Notes: They're not mine. Props to Neil Gaiman, the McKrells, Christine, Liz, and Jess. This is part of a three-fandom trilogy; find the rest at at http://www.geocities.com/spark_fanfic.
Words Unspoken
by Violet
"Prisoners of circumstance, trapped in situations--
You never were one to be tempted by temptation..."
- Martin Kelleher
She sat on the edge of his desk, crossed her legs, and watched him notice her.
He walked into his doorway and stood silently, hands in his pockets, expecting her to speak first. She let her eyes meet his, and smiled, and waited him out.
"Dana," he finally said. "What's going on?"
"What's going on?" she replied cheerfully, throwing her shoulders back. "Erik Zabel is going on, my friend. On and on like a -- what does a fast guy on a bike go on like?"
"Like he's going to beat the devil," Casey offered, letting his shoulder jostle against the door frame.
"Like he's going to beat the devil!" Dana clasped her hands. "This is why you're the writer."
"Yes." He bounced a little on his heels. "You know what they say, don't you? Writers write."
"They say that?"
"Someone said that. You're sitting in front of my computer."
"Am I?"
"Yes."
Dana made a confused face. "This isn't Dan's computer?"
"There's only one computer. And you know that. So if you're done doing your Natalie impression--"
"Don't say things like that," she said sharply.
Casey took a step forward. "What?"
"Don't make little cracks at the expense of Natalie or Dan or Jeremy."
"What did I ever say about Dan or Jeremy?"
She snapped her fingers at him. "I don't have documentation. I'm telling you, everyone here knows full well that they have flaws and inconsistent personalities, and God knows you're not above any of that, and I don't like to see your nose in the air."
He crossed the office and sat down on the couch. "Wow."
"Don't wow me." She turned to face him, pointing her toe accusingly in his direction. "Not to mention everybody else around here. Everyone on our production team, everyone doing light and sound, and wardrobe, and the camera guys -- you know, they go to lunch and they sit around the table saying, 'Casey's a complete tool!'"
He blinked. "Really?"
"If I was one of them, I would."
"I honestly don't understand where this is all coming from."
Her eyes widened in sadness. "Of course you do. You're not oblivious, Casey, and neither am I."
His eyes widened in recognition. "You heard."
"Did you think you could talk to Tony Dashiell and have it slip totally under my radar?" She stood up, folding her arms. "Of course I heard. Of course. How long were you planning on not telling me?"
Casey tilted his head back and rested it on the top of the couch. "It wasn't that I wasn't going to tell you--"
"Oh? You were just going to not say anything and let me try and guess it from a complicated system of hand signals?"
"Something like that."
"Congratulations. It worked."
He groaned. "This, this song and dance is why I don't tell you things sometimes."
Dana rolled her eyes. "When Tony Dashiell called me last spring, not only did I not call him back, I made fun of him loudly in rundowns for a week."
"I remember."
"I compared him unfavorably to Tony Danza."
"I remember that too."
"You called him back, Casey." She stopped pacing and stood near the window. "You had lunch with him and you let him tell you all about the wonderful things he's got over at his network, and how Chris Meyers is on his way out and how happy you'd be if you came over to his big broadcast booth in the sky."
"And then I said no," he pointed out.
"And then you said no. But you had lunch with him and came back here and didn't tell anyone but Dan."
"Dan told you?"
"Dan told me," she mocked. "Don't you know better? He's got six kinds of weird loyalties to you and he wouldn't tell on you any more than a priest or a lawyer or a shrink. Dan didn't tell me. But Kim tricked him into confirming a rumor, and Elliot mentioned it to Jeremy, and--" She threw her hands up. "This place is like a damn echo chamber. You're telling me that after all these years you thought this kind of thing stays a secret? You really are a massive tool."
"I was delaying this." He tapped his fingers on his knee. "I knew you'd turn it into something it wasn't."
"What was it?"
"Nothing."
Dana shook her head. "If it was nothing then it wouldn't have been enough to not tell me."
Casey wrinkled his forehead. "Tons of sense, you're making there."
"We talk about nothing all the time."
"And when we do, it turns into these endless conversational loops." He gestured at the open doorway. "We can talk for three days about someone's facial hair. Is it so crazy that I wanted to avoid a week of harassment because I had lunch with Tony Dashiell before I told him politely to take his job and shove it? You get job offers every two weeks."
"I do." Dana reached for the desk chair and pulled it over, sitting down sideways. "And frankly, a woman who was really centered on advancing her career would probably give them a lot more consideration than I ever do."
"She might," Casey agreed nervously.
"But if I did that, if I started weighing things that way, I'd become Sally Sasser. And I don't want to be Sally." She pushed at a lock of hair that had fallen into her eyes. "I don't want you guys to think of me the way you think of Sally."
He opened and closed his mouth a few times. "I wouldn't -- I mean, we don't--"
She held up a finger. "Save it. Look, here's the thing. I tell you when I've gotten job offers from people who would probably pay me more and give me a bigger desk. I tell you, I tell everyone, and we laugh, and it's fine. You can't not tell me."
"Why does it have to be a big deal?"
"When Tony Dashiell calls me it's a joke. When Tony Dashiell meets with you and you try and keep it a secret, that's a threat."
"A threat?" he repeated incredulously.
"They pay you more than I do," she said softly. "In the circles we move in, in this industry and these circumstances, that makes perfect sense. And I'm not questioning that. You're talent. I'm backstage. And whether it's true or not there are plenty of people who believe Natalie or Jeremy or Joe Blow could step into my shoes, but the talent in front of the camera is what makes Sports Night, Sports Night."
"That's not true."
"I know it's not true! And even if it is -- doesn't it ever occur to you that maybe the reason we're in third place is because we actually are on a third rate network? Doesn't it sound good to you that there's a studio where everyone wouldn't know all your business and you'd have your own computer? Doesn't that ever cross your mind?"
He considered it for a long moment. "Not really."
"No." She half-smiled. "No, it wouldn't, would it?"
"I like it here."
"I know you do."
"I know you know, but you're not acting like you know."
She scoffed. "Now who's not making sense?"
He stood up and walked toward her. "I like it here. I don't want to go work for Tony Dashiell or anyone else. I wouldn't be Sports Night on my own any more than you would. I didn't see any reason to get you worrying about the meeting; it was nothing. Less than nothing. And you could never be Sally Sasser, Dana; it's not in your makeup."
It was quiet for a moment. "Well," she said.
"Well."
"Well, don't just stand here, go write funny things about Erik Zabel's ride to glory."
He held his hands out. "You're in my chair."
"Oh. Right." She stood up. "There. It's all yours."
"Thank you."
"Yours and Dan's, I mean."
"I thought that went unspoken."
Dana took a backward step toward the door. "I should probably go quell the rumors that have already started circulating about this conversation."
"Yeah. You don't want to let it get out that I was right."
"You weren't right. I was right. You should have talked to me."
"Okay."
She exaggerated a sigh. "Tony Dashiell wouldn't know how to handle you."
Casey grinned at her. "And he certainly wouldn't know how to handle you."
Dana returned the smile. "Damn skippy. Now, work please."
"Okay." He glided the chair obligingly over to the desk and opened up the word processor.
She stood in the doorway a little longer. He paused with his fingers resting lightly on the keyboard, watching her observe him from the corner of his eyes. She waited him out, and when he began to type, she chuckled to herself and walked away.