Disclaimer: I do not own the TMNT.

A/N: inspired by Dlvvanzor's Wonderful Teen Titans story: What if I told you. It's awesome you guys should totally check it out! Anyways it got me thinking about the turtles and their journals and stuff. I know this has been done before to a degree but I want to try my hand at it. I got permission from Dl to let me so here I am. Probably won't be as long as hers is though. Anyways yeah. So basically hold onto your hats. And this is Mikey so there might be some corny jokes but hey, we love the guy. :D Please enjoy for that is why we write…

Timeline: Takes place after Exodus.

Mikey's POV

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Day 1

I'm not sure what to write. Yeah I know Mikey without words? Sounds kinda weird doesn't it? Ok the better thing to say is I don't think I have anything I want to write about. But I guess I should for my dad's sake at least. See it's been two days since we got back from our last fight with the Shredder, (We totally won by the way! Turtles one! Shredder zip!) and since then we've all been out of it. I mean really out of it! Raph hasn't even been able to hit me upside the head, is how out of it I mean! But while we're physically tired, I can tell everyone is emotionally strained as well.

Especially Leonardo. Sometimes he just sits and stares out a window when he should be asleep, or during the night I'll wake up cause my legs are so itchy and find him hovering by one of our beds. Like he's scared that if he looks away or even blinks we might disappear.

Apparently though I wasn't the only one who started to notice this. Actually because of how distracting my stupid broken legs have been, I probably noticed last.

But like always, Master Splinter noticed first and started talking to April about it. Why I don't know. If talking made it better I think we'd be ok. I mean we talk about it all the time…although some details we do skip. Like when Leo first went down. When we all thought it was the end. Even afterwards when we were healing on the ship for a few weeks from most of the trauma. Yeah that's how you spell it! I feel smart!

Anyways, so he started talking to April about it. And then April came back up with a small bag. Four books were inside. All matching our bandanna colors. Apparently dad had managed to find four books and was going to give them to us last Christmas. But forgot. Not that he'll admit he forgot. But still.

So we all got a book. He told us they were ours to do with as we wanted, but he hoped we would use them for journals. And discuss feelings in private that we do not wish to share with everyone else quite yet.

He seemed pretty insistent we use them. Especially Leonardo. Just from the look in his eyes I know something happened. And whatever it was it seems to be hurting him a lot more than his wounds. But it's not something that you can see. It's like something's wrong with him on the inside but on the outside he still looks completely normal.

That kind of worries me, actually. It's almost like he's so good at hiding in the shadows, he made himself into one that he's hiding in…if that makes any sense.

Probably not. But from the way he handled all those purple dragon thugs the other day and how he nearly jumped at Raph when he mentioned Karai…I don't think when it finally surfaces it's going to be a good thing.

But about the fight the other day, I got to say for a turtle with two busted legs, I kicked major shell! And then got my shell kicked by my loving brother Raphael, but that's besides the point.

Those purple dragons didn't even know what hit them when Michelangelo, battle nexus champion jumped in there! (Yes I rule!) Oh man. You know if a turtle can beat you with two broken legs, thinking about chips and on crutches, you're not exactly a ganger worthy of mention! Actually most of the guys we meet aren't worthy of mention! Not against us anyways!

TMNT what you get is what you see…hey, I like this thing! I can be as annoying as I want and no one hits me upside my head! I like it!

Well it's late. I guess I should wrap it up and Raph's snoring is bothering me! I'm tempted to throw a pillow at him but that will only wake him up and want to retaliate and as fun as that sounds I just can't do that to him. He won't admit it, but whenever he tries to exert himself to much, anyone can see how bad his chest hurts him. In a way it's kind of a freaky reminder that even the people I think are invincible really aren't. It's scary. But I don't tell anyone that. No use having them worry about me. Especially when they should be worried about themselves. The point is, I guess I'm just glad my brother, that all my family is alright. Shredder's a jerk and I'm glad he's gone! I just hope Karai doesn't cause any problems for us.

She probably will though. Oh well, we'll beat her just like we beat her dad! Cause the good guys always win! That's just how it works!

Ok now I need to wrap it up. Hey maybe dad was right. These things are good for feelings or whatever. Ok I wont even started on that right now. Cause it's late, I'm tired and my hands about to fall asleep from all this writing.

Cowbunga

The Mikester. (notice the cool sign off? ok, even I know I need someone to smack me for that one. Couldn't resist though.)

To be continued…

A/N: (peeks nervously at people) so…what did ya think? Please let me know.

Be blessed

your friend

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