She felt stupid.

Of course he would be jealous, it was only natural considering who she was.

Just seconds ago she had joked around with such a stupid question.

"This is your big chance huh?" she asked with a playful nudge.

He crossed his arms in thought for a moment.

"Well I guess so, she is important to me, and Seymour is a creep."

Her heart had twisted and stopped beating. What else had she expected him to say, "I'd rather have you"?

She wanted to kick herself in the shin, hard.

Deep down she had always hoped that maybe he felt something for her, but the way he would look at Yuna would destroy all her fantasies.

Not wanting to say something she didn't mean she quickly picked up where she left off.

"That's the spirit." She mentally cursed herself when she heard her voice crack, "Then when you two are married you can make her stop her pilgrimage, go live quietly in the country or something, or on the beach, or in the mountains, or maybe you can just settle down in a-"

"Swamp?" he offered as a joke.

Rikku gave him a quizzical look. "Why in a swamp?"

"I heard it's heavenly in the summer, lots of mosquitoes, rank smell from the vegetation. Our house can be built from the vines and algae in the area. The scenery is nice as well, lots of crocodiles and exotic man-eating plants. I heard it was the Ochu's mating season this time of year. Me and Yuna can fall asleep to the sweet music of Ochu grunts and squeals." Tidus tried hard not smile.

Rikku caught on quickly. "And during the night, when the full moon is out, you can bath each other in the leech infested waters…"

"Well I try to be romantic, you know? Give the girl the best she can have."

Rikku used a great amount of effort to suppress the giggles. "And what would you do about the children."

"I can provide a proper education, just the basics though, like thirteen minus two is seven and stuff." Tidus had a wide grin on his face now; both were trying in vain to stifle their laughter.

"I can only hope that you would do the same for me."

"Of course Rikku. I would always give you the best, you deserve it."

And the joke was gone. The laughter had stopped abruptly. He stared at her a little awkwardly, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly.

She had a mild blush on her face. She looked towards her shoes in embarrassment, kicking a small pebble she had seen.

Not wanting to lose the moment, she continued. "So if I asked you to travel the world with me?"

"I would start packing."

Her blush increased. Since she was looking at the ground she could not see that he was mildly red as well.

"If I told you I wanted lots of children?"

"I've always wanted to show my dad that I could be a better father."

He stepped a little closer to her. Sensing his movement, she also scooted towards his presence.

"And if I told you to love me forever, to never let me go?"

"Well forever is a long time…"

She felt a dejected at this and was about to jump away from him when she felt his hand slid into hers. She looked into his eyes hopefully.

"…But if I were to be with you I think I could cope." He finished.

She saw him tilt his head and slowly start to lean in. His eyes slowly closing as he did so.

Realization hit her like lightning as she saw what he was about to do. A million things ran through her mind as she was bombarded with emotions.

She wanted this.

She needed this.

But what about Yuna? She was sacrificing herself for her people. She deserved Tidus. She deserved to have her own happiness.

An evil side of her brought up the fact that Yuna might choose to marry Seymour, and that she might as well get a jump on her relationship with Tidus.

She quickly silenced that side of her. If she knew Yuna then she would probably choose to marry Seymour, it would be for the people of Spira. She would always choose the people of Spira before herself.

But if Yuna married Seymour, that didn't mean that she would instantly stop having feelings for Tidus. Yuna would still love Tidus even if she were married to a Maester.

That reasoning is what Rikku sided with.

And so with a great deal of regret and effort she raised a hand and stopped him during his descent.

Tidus opened his eyes in confusion at feeling resistance to his action.

"It's a good thing you have Yuna then, isn't it?"

She could see the sadness and confusion in his eyes.

She felt the tears as they began to well up in her eyes, not wanting him to see she quickly gave him a firm hug. Rikku silently cursed herself; she didn't mean to toy with his emotions.

"Isn't it?" she repeated, almost forcefully. The sobs in her voice were evident.

Tidus could feel Rikku's body rack against him due to her crying. He could also feel the wet tears seep through his shirt as she cried silently into his chest.

She repeated herself once more, this time it was barely above a whisper, full of despair and confusion.

"Isn't it?"

He wrapped his arms around her, returning the embrace with a tight squeeze.

"Yeah." His voice choked. "I guess it is."

Both figures stood atop the overhang of Guadosalam.

Both silently crying for what they could have.

But shouldn't.

What everyone came here for...the Authors Note!

Gasp!

No really, this is my first fanfic so what better story then that of the couple i adore...at the moment. Most of these stories will be sad...or at least that's what i'm aiming for. If you like the fics then review, if you don't like the fics but want to review, go ahead, but please take note that repeatadly saying, "This fic sucked and was a waste of my life etc. etc." you writing this is still wasting your life, and no one forced you to read and review anyway...unless someone did...then you need help.

Or they need help...

Or something.

Out.