A/N: When I started writing this story when I was 14 years old and then I thought I was doing a great job. Now when I read some of my earlier chapters I see so many problems with it. So I have decided to rewrite most of the chapters and then continue on with the story. I am more inspired to write more about the romantic aspects of the story because now I actually have some romance in my life. So hopefully I will be able to get across some of the things that I wanted to when I first started writing this story. Also, one thing I do need is someone to Beta my rewrites and future chapters. If anyone is interested please just send me a private message. And finally, I will be removing all of the other chapters so for people who are reading this story for the first time will not get confused. But do not worry, it will not take me long to rewrite these chapters. I am hoping to have them all updated by the end of March. So, for people who have read this story already I would love reviews about how my updates have improved and for new readers just review and I will be happy. Thanks and enjoy!!!

But I couldn't make you see it.

That I loved you

More than you'll ever know,

A part of me died when I let you go

November 2

Ginny walked out onto the grounds with the note still in her hands. The note that the love of her life had wrote to her. The note telling her to meet him in the stands of the quiddich pitch after her last class. She was so intrigued as to what he wanted. He had never done anything like this before. But it did not scare her. Nothing about her relationship scared her. She finally felt happy and secure in her life. It finally seemed like everything was going along as her family always planned for her. She was getting amazing grades, at Top of her class, a great chance of becoming a healer, and an amazing boyfriend that would hopefully one day become her amazing husband. It was the life her parents always wanted for her. But the question always entered her mind. Is it the life she always wanted for herself?

Ginny finally made it to the stands and sat down to wait. She hugged her cloak around her to hopefully get some more warmth in her body. She still did not understand why he had wanted to meet her so far away from the castle in November. And worst of all not show up on time! She would give it another five minutes before returning to the castle and waiting for him in the Common room. This was one thing she really had a problem with; his lack of punctuality.

But she did know what would really happen. He would show up in the next five minutes, give her a passionate kiss and apologize for being late, and then they would go off and continue the plans that he made for them. It seemed to always happen this way recently. When she thought about it, this repeated plan did not always make her happy. Sometimes she wanted something spontaneous to happen. Or she wanted more passion in the relationship. Or at least move to second base. It surprised Ginny that Harry was actually slow moving when it came to their physical relationship; something that was really starting to get on Ginny's nerves.

But she did know what she felt when she was actually with Harry. She felt safe and secure. She knew she had a happy future after she graduated and the war was over. She also knew she felt something when she was around him; something she truly knows is love for him. She always believed she was in love with Harry and whenever she was with him, there was no doubt in her mind that this was the man she loved.

After a few minutes, Ginny looked over and saw Harry walking toward her. He had a mixed expression on his face; one that Ginny could not read. When he reached Ginny, he pulled her int a kiss. But there was something different about this kiss. It did not have its usual passion Harry put into kissing Ginny. This time it had hesitations mixed into it. This worried Ginny.

"Are you ok?" Ginny asked suspiciously.

"Yes I'm fine. Great actually. I have some news to tell you. Let's sit down." Harry said, took a seat and motioned for Ginny to sit next to him.

"Alright." Ginny said hesitantly while sitting down, "What's up?"

"Well, McGonagall, Lupin and I have been talking and we decided on something."

"What's that?"

"We decided that it would be for the best if I was inducted into the Order."

"Harry that's great congratulations!"

"Thanks, but the problem is that I have to move to headquarters. So I will be leaving in the morning."

"You're leaving? What about your last year at school? What about your N.E.W.T.S.? I thought you wanted to be an auror? What did you just kill that dream so you could be inducted?"

"I did not kill my dream. I know after the battle is over I will have a future. So that is why the Order will teach me all of my N.E.W.T.S. classes and I will be back for test week."

"What about us?"

"I am going to be so busy with all of the Order stuff and defeating Voldemort that I do not think that I will be able to keep a long distance relationship."

"Oh." This was all that Ginny could say right now. Her eyes were more on the verge of tears and her heart felt like it was about to break into a million peaces. She didn't know what to do. All she could do was sit there and stare at her shoes, trying not to make eye contact with Harry.

"Ginny, I'm so sorry." Harry said, gently putting a hand on her shoulder, but she quickly brushed it off.

"Don't say sorry. You have to do this. Its just….." Ginny couldn't say anything else. All she could do was run away leaving Harry with his head in his hands. Ginny had finally started to cry. And all she felt she could do was just run toward nothing.