Dearest Love

Cartoon Shakespeare

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Pregnant.

The word rang in his ears just as the medi-witch uttered them.

Pregnant? How is that possible? I'm a man!

Even as he went through the possibilities, he determined that this was probably a normal thing in the wizarding world. . He was just too stupid to realize yet another aspect of the magical world he lived in.

"Mr. Potter-Malfoy-Snape?"

Harry snapped out of his daze. "huh?"

The healer sent him a scathing look. "I said you may go but make another appointment in one month from now for a checkup."

Dumbly, Harry nodded before he stepped down from the examination table and left the room.

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Silently, Harry walked into the manor, staring into nothingness. He felt numb all over and strangely cold. A feeling of dread and uneasiness filled him as he thought of his lovers and the situation at hand.

They had not talked about children yet, and deep down he knew that Severus would say no and Draco would follow anything that the man said. He quietly treaded up the stairs, heading for their bedroom. Down the red and green hallway rug, he followed it to a white and cream-colored double doorway, but his hand froze on the handle. Moaning was coming from inside and he could notice that it was Draco. The next voice he recognized was Severus', talking dirty to Draco as their dominant knew that they both loved that.

However, lately, Harry had noticed that Severus and Draco were spending more and more time together and less time with him. Harry guessed that he could say he was jealous, but also, he was lonely. The last time they kissed was two weeks ago. The last time they cuddled was three weeks ago and the last time they made love together or even at all was a month and a half!

Was he getting to be such a freak that they wouldn't touch him?

Tears made way to his eyes and he ran from the moans and sounds of love. He passed room after room, bound down the stairs and locked himself in the common room. He lay down on the burgundy couch and cuddled up to one of the throw pillows as he cried. Slowly, he fell into a fitful sleep, wallowing in sadness.

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"Harry?"

The raven-haired man moved and snuggled deeper into the couch, trying to ignore the voice that was waking him up.

"Harry, wake up" the voice said again.

Slowly Harry opened his eyes before shutting them again due to the bright light. He groaned and turned around on the sofa, turning from the person.

"Harry, c'mon you need to wake up so I can talk to you."

He turned back around and fluttered his eyes in order to get accustomed to the light. His focus slowly came to show Draco kneeling beside him on the couch. He leaned up off the couch and stared at Draco for a minute then rubbed his left eye, still leaning on his right.

"What do you want Draco? I was sleeping." he complained.

Draco rolled his eyes and helped him sit up straight before scooting closer to Harry, as if in comfort.

"Harry," Draco started to ask. "Why have you been crying?"

Harry softly gasped and turned away from Draco. "I haven't been" he objected.

Draco could practically be heard scoffing at him. "Don't lie to me Harry. Your nose is runny and you have tear tracks down your face."

Harry's shoulders could only droop in response. "I don't want to talk about it."

His lover sighed but nodded. "Fine Harry, but you better go wash your face before Sev sees."

Without any other encouragement, he walked out of the room and straight to a bathroom to wash his face. When he entered the bedroom, he saw Severus asleep on the bed, snoring lightly after his mid-day "activities". He quickly tiptoed to the bathroom and started to wash the evidence of tears as he thought of a way to find out Sev and Draco's reaction to the idea of children.

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Later in the evening, all three lovers were sitting in the library, each reading their own type of book.

Harry had purposely chosen a book from the library about medi-wizardry with male pregnancy in it. He had found it earlier in the day and planned to use it in order to bring up the topic of babies. He curled up on the couch with his nose practically touching the page. He never did this with any of the books he read and knew that it would gain the attention of his lovers.

His plan was to bring up babies to find out Draco and Severus' reactions. Then tell them later about their baby.

"Harry? What on earth are you reading that's go you practically eating that book whole?"

Harry smiled at his small victory before looking serious, up from his book and to Severus.

"I found this book on Medi-Wizardry and I'm finding stuff I didn't know, like dragon bites can actually turn your skin into rainbow colors. Oh, and men can get pregnant! I didn't know that was possible" he said, continuing to ramble. "Wouldn't that be adorable! Little Sev's and Dray's walking around the manor." he sighed smiling.

Severus' face took a change from bewildered to vary serious in not time flat. He looked Harry in the eye and frowned.

"Rest assured Harry. 'Babies' will not be in the manor due to the fact that we will never have any."

The words hit Harry like a bucket of cold water. "Why not?" he asked in as steady a voice as he could muster.

"Babes would only interfere with our relationship and cause problems, the answer will always be no to any baby wondering you have in the future."

The cold feeling crept up on Harry's spine once again and he suddenly found himself feeling nauseas. He quietly placed the book down on the table before he stood.

"Harry?" Draco questioned not once looking from his lovers stricken face as he stared into space.

When Harry answered, his voice was slightly cracked but steady. "I'm not feeling so good, I-I'm going to go to bed."

Even though Harry was not looking towards his lovers he could feel their questioning glances.

"But Harry, you, me and Sev are supposed to go out to dinner tonight, just like every Friday night."

"J-Just go without me"

After his last words, he left in quick strides to escape the cause of his pain. He shut the door quickly and ran away to a guest room. He refused to sleep in a bed with people who didn't love him. As soon as the door to the room was closed, he broke down into sobs, crying over the pain that Severus had caused.

Severus didn't want children and refused to allow a child to be born into what he thought was a loving family. Instead not, his child would be born with only him as it's family.

He had his doubts on Draco, his other lover had never voiced his opinion, but he had a feeling that Draco agreed with Sev, otherwise he would have said something.

What was he supposed to do?

He didn't want to get rid of his baby!

A new fear crept onto him. What if Sev forced him to put the child up for adoption or worse…force him to have an abortion.

He cried harder as he fell against the door, sliding down to the floor.

Why must the world be so cruel to him! First, he lived in an abusive household his whole youth and now he was denied the one thing he ever wanted in life…a family!

Anger slowly boiled up and engulfed Harry into it. He would not let that happen! But how could he stop it?

Divorcing his lovers was not ethical, not to mention that he still loved them too dearly to give them up, even if they treated him like the freak he knew he was. He thought long and hard, through all his options, but none of them were an ultimate right choice.

The one that stood out as the most appealing was running away and raising his baby on his own, giving it a loving family.

Yes, that's what he would do. All he had to do was wait for his lovers to leave, write them a note, then leave himself…for good.

Harry looked at the clock. It read 7:55 pm, so his lovers would have already left.

Perfect.

Harry quickly wiped his tears and left the guest room heading straight for their bedroom. Even before he opened the door, he grabbed his wand and yelled, "Accio Harry Potter-Malfoy-Snape's belongings".

Items flew from almost every room in the house and straight to Harry's trunk. Next, he shrunk the trunk and placed it in his pocket.

His next stop was the owlery. He'd never leave the one person that stood by him through all his hardships.

"Hedwig!" he yelled softly.

A small weight landed on his shoulder and hooted softly.

"C'mon Hedwig, we're leaving to somewhere where this freak won't burden their lives anymore."

Hedwig hooted in both affection and argument at her master calling himself a freak.

Harry smiled at her as he walked back down the owlery stairs and straight for the study. There he found parchment, an ink well and a quill on Severus' desk. He made his letter with as much love and pain he felt in his heart, and he wanted his lovers to know that.

They deserved to know everything.

Even as he signed his name, he knew that he would miss them, but he also knew that he must leave…to give his baby the life it deserved.

With one look back, he gazed at his home for the last two years for one last time before he turned out the door and left…for good.

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"Sev stop" Draco giggled as they both walked into the manor with Severus' hands on his waist and his dominants lips on his neck.

"Why?" Severus teased.

Draco groaned. "Sev we've don it seven times in three days! Aren't you tired yet?!"

"No"

Severus licked the shell of Draco's ear as they stumbled up the stairs, desperate to get into their room. The dominant grabbed the door handle and threw the door open, causing it to hit both sides of the wall. He continued his ministrations on his younger lover.

"Sev?"

"What?!" Severus growled.

"Doesn't the room seem a little…empty?"

The raven haired man looked up from the blonde's neck. The room did seem much emptier than it was the last time they were inside. Another thing he noticed was that Harry was not here, and the bed looked as if it had never been slept in.

"Where's Harry?" Draco asked, voicing Severus' own question.

Severus shrugged. "Maybe he started to feel better, so he made the bed and went to the library to read that ridiculous medi-wizardry book."

"No, something's wrong. I can feel it."

His young lover pulled from his embrace and ran to the bathroom looking for their Harry. Severus sighed and looked around the room, however, he found something unusual.

There was a piece of parchment lying on his pillow.

Slowly and cautiously, Snape approached the note with a feeling of dread. He read every line carefully and with each word, sadness and regret filled him. As he read the signature, his head felt heavy and he laid it in his hands, ready to cry his sorrow

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Draco ran into the bathroom looking in the shower and in the closet, but Harry was not there. In fact, neither was Harry's things.

Panic started to thread through the blond and he ran to the walk-in closet that held all of their clothes. Harry's clothes, shoes, everything was gone! Draco quickly ran out of the closet.

"Harry's things are gone!"

He received no answer, only sniffs and a single soft sob.

"Sev, what's wrong?"

Severus gave him no answer, only passed a piece of parchment to him. Draco hesitantly took the paper and started to read.

Dearest Draco and Severus,

I'm sorry to say that I must leave you. Please do not hate me for my decision, for I will love you forever no matter where I go. I know that you deserve to know the truth and for that, I will tell you.

I did not bring up the male pregnancy because I was curious. I wanted to know your reaction toward the idea of having a family with me, but now I know that you never did. However, I do not blame you for it, that is who you are. Your words stabbed me like the sharpest knife you could muster, to know that you never loved me enough to bring my dearest desires to life.

I know that you both know that I've been sick lately, even if you don't say anything or comfort me, so I went to a medi-witch today.

She told me that I was pregnant with our first child.

At first, I was filled with shock and happiness, but when I thought of your reactions I was scared of what you would do. I don't want to get rid of my baby, so I have decided to leave since you are not interested in our first born. I just wish that we could enjoy our miracle together.

I promise to love our baby enough for all three of us, and even though I know that you will probably not miss me anyhow, know that I will miss you dearly.

I could tell that I was becoming less of a lover and more of a nuisance when you both started spending a lot more time together and less time with me. Almost every time I came home, you were either cuddling or making love without me.

I now know that I'm not wanted and that I am the freak that my uncle always told me I was, but I will never stop loving you two like you used to for me.

I wish you both a long and loving relationship.

Love always,

Harry Potter-Malfoy-Snape

Tears started to pour down Draco's face by the time he had finished the letter.

Harry was pregnant? He felt unloved? He even called himself a freak.

Now he was alone to raise a baby he thought they didn't want.

He watched Severus stand and move toward him, but his anger was too much for him as he broke down violently. He ran and began hitting Severus in the chest..

"It's your fault!" he sobbed. "It's your fault he left!"

Severus wrapped his arms around his submissive. "I know" he whispered.

Draco went limp in Severus' hold and sobbed his sorrow to the world as his dominant held him.

"I know what I did. I failed him Draco. I was too busy with you to notice Harry's needs. I never even knew he was getting sick. I just thought he wanted more time to himself, so he slept in a guest room." Severus took in a shaky breath. "I've failed as his dominant." He confessed.

Draco looked up with his teary face. "I'm just as guilty. I didn't notice either. I was too busy caught up in what I wanted, that I didn't pay attention to Harry." He started to get more upset. "I knew there was something wrong when I found him crying on the couch."

Severus stiffened and looked strictly down at his submissive. "When did this happen?"

Draco sniffled. "Today. When we were making love, I thought I heard footsteps, so when you were asleep I went to check it out. I found the common room locked, so I opened it with magic. Harry was on the couch asleep with dried tears on his face."

Severus scowled. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I knew that whatever Harry was upset about, you would demand to know and make it worse!" he defended.

It took a moment for Severus to think about it but he realized Draco was right and he went back to holding the crying Draco.

"I want him back! I want Harry back!" Draco cried.

Severus shushed him. "Don't worry, we'll get him back." He promised. "We'll get them both back."

The blonde nodded his head into his dominant's chest, but continued to cry. He soon fell into a fitful sleep as darkness overcame him.

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Severus looked down at his sleeping lover. His face was peaceful, despite the situation they were both in.

He felt his guilt set in for what he did to Harry.

His lovable Harry.

Who was now all alone, to fend for himself and raise a baby at the same time.

He knew there was a possibility that it could be Draco's but most likely it was his, as he took both Harry and Draco most often.

He just couldn't believe that he said those terrible things to Harry. The words ran in his ears like they were taunting him.

"Babes would only interfere with our relationship and cause problems, the answer will always be no to any baby wondering you have in the future."

Severus sighed as he moved to lay Draco on the bed. He leaned down and kissed Draco on the cheek before whispering.

"I'm going to go look for Harry. I'll be back as soon as I can."

Draco's eyes opened. "I want to come too"

Severus shook his head. "No Draco, I want you to stay here in case Harry comes back.

After a moment's hesitation, Draco nodded, lying back down onto the bed and falling asleep.

Severus looked down to his sleeping love. His face was pale but held color on his cheeks and puffy pink eyes from the crying that he had done. He quickly but silently vowed never to hurt his submissive's again before setting out to look for his pregnant lover.