminded of the way we were, I know I don't love him, but just remembering when I with him, he makes me want to be with him more.' she thought.

As she went over to her bed and sat down, she looked over at a picture of her, her mother and Dawn, and she wondered how did she do it, raise us, even if Dawn wasn't really their at the time, how did she manage when she was here to look after two teenage girls, she wondered, let alone one who got into trouble and fought a lot.

'I can't have this baby, and I can't let Spike get to me, I've been there before with Angel I know how it goes to feel that empty again if I let Spike in would kill me, and having a baby would put everything and everyone in danger.' she thought, Buffy felt the tears fall down her face as she lead on her side she buried her face into her pillow and just let it out.

Dawn had decided to chug her food down so she could go upstairs and find out what was wrong with her older sister, as she knocked on the door lightly, she waited for a reply.

"Buffy.", "It's me, Can I come in?" she askedshyly. Upon hearing nothing, Dawn decided to creep into her sisters room and see for herself, what she got was shocking, Dawn watched her sister cry her heart out into her pillow. Walking over to her bed she crotched down and placed a hand on her head and gently stroked her hair.

"Buffy, what's wrong?" she asked tilting her head to the side, so she could try and see her face.

"Nothing, not really, everything." muffled Buffy, lifting her head, Dawn saw that Buffy's eyes were puffed up and red, her make-up had smudged and her pillow was soaking wet from all the tears.

"Buffy, I know your the oldest sister, but let me look after you for once, tell me, what's wrong?" Dawn asked politely. Looking into her sisters eyes she saw nothing but pain and fear and for a slayer it was very rare to see fear.

"Dawn, I've screwed up so much lately, I didn't think it could get worse, I thought I had everything under control and now..." she cut herself off because saying the words 'I'm pregnant' scared her so much she was afraid of what people would think. A slayer knocked up, how will she save people now.

"Buffy, please tell me, I can help you, why were you crying?" Dawn asked this time with a stronger tone.

"I'm pregnant." Buffy said as she let her head fall and the tears started to fall down her face and at this moment all Dawn could do was rapped her sister in a tight hug, so she knew that she wasn't alone.

So what did you all think?
Next chapter Spike and Buffy madness shall follow.
Bye for now.

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