"Frailty"
A SasuNaru fanfic
By We Are DesCom
Jessa-kun: Waii!!!! Another SasuNaru fanfic!! W00t!!!
Schatzi: Why are you so excited?
Kawahi: Why are you so uninterested, Zi?
Schatzi: Just because.
Jessa-kun: Well, I'm excited just because too!
Kawahi:….;
Disclaimer: DesCom does not own Naruto or any of its characters. They all belong to the great Kishimoto. We only own ourselves and we have joint ownership of this account. Other than that, we only own Sasunaru plushies.
DesCom: ONTO THE FIC!!!
FRAILTY
He was breaking.
He smirked.
No. He was not breaking. He was already broken. His heart, his soul, his spirit.
Funny. He had lived through eighteen years of being harassed and beaten by the townspeople. He had lived through years of being alone and detested. He had lived through years of living knowing that he was a monster. He had lived through years knowing that no one would ever love him.
But how come his beliefs were all shattered by only one person?
He curled up in his bed, wrapping his arms around himself. He had long tossed the covers down to the floor. They were useless, since they could not substitute for the warmth that was missing from him.
His window was open, and the cold breeze was blowing into the messy room. His lithe frame was already cold, and his shivering did not stop.
But his body was not the only thing freezing.
His heart had frozen as well.
He could not continue anymore. He could not keep on smiling like there was nothing wrong. He could not keep on watching them—the two of them—being so happy together. He could not bear being left out again.
He had tried so hard to bring him back. Only to lose him to her.
Why was he angry? Was it not normal for him to be attracted to the other sex? After all, he had a clan to repopulate…
But I am capable of that too…He sobbed again, and put a hand over his mouth. Yes, he was capable of bearing children, but can he admit that to him?
That would only make him look more like a freak.
Why can life not be good to him, just once?
He held his head in his hands. Images of them together had occupied his mind once again.
Holding hands…
Laughing…
In each other's arms…
The reoccurring image of their imaginary wedding drove him to the edge. He will be left all alone again.
He grabbed his pillow and embraced it, imagining him in its place. He could almost feel the warmth of the leaner and taller body against his own. The beautiful scent of the one he loved. He could almost feel hands roaming across his body. He could almost feel lips pressing against his own.
But those are all illusions, of course.
Why can they not be together? Are they too different?
Six years.
He has been bearing this burden for six years. It was already taking its toll. He could not take it anymore.
He buried his hand under his other pillow and pulled out a fox plush toy. It was the only thing he had that would connect the two of them. The only thing he cherished, for it came from him.
He wrapped his arms around it tightly. It still held his scent. He breathed. He wanted to memorize it, burn it into his mind, along with the image of his perfection.
He would never be happy.
But at least…
He would be.
If this was how if felt to love, then he did not need to have a heart anymore. He did not need a heart that would only be broken over and over.
He did not need a heart, because he could not love someone else. Someone other than him.
So it would be better…
If he lost his heart.
"It's time…"
You don't have to do this, kit.
"I want to." He smiled, in spite of the tears streaming down his face. "It will be better for both of us. He wouldn't have me around to pester him, and I…I won't see him anymore…"
Are you really sure? You might find someone else.
"There is no someone else…only him."
A bodiless sigh.
Then I cannot fight with you anymore. I'll do it.
A pause and then…
"Thank you."
He closed his eyes, and for the first time in years, he fell into a soundless sleep.
It's time to end this.
All this pain.
All this heartbreak.
Because I'll never fall out of love with you.
Sasuke.
Ding dong
The clock strikes twelve
Midnight overcomes you
Close your eyes and fantasize
A world where your dreams come true
OoOWakasOoO
Schatzi: Oo Who wrote the last part?
Jessa-kun: Any problem with that?
Schatzi: Yes, its stupid.
Jessa-kun: Then that's just unlucky for Kawahi, because he came up with that.
Kawahi: ;
Schatzi: 00; Sorry! I'm really sorry Kawa-kun!! I did not mean it, honest! starts to tear up
Kawahi: pats Schatzi's head It's okay, really! You don't have to cry, ai.
Jessa-kun: Schatzi's such an uke when Kaw's around.snicker