Chapter 1

After the defeat of the dark lord, I had begun to feel strange and act even more temperamental to both the students and the staff. Even the smallest things would send me off yelling and wanting retribution. Just the other day the headmaster called me into his office to talk with me. All he did was mention how I should not be so hard on my students and to reconsider the amount of points I've taken from all the houses, yes even my own house. The next think I knew I blew up saying how pathetic the students were and how none of them could make a decent potion if their life depended on it. I went on to ask which of the students had complained and how I would give them something to complain about. Then I did something I've never done I went on to say that I would continue to conduct my class the way I saw fit and told the headmaster to keep his big nose out of my affairs. I then turned around and stormed out of his office.

When news got around, and boy does it get around fast, about what had happened everyone thought I was crazy and the students treaded carefully around me not even my dear slytherins would stay in my presence for longer than need be. I didn't understand what was happening and I didn't know how to make it stop then something unexpected happened. I was out in the forbidden forest late at night looking for some ingredients for a potion poppy needed when I heard the sound of twigs snapping. I reached for my wand preparing for an attack when Hagrid appeared before me.

"What are you doing here don't you know better than to sneak up on me! I almost hexed you to hell and back!" I yelled angry that he had the nerve to follow me.

"I just came to make sure you're alright. This forest is dangerous you know." He said in his normal gruff but gentle voice. The fact that he said that to me of all people had me seeing red.

"I can take care of myself! I don't need some half breed giant who can't even do magic to protect me!" I snarled and the urge to attack became overwhelming. I charged towards Hagrid forgetting I even had a wand just going off pure instinct. When I reached him he easily grasped me and kept me from harming him. He squeezed my shoulders and shouted, "Stop!" I froze and went limp in his arms offering my neck to him. I've never heard Hagrid enforce himself before and what he did just now did something to me. Something inside me wanted me to obey the man restraining me. Then it clicked, since I'm a submissive panthium I've been acting out searching for another dominant capable of controlling me now that the dark lord is gone. I guess a trip to my pack is in order.

"Now I'm going to let you go. Your not going to try and attack me now are you?" I shook my head no and he gently let me go. I slid down to the ground and bowed my head before Hagrid. "Is everything okay professor Snape you've been acting pretty strange lately if I didn't know any better I would say you had some creature blood in you?" he said with a concern-filled voice.

"I'm fine. I'm sorry for what happened." My voice was low and filled with uncertainty. Hagrid looked shocked that I apologized but quickly recovered.

"Its okay professor all's forgiven." He said genuinely with a smile.

"I'll be leaving now." I got up slowly gathered the ingredients I'd already harvested and left the clearing. When I returned to the castle, I went directly to my room. I went into my private lab and put away the ingredients in their proper place then went to fix myself a class of firewhiskey. I firecalled the headmaster soon after because I needed to talk with him about my new plans for tomorrow.

"Yes Severus how can I help you?"

"I'm leaving tomorrow morning to get some answers about what has been happening with me lately and I need you to find someone to cover my classes until I get back."

"Sure Severus, you need to take a break don't worry about classes that will be handled. Do you know when you're going to be back?"

"No I don't but I shouldn't be longer than a month or two."

"Where are you leaving to if I may ask?"

"I'm sorry headmaster but I can't disclose that information to anyone."

"That is okay I hope you come back feeling better though."

"Thank you headmaster, goodbye."

"Goodbye Severus." I ended the firecall and finished my drink. When finished I dragged myself to bed with my head filled with many thoughts and questions. Hopefully my questions will be answered when I return to my people.

AN: This is the first Harry Potter fanfic that I feel good about and I hope that you liked it. So that I'm not just wasting my time, please review so that I'll know people are reading and enjoying this story. Maybe if I get a lot of reviews I'll put the next chapter out really soon.