Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto or any of the characters that are involved in the anime/manga. Those rights belong to Masashi Kishimoto.
Warnings: This chapter contains rape, yaoi incest (this is after all an ItaSasu), slight bondage, blood/violence, and vulgar language. This is also somewhat OOC and not true to the way that the canon works out (will be more obvious in future chapters.) This is also really long (all of the chapters are long). There might also be some errors in here that I couldn't pick up, but then again, I'm not perfect. This is also written by Blaze (see profile for confusion.)
Chills, so many chills running down his spine as he walked by the river, his heart almost stopping in his chest as he dug a foot into the hard dirt of the ground. The moon was high in the sky illuminating onto the lightly moving water filling his body with eerie shivers.
Why is it so cold? He asked, his arms wrapping around his body as he looked at the water. His obsidian eyes closed walking toward the edge of the river. He stopped his search for his teammates knowing that they would meet up with them eventually. The cool air filled his lungs as he took a deep breath, a cough leaving his lips.
Drawn by some force he moved closer still to the edge of the river looking into the placid water. The weight from his numbing body forced him to fall to the ground, still gazing into the liquid. There was a throbbing pain in his heart as he looked through the waves and saw his own face seeing his eyes staring back at him.
There's something about my eyes, they're no longer mine, they've grown cold, starting to resemble his. He shook his head and threw a pebble into the water blankly watching it skid across the surface. The lump in his throat forming from the cold made it difficult to breathe, his chest tightening. Where are they?
He heard a noise behind him like footstep digging into the ground, they were coming his way. "Hello?" he asked, it had to be Sakura or Naruto, they were bound to go looking for him after they all were going to meet up.
His heart was racing as he looked back into the river trying to block out the thoughts of a criminal coming to take him away. But he had to remain calm; Naruto would never let him hear the end of it. "Hello?" he never took his eyes off of the river. Then there they were, those horrible red eyes burning with all of the memories from his youth going back to that cold day.
"Itachi Uchiha," he snarled as he turned around, all of the hate he had been holding for the past years rolling back. "How dare you show your face in Konoha again? After what you pulled?"
Itachi looked into the water past the young boy. "I just came to talk, Sasuke. There's no use getting mad."
Sasuke stood up and walked to his brother, every single step digging deeper into the ground with all of his anger put into each movement. He looked into his brother's eyes remembering the last time he heard him laugh, the last time he saw him genuinely smile. But it was all a lie; there was nothing behind those eyes anymore but the blood of the clan, all that was still dancing through his mind.
"What are you doing here for real, you bastard?!" Sasuke cursed as he looked up into his brother's eyes. "You're never going to let me off that easy, you always beat around the Goddamn bush!"
Itachi closed his eyes taking in a deep breath. "You're out of line."
His head was spinning with all of the hate that he had been repressing for years. "I want you to stop acting so calm around me."
"You're not worth my time," the elder of the two answered as he turned his face away brushing the stray hairs from his face with his finely manicured hand.
Sasuke's onyx eyes narrowed as his chest filled with more pressure from his memories. "Then why the fuck are you here?" he pulled out a kunai throwing it through the air toward his brother. But in the blink of an eye it was in Itachi's hand an inch away from his neck.
Red eyes looked straight into onyx. "You're predictable, foolish little brother. Haven't you learned anything? A real ninja would never attack during this, I have the upper hand." He threw the kunai back. "I outrank you, you're nothing."
Sasuke stood idle as the kunai came closer to him seeing his childhood flash before his eyes. He wanted to move, but the hate in his brother's eyes made his body freeze right where he was. But then he felt the sharp pain run up his arm to his shoulder, his crimson blood hitting the ground in small amounts.
"Itachi!" Sasuke screamed as he grabbed the kunai trying to pull it out, shrieking out in pain as he hit a nerve. "What are you trying to do?"
The elder looked down at him. "A real ninja doesn't run into a battle when he knows that he will lose."
Sasuke took a deep breath of the cold air; his lungs still chilling with pain feeling the small capillaries constrict to keep him warm. He looked up into Itachi's eyes watching them run dry of all of the childlike emotion that he once possessed.
"Not anymore…" he panted his throat dry, his head spinning with pain. "I won't lose to you anymore!"
He moved forward through the haze of his fury. The taste of the moment filled his mouth, gently passing beyond his lips. Swallowing hard, he saw his brother right before him, only an arms length away. Only in his dreams did he even get to touch that fair porcelain skin, feel his blood run down his fingers.
As he stood right in front of him ready to attack, the air current changed, the very comfort that he held onto the whole night was gone as he felt purple painted nails dig into his scalp pulling him closer.
"What are you thinking?" Itachi asked. "Are you trying to embarrass yourself?"
Sasuke felt him being pushed to his knees still being held by his hair, hands moving into the chilling water of the river. His voice let out a shrill as he was pushed down further his shirt becoming damp with the liquid, his skin constricting. His face was pushed into the water, mouth filling with the ice cold matter rushing down his throat. He tried to breathe, his lungs cutting off all air supply as he opened his eyes seeing only the murky darkness.
"A ninja is more than you think, it's more than weapons. Being a ninja is an art and you don't have the capability to hold that title, you never did, Sasuke." He pushed him down further, Sasuke swallowing another mouthful of water. "Art is more than just paint and clay, it's pure raw talent, a ninja is an embodiment of that. You're too weak to hold a candle to half of our clan. You call yourself an Uchiha!"
Sasuke swallowed again trying to keep his mouth clear as more bubbles flowed to the surface, his hands trying to push him back up. But Itachi was too strong pushing him down until the tip of his nose hit the bottom of the bank bringing the silt up his nose. He fought harder as his breath seeped out of his lips thinking about what he had done to his best friend those years ago. Was this his fate?
As he thought that all was gone he was surprised to see the air again, the sand dripping out of his nose as he coughed, all of the contents that he swallowed seeping back up his throat. Turning around he saw the look in his brother's eyes seeing nothing behind them.
"You're not worth killing," Itachi breathed as he pushed a coughing Sasuke to the ground. "Look at you, you're pitiful, you're nothing. You haven't proven your value."
Sasuke retched as the fluid fell from his lips falling into the water making a white pus material. He couldn't see straight as he remembered the day when the police came to his house. Shisui, all he could think about was Shisui drowning in the river. He swallowed hard as his eyes wandered off.
"Is this…?" he coughed. "Is this what you did you Shisui?"
Itachi let out a low laugh as he grasped Sasuke's chin lightly. "Shisui was lucky to die for the cause, he didn't have to go through the pain that I gave to you, you little fool. He got the easy way out."
Sasuke shook his head as he pushed Itachi's hand away closing his eyes tightly, tears of pain rolling down his cheeks, the same pressure in his chest making his lungs almost explode right in his chest. His hand clenched into a fist the flow of chakra filling his veins. His body was shaking, adrenaline rushing with the high of his precious dream. His hand lunged forward reaching out to hit Itachi in his weak spots.
Crunch! The sound echoes through the night making the chill even more terrifying. The next noise that filled the air was the sound of coughing, hard coughing mixed with retching. His eyes went to his brother who was hunched over, bleeding from the mouth, blood dripping onto Sasuke's knuckles. The warmth of Itachi's blood make shivers roll down his spine, he saw the look in scarlet eyes seeing a glimpse of pain that he hadn't seen in years.
"Sasuke…" he panted coughing again grasping his chest, his lips lacquered with scarlet. "You're going to regret that…" he swallowed hard gagging at the taste of his blood. "You're going to regret that, Sasuke!"
Sasuke looked wide eyed at the anger in his brother's voice, he never heard him raise his voice like that. Even when they were young he was a mostly calm person. He had done something to him, something to arouse the beast within. He felt the heat of his brother's anger take over as he grabbed at his wrists squeezing tightly.
Sasuke breathed as Itachi squeezed tighter pushing him to the ground, his hands situated above his head. "Itachi!"
Itachi reached into his robe and pulled out two sais watching as Sasuke's hands started to recover from the pressure. He spun them around once and then pressed them down, his wrist stuck in between the prongs. The metal was unforgiving and tight around his slim wrists as he tried to move them away from the weapons only drawing a small amount of blood. He let out a loud frustrated scream trying to pull harder, his heart racing to an incredible speed.
"Pull all you want," Itachi smirked, his lips still covered in blood. "You're too weak to get out of that hold." He reached into his robe pulling out a kunai holding it up. "But let's see how strong you are." He licked the kunai teasingly as he looked into Sasuke's watering eyes.
Sasuke stopped struggling watching as glistening saliva coated the metal of the kunai. "I-I don't understand what's going on, Itachi, what are you trying to prove?"
The attention from the kunai was focused on him now as Itachi moved closer resting the smooth flesh of his nose up against his brother's, his breath on Sasuke's lips. Sasuke looked into the blood red eyes that were looking right into his trying to see what he was trying to do.
Itachi drew closer to Sasuke's lips, the younger of the two trying to move away, but his arms were still bound by the sais. He felt Itachi's lips just barely touch his letting out a gasp. But then he was taken fully, Itachi's lips harshly moving against his, his tongue filling his mouth exploring deeper.
Pushing away, he moved his chest closer to his older brother's letting out muffled screams of protest. He was gagging on Itachi's tongue as it went closer to the back of his mouth. Sasuke curled his hands into fists feeling more blood drawing from his wrists, letting out more strangles noises, his body shaking with horror. Every muscle in his body was tightening, his heart racing so fast that it hurt to breathe.
"Itachi!" Sasuke breathed as he turned away and coughed, trying to catch his breath, removing the horrid taste of Itachi's blood from his mouth. "What the hell…"
"You could have avoided this," were the words that seeped out of the lips smeared with blood. "You could have handled this peacefully."
"You never gave a damn about peace," Sasuke spat his hands shaking. "Now let me loose, you sick bastard! Let me loose! You fucking…" he let out a sharp breath as he felt cool moist metal hit the skin of his neck, it was the kunai that Itachi had pulled out, and he was staring at him again the hate still in his eyes.
"Still using that vulgar language, what shame you bring upon our clan. But there is a deeper shame you bring to yourself," he switched the kunai to his left hand as his other trailed down Sasuke's body. "You have no way to stop me, with your hands so far apart you can't make seals."
Sasuke let out a harsh breath as Itachi's hand traveled over the cloth of his pants that covered his groin, his body was going into full on convulsions. He looked back at the water in a sick way wishing that he did drown.
"I-Itachi," he begged softly.
He felt the hands move down his pants, the warm flesh touching his sensitive skin. A moan bubbled from his throat as he closed his obsidian eyes as tight as they could go. Behind his eyes he could feel all of the emotion that he had been holding back for so long starting to run down his cheeks. The warm water fell to the dry ground as his body shook his legs pushing together in absolute horror.
"Please, Itachi," Sasuke begged as he tried to move his hands again.
"It's useless," Itachi smiled stroking the sensitive skin in Sasuke's pants. "I told you aren't going to get loose. So do yourself a favor and stop trying."
Feeling the strength of his brother's hand coax him to a semi hard state, he had to shake his head to destroy the blurs that were plaguing his vision, his body was sweating as he tightened his legs together so tight that they were going to bruise. He felt the blood that was heating his body from the chill of the cold night air heat to a boiling temperature rushing hurriedly throughout his body. Itachi only moved faster as Sasuke's thighs clenched, moaning lightly at the pressure.
"Your legs are beautiful," Itachi breathed as he wrapped his hand around Sasuke's length squeezing tightly.
Sasuke let out a loud moan his teeth clenching together to muffle the sounds that Itachi wanted to hear. "You've had your fun…"
"My dear brother," Itachi breathed abruptly taking his hand away making Sasuke pants loudly. "What makes you think I've had my fun?"
"You sick bastard…" Sasuke breathed his chest rising and falling dramatically. "You twisted sadist…"
"Sasuke," Itachi laughed as he licked along his younger brother's pulse point, making him breathe heavily. "Tell me why you think so little of something that you've wanted all along." He sunk his teeth into the crook his brother's neck blood rolling out of the skin into his mouth.
Sasuke screamed loudly, the sound reverberating off of all of the buildings in the entire village. But Itachi only sunk his teeth in deeper as he sucked at the broken flesh, more blood subtracted from his body. He felt the hair tied in Itachi's ponytail fall to touch his shoulder tickling him lightly. The aroma coming off of the hairs was so strong, the smell of blood and perfume.
"Itachi!" he shrieked as he felt teeth clench tighter onto his neck. "That hurts, that really hurts." He started to shake, his breathing turning into sobs. "Why are you doing this to me? Does it give you that much pleasure?"
Itachi pulled out his teeth as he licked up the excess blood kissing along Sasuke's jaw line. Sasuke swallowed hard as he felt his brother's hand move back down to his pants, lowering the kunai onto the ground. With a flick of his fingers he undid the button that was holding them closed. This was the point where the confusion was whirling around his head in a horrendous storm, what were his intentions? The pants were now sliding just a little down his legs leaving him exposed, and his hands allowed him to do nothing to save him from this horrible fate.
He felt his brother's fingers curl tightly around his length sliding the blood onto his skin, making his throat tight, breath struggling to pass his lips. His saliva ran out of his mouth, the tightness in his throat making it impossible for him to even swallow.
"I-Itachi," he breathed trying to make all of the pain go away, he wasn't really here, he wasn't right in front of him touching him, telling him that he was enjoying this. It was all a lie, none of this was true.
"Do you really dislike it that much?" Itachi asked in a calm voice.
Tears fell down his cheeks in vast quantities, drowning his mind in the tears of his childhood. His fear was coming true; his brother was hurting him, killing him, destroying him internally, pounding his sanity until there was nothing left.
"Itachi! Please!" Sasuke begged his body shaking violently. "Just let me go, I swear that I will leave peacefully. Just let me go… don't do this!" he closed his eyes turning his head to the side. "Please!"
He felt a hand pressed up against his cheek pushing him back to face the face of his violator. His eyes stayed closed tightly not opening even in the least bit. He was going to drain all of the pain out of his mind before he went insane.
"Don't turn away; when you gave up your life for that of a ninja, you relinquished all ability to show fear. You chose this life, you could have chosen a different one, but you're stuck now." Scarlet eyes narrowed. "For you, this is how it ends…"
Hearing the words seeping from his brother's lips made Sasuke's eyes open slightly, letting in the darkness that was churning with the freezing sting in the air. He had to get out; it was either get out or lose all control of his mind. He moved his hands swearing that he felt one moved from the force, but not enough to free himself. The sobs that left his lips became louder as he began to scream out moving his feet uncomfortably.
"Itachi!" he screamed loudly hoping someone would hear him.
The response brought more chills, Itachi face was vacant of all emotion, the thrilling grin from his sadism was gone. He just looked upon his screaming brother without an ounce of pity. The chilling wind rolled across Sasuke's face as he looked into the eyes of his captor, his own black eyes begging to be set free. He wasn't going to last much longer.
I've lost too much blood; I can hardly see straight, he licked his lips looking down at Itachi's hand that was still on his flesh, the movements becoming less and less dramatic. But they were enough to send the pulses of rapture and torture up and down his spinal column, bringing him to the edge of his tolerance.
"What are you trying to pull?" Sasuke asked as he let out a quiet moan. "Are you just going to touch me? Why me, and why this torture? Why are you bringing me to the same amount of insanity that you're at?"
There was a small silence as the wind rushed by again followed by low quiet. "You'll never be at the same level of insanity as me. You're not able to be at that level."
"Able?" Sasuke asked cringing at the word. "You're doing this not only to increase my potential, but yours as well? This is different, Itachi. This isn't like killing Shisui; or our clan, you can't get any stronger. You're already too strong for your own good." He shook his head. "This is inhumane, this is torture. This is real torture, and it's even barbaric for you."
Itachi looked into Sasuke's eyes. "There's still time to stop this. You know what it takes…"
Memories flooded his mind as he thought back to the days of their youth when he would follow Itachi all the way to Hell and back. He wanted to be him, but he would have killed just to have a moment alone with him without his work getting in the way. And right in those three words lay what was left of the Itachi he knew, the one that he played the role of.
Sasuke felt the hand move away from him leaving him aching for more, yet at the same time yearning for it to be all over. This was his brother; this was not the behavior that they were supposed to have toward each other.
He swallowed hard as he felt his body go numb. "Brother…"
"You know that's not going to work, that's not the word you need to say. Even if you dig down deep the Itachi that you knew is gone. He was a figment of your imagination, nothing but a broken dream. You know that there is no hope for you now; a younger version of me, a weaker version might have let you go now. But I'm a ninja, something you will never be," Itachi pulled the kunai that was still embedded in Sasuke's shoulder hearing him scream, his body freezing for a few moments. "Are you going to take this? Or are you going to use your last few minutes to come up with the word that I'm looking for?"
The frightening feel of the kunai was put back to his neck; this was getting to the point where he knew he wasn't going to get out of this alive. All of the training that he had been through was nothing compared to a ninja of his brother's level. Even if he could get out of the sais he couldn't do anything. He needed to find the words that Itachi was looking for.
Itachi opened his eyes wider the bloodlust filling him again. "You can't stop this. You want to know why?" he took the kunai and moved it to his jaw line, sliding it across the skin leaving a trail of blood in its wake. "Because deep in that little heart of yours, you want this, you're giving up to me, begging for me to do this to you."
"Why would I do that?" Sasuke asked as he felt the kunai move away from his face feeling the sting of the cut on his face. "Why would I give in?" he shook his head violently. "This isn't what I wanted… I never asked for you to come back."
"You wanted to kill me didn't you?" the older ninja smirked.
He had lost now; there was no way that this was going to tilt in his favor. Itachi was always winning everything while Sasuke was left to try to be just like him. He spent his whole life hiding in the shadow of his brother, and now he was there again, he was his puppet. His eyes were running out of tears as his vision became cloudier, he was losing too much blood.
"Sasuke," Itachi breathed. "Let me be close to you, like you always wanted." He moved down to where his hand once was, this time his mouth encompassing his length swallowing the flesh completely into the wet heat. He skillfully swiveled his tongue electrical impulses soaring to Sasuke's brain telling him that it felt so good to have attention down there. But it was Itachi.
His body was trying to fight the war with his raging hormones losing as he moved into the hot dampness, wanting to be fully taking in. His brother moaned once out of surprise expecting him to be pulling away not pushing in. As a reflex he swallowed around his flesh a loud moan generating from the bliss.
"Itachi…" he breathed. "Don't do me any favors, please… just break me…"
He felt the heat leave him his brother letting out a laugh at the plea. "Is that what you think this is? You think I'm trying to break you? Why would I do that?" his lips hit Sasuke's hipbone. "I want to test your capacity, how much you can take before you lose all control of your mind."
The heat returned as Itachi continued to test him, making his body start to give up on him. His brother was experienced, arising the questions of where he got these ideas, and how long had he been planning this? Was the source of his pain during the time where he was the happiest with his life? Was it in his childhood? More water fell down his cheeks as he felt the movements up against his body, the silky wetness of Itachi's tongue killing his lucidity.
He was so close to letting go completely leaving the taste of sweet surrender in Itachi's mouth, but he was denied his climax as Itachi backed away. Seeing the look in his brother's eyes, Sasuke knew that it was just like when he was young, it was like the night when his parents died, Itachi was concocting something in that sadistic mind of his.
"Don't kill me," the young ninja begged as he shook his head, his chest tight with fear and his deprival of his peak. "Brother… I..."
Another laugh drove through all that Sasuke tried to savor; his sanity was almost all gone. And through bloody lips Sasuke heard the words. "I won't…"
Hands moved quickly, the white fabric of his pants sliding down his legs completely leaving him completely exposed. He was half naked in front of his brother who was practically imagining himself closer to him.
No, this isn't what I wanted! Not like this, but then why did I stop fighting, and why don't I say the word that he's looking for, I know what it is: it's stop… Sasuke looked at Itachi's face seeing the delight in his eyes. "Itachi…"
Hearing the jagged breath coming closer he felt Itachi move on top of him his body heat diminishing all of the goose bumps that were on his skin making him sigh in relief. He moved to kiss him on the lips again, the kunai moving to his neck again, sweat rolling down his forehead.
This time though, Sasuke let Itachi's tongue into his mouth swirling his own tongue around it making his older brother for once feel awkward. The moment was becoming so erotic the feeling caused legs spread further, bliss filling the air. But bliss turned into shock as Sasuke felt his brother growing hard on top of him.
"You sick bastard!" he breathed turning his head trying to pull his hand out of the sai. But as much as he moved his hand, his senses ended midway through his forearm, his wrist no longer in the picture.
"Maybe I am," he smirked. "But you have been a good little boy." He extended two fingers to the younger ninja's lips. "This will make it easier for both of us, just suck on my fingers. Your pain will be reduced… then again, you like pain…"
The taste of blood filled Sasuke's mouth as he reluctantly took the fingers in. The taste made him gag; it was his own. All of the blood being shed, what was it for? Was it a test that life had given him to ask whether he was good enough to fight Itachi? Or was it a kick to the teeth saying that he always lived a horrible life? Either way it led to one question: where were Sakura and Naruto?
He was supposed to meet them, but they were nowhere in sight. He looked everywhere for them, but it all lead down to here to see his brother. He could have been anywhere but here, and he would still have his dignity. And it was going to result in a lot more than the loss of his dignity; he feared that his virginity was on the line too.
The younger brother kept on gagging on the taste of his blood only the thought of how much easier this will be rolling around in his mind like a reel of tape. Maybe Itachi was right, maybe he wasn't ready to be a ninja.
"Something wrong, little brother?" Itachi asked.
Sasuke sighed as the fingers left his mouth fighting the urge to vomit. "Why do you care all of a sudden?"
He moved his fingers into Sasuke's mouth again. "Because we are connected, Sasuke, we always will be whether you hate me or not. You're my brother the blood that flows in my veins flows in yours as well. And blood is thicker than water." He pulled his fingers out of the wet heat. "Don't you think?"
"I just want to know: what do you want from me?" the young boy asked as he tried to hide the fact that he was drooling. "What is the point of all of this, Itachi, there's always a reason with you and it's more than to see if you or I could raise our potential."
"You want to know?" Itachi asked in a quiet voice. "I want to see you surrender, Sasuke, I've had dreams about it…"
Sasuke shivered. "D-dreams?"
"Yes," he purred as his fingers moved in between Sasuke's quivering legs. "You don't know what it was like looking at you and not being able to have you. Tonight you're giving into me, no matter how much blood we lose."
A single finger slipped inside of Sasuke making him howl in pain, he was being stretched too much and too fast. And the thought of knowing that was a finger in there was so wrong, nothing should be inside him. Then the second finger entered to join the first, a asphyxiated scream leaving the young boy's lips as he shook violently feeling the muscles starting to give out, tightening too fast.
"Relax, the more you move, the more it hurts," Itachi explained. "Take deep breaths… unless you want to get hurt"
Sasuke shook his head as the fingers spread apart opening him up more, preparing him for something larger, blunter, more out of place in his body. But the thought of the purple painted nails inside of him made his sweat glands produce more.
"I don't want to hurt you more than I have to, you aren't worth the energy…" Itachi breathed as he made Sasuke scream louder more tears running down his face. "But the question is, Sasuke, what do you want from this?"
Sasuke panted, his ribcage starting to burn. "Just… get it over with…"
Itachi's free hand moved up to Sasuke's cheek stroking it lightly trying to calm him down. "If you really think about it, you might enjoy it…"
Sasuke spat on Itachi's hand watching the thick clear liquid run down his fingers. "Don't bet your life on that one, I will never enjoy anything that you have to give me, you Goddamn pervert. And I'm not going to enjoy you having sex with me."
As Itachi's fingers rubbed up against the sensitive inside of Sasuke's body, the fingers pulled out leaving his body feeling awkward. He was so stretched open; it felt so strange knowing that his brother was planning on going inside of him. Was there anyway that he could have stopped this?
"I-Itachi…" Sasuke breathed his chest moving erratically, his breaths harsh and rushed as his legs tightened. "P-please don't do this to me… don't hurt me…"
"I won't" Itachi inquired his breath thick with lust moving closer to Sasuke kissing him on the chin, then moving to his lips to place a light kiss on them.
Sasuke closed his eyes moaning lightly into the kiss. "Why is this always about what you want…?"
"Why are you being so difficult?" Itachi asked rolling his eyes.
"Why are you being such an ass?" Sasuke responded as he curled his toes trying to dull the pain in the center of his brain. I'm losing too much blood… but he's not making me lose too much to kill me…
"It's just your virginity, Sasuke," Itachi smirked as he slow undid the clasps on his robe. Click. "There will be worse things in life," click. "And I know that you've wanted this for a while," Click.
"Itachi," Sasuke breathed. Click. "Please…" his eyes were watering now. Click. "Please, Itachi" he begged as he looked into his brother's eyes. "Brother!" Click. "Please…" he was sobbing now, his breathing unstable as his body was struggling to get free. "Please! Please Itachi! Don't do this! Don't kill me!"
Itachi opened up his robe exposing the clothes underneath. "Give up your silly dream, and maybe you can avoid that from happening. Those who have dreams go through the most pain. You know that you can condone what I did."
"I will never forgive you, and I will never forget," he took in a sharp intake of breath. "I'm an avenger, I'm going to kill you and restore my clan, the one that you hated. The Uchiha blood flows through my veins and it's my duty to avenge them from their enemy. You, Itachi Uchiha, deserve to die for your crimes!"
He shrugged. "In order to kill me… you have to touch me… and your hands are pinned down. Try to kill me tonight, Sasuke; it will take a miracle…" he kissed his brother on the lips lightly whispering lightly on them. "Let go… give into your desires."
Sasuke shook his head and closes his eyes screaming. "I'd rather die! I would rather die right here than ever give up my goal! You killed the ones I loved!"
Itachi laughed again as he spread Sasuke's legs, gently kissing each kneecap. "But I'm still alive, don't I matter to you?"
Sasuke shook his head violently, trying to close his legs. "No," he took a breathed after coughing. "P-please… don't…"
"I can't turn back," he positioned himself at the entrance to Sasuke's body. "It's far too late for that, Sasuke… you might start thinking that your goal will be right in your hands, I can't let you taste your victory. Nothing comes that easily, that's why I still exist in your heart."
A massive pain filled the young boy's body, worse than he had ever felt before. Through all of his ninja adventures he had never been able to conjure up such a great amount of pain. His muscles were screaming, his veins pulsing, his lungs almost exploding. He closed his eyes tightly and let out a scream so loud that everyone in the whole populace of Konoha must have heard it. "Itachi!"
The pain pulsed throughout his body showing no mercy, his brother's movements were too great feeding the dismay that was circulating through Sasuke's mind. Was it going to be over soon?
"Itachi…" Sasuke closed his eyes so tight that his consciousness was lost for a split second. "Please!" his teeth pierced his lips his blood rolling down his chin, splashing on the fair flesh of his brother's cheek.
"There is nothing that can save you now, nothing can save you," Itachi breathed. "Your only savior is to let go…"
A deep painful thrust was administered, Sasuke's voice breaking as he screamed. The thoughts of Sakura and Naruto were still fresh in his mind; there was no way that they could be together now. He wasn't right for them, he was slandered, destroyed, robbed of all dignity. Seeing green eyes watering in his mind and blue eyes filled with so much guilt powered his force that was trying to get his hands free, cutting himself on the sharp edges of the blade on the sai. He continued to howl the surging pain continued, the familiar feeling of bloodshed plaguing him. I'm losing too much blood! He coughed, phlegm mixing with more of the horrid red liquid, he wasn't going to make it out of this alive. If I quit that's the only way I live, but then that means this bastard wins.
Feeling the movements speeding up into him, brushing against the sensitive skin inside of his body, Sasuke clenched his muscles tightly. He couldn't give in. The assault was going to be over soon. He couldn't let him win this easily. His body moved up against his brother's meeting his every movement. It felt so good.
"God…" Sasuke breathed as he still shook his head closing his eyes tightly. The thrusts were closer to each other going deeper into his body. His lips parted letting a low strangled sound pass through. His mind was caught in a single wet moan, his legs tightening around his brother's body.
Itachi moved to Sasuke's ear and whispered a seductive. "Sasuke…"
The beat of Sasuke's heart pulsed harder in his chest as he felt Itachi's breath condense on his cold skin. The convulsions that were running through his body were not ceasing, and even his brother's hand on his face to calm him down wasn't enough, he needed more.
"Itachi…" he breathed feeling his pleasure rolling closer to the edge. "Itachi!" he was hanging by a thread the power of his surrender coming closer to reality. "P-please…" his cheeks were on fire, trying to stop the internal inferno that was forming in his stomach.
"Your words and actions don't match," Itachi breathed, a moan passing his lips. "You're begging, but yet you're blushing, Sasuke. You're enjoying this, aren't you?"
"Don't flatter yourself, you prick" Sasuke breathed.
Itachi smirked. "Oh Sasuke," he kissed his nose lightly. "Why do you deprive yourself?"
"You fucking bastard!" Sasuke breathed, closing his eyes. Why is he doing this to me? How much longer is it going to last? Hecoughed. If it's any longer I'm going to lose my mind. Why doesn't he just kill me and get it over with? Why the torture? Why is he making me second guess my decisions. He's antagonizing me…
There was a sickening wetness forming on the ground under the shoulder where the kunai had pierced through his skin, dampening his shirt with every second that passed. Am I… b-bleeding? I'm losing too much! "Damn it!"
"Are you in pain?" he breathed biting at Sasuke's ear harshly. "Do you understand what dreams do to you now?"
No… Sasuke bit his lip harder, the blood running down his face. "I'm not going to give up. You of all people, the one who spared my life should know that by now."
"I think you will," he kissed his lips lightly hearing Sasuke hiss at the contact. "If you want to keep your pathetic life that is. Other people will try to stop you in everything that you do; this is just a long line of pain that you put yourself on. I could save you and put you out of your misery right now, but you are not worth that honor."
"Honor?" Sasuke asked feeling his brother almost stop moving.
"Some of the best have had their blood stain these hands, and I assure you, they were far better than you ever will be at the rate you're going," Itachi continued to look into his brother's eyes lightening up on the thrusts. "Though your blood has been staining these hands tonight, the same hands slew your parents. You're well on your way to being a great Uchiha."
"Itachi!" he yelled out. "I don't want to be your slave… even if you plead that you're helping me."
Itachi moved his hands to either side of Sasuke's body creating more momentum for his thrusts. Pain, the loss of blood, it was making Sasuke's body too weak to function. I'm losing too much blood; I can't go through all of this and get out alive. Why does he hate me so? All I ever wanted was to be near him. I loved him…
"But you don't easily give up even when someone tells you to," he smirked. "You're giving in already. You're finished now, there is no hope left for you."
"That's not true," Sasuke begged. "Just let me be…" his face was streaked with tears. "I don't want you to do this to me anymore, you've done enough! I surrender! I give up! Just let me go."
"Your fear is making you lie to me, Sasuke," he breathed kissing his nose. "You aren't giving in, your will is still too strong to tell you that you're in pain. You're too stubborn, you always were, that is your fault. You're weak…"
"Stop saying that!" Sasuke screamed as he coughed up more sputum. "I don't want this… even if I am weak!"
"Then prove you're strong," Itachi snickered.
"Itachi!" Sasuke begged as his heart stopped in his chest. "Don't do this!" he took a deep breath. "I'm losing too much blood, Itachi!"
Red eyes narrowed at the sight of the blood pooling around them. "You're right, but don't you know, people will come looking for you in this precious little village of yours. They haven't turned their back on you, they haven't belittled you. Though they haven't seen the wonder that you are, they're neglecting your true power, the very power I am testing."
Sasuke sobs loudly turning away. "Itachi… you're not helping anything, you never did," his breathing was shallow.
Itachi put the kunai back to his neck making him whimper again. "Do you think that I care about my methods? If I did, why are we here? No one ever cared about you, Sasuke. Our parents hated you. Our clan hated you. Your teammates hate you. I was the only one who cared, yet you thought I was the one who hated you the greatest."
The cool metal was starting to push into Sasuke's skin, though staying stable even with the heavy thrusting. Itachi's goal was to hurt him physically, death wasn't a factor, nor was to break him mentally. Was there anyway that the fake Itachi that he once knew was still in there, shining through the façade of hate? Was he the real one underneath all of the fabricated lies that lead to that night?
"Ninjas don't do this to one another," Sasuke coughed, his skin growing paler by the second. "You should know that, you were the greatest ninja I've ever met." He continued to move up against him uncontrollably moaning as his prostate was hit, his elbows locking at his body tried to move his arms. "You were the best in our clan…"
"You have no idea what ninjas do to one another; you've never been in that environment," he shook his head stopping completely. "You don't know the pain in a ninja's life. You don't know the torture. This is nothing compared to that."
The words swirled through Sasuke's head hitting him in the deepest part of his heart. Was Itachi referring to ANBU? What happened there that made him so bitter? The torture that he spoke of sounded horrid. The pain that he was putting Sasuke through, was that the same pain that he had gone through?
"I-Itachi?" Sasuke asked weakly looking into his brother's eyes. "W-what do you mean? What happened to you?"
Itachi loosened his grip on the kunai looking into his eyes. "Absolute hell…"
"It doesn't have to be like this? It doesn't have to be this; we could just go our own separate ways." He moved to kiss Itachi on the cheek. No! I can't do this, I'm giving in! I can't degrade myself! This is my brother, we shouldn't be doing this!
The movements were deeper as Itachi started again, the pulses of his length becoming more and more erotic. With every undulation, his body was going to closer off of the edge he was clinging onto. His emotions went wild, the way that Itachi moved made him want to vomit, yet the heat of his body blocking the cold made Sasuke feel safe from harm. He wasn't sure which emotion was winning the fight, but the movements were robbing him of his breath, making his heart race the fastest it has ever gone in his life. His eyes screwed shut, his lips letting out a series of sobs. He wanted it to be over. Just surrender.
Sasuke felt one last movement letting his pleasure free, breaking the barrier that he held so dear. There it was the white sizzle of the surrender that Itachi dreamed of, the one that he had fantasized over for years. The thick liquid of the surrender was accompanied by a half scream half moan combination, a splash of blood leaving his lips. "Itachi!"
"Is your life that important to you?" he moved to whisper condescendingly into Sasuke's ear. "Or deep in your heart did you always dream of that moment, the moment where we would meet up and finally become one?" He bit onto Sasuke's neck, both of them moaning at the same time as Itachi's body froze, his climax was there rolling into Sasuke's body. "Sasuke."
They both panted in each other's ears as Itachi left Sasuke's body quickly, the deadly chill of the night touching him again rushing into his pores. He wished that he could have kept the heat, greedily wishing for the brother that he loved for all of those years. But he was left with this empty shell.
"You're in pain," Itachi breathed as he looked at the blood covering the younger ninja. "Sasuke, looks like it took more than I thought it would. All you had to do was tell me to stop it, and I would have left you alone."
Sasuke coughed as his eyes started to close with the unbearable pain. His body was screaming at him, telling him that there was no way that he could get through this or even dream of leaving alive. His body was too weak, he was too weak. With all of the energy he had left he looked up at his brother with swollen obsidian eyes. He tried to speak, but he couldn't find him voice.
"Give up on your dream," Itachi answered shaking his head. "You felt the consequences; they only get worse after this moment."
He swallowed hard and tried to speak again finding a low raspy sound let as his voice. "N-no… you can torture me all you want," he could barely formulate the words as he tried to breathe, his voice barely audible, the cold making his body shake. "I-I won't give up on my dream, I w-won't die that easily…"
Itachi brushed his hair from his face, the few loose ebony strands falling down to his shoulders sticking to his sweaty flesh. "Have it your way then." He knelt down and tightly grabbed the handles of the sais. He pulled them harshly looking down at Sasuke's blood that still coated them and then at his shaking younger brother. "Whatever you do, remember the pain that I have given you and then see if your dream is worth it." He turned around and walked away slowly not acknowledging the sobbing boy behind him.
Sasuke moved his arms slowly looking at the dark rings of bruises and cuts the sais left him with. His stomach rumbled as he looked at all of the blood on the ground knowing that it was all from his body. The churning heat rose up his chest until it was in his mouth. He doubled over in pain and vomited with all of the shame that was plaguing him. He looked down at what was flowing out of him seeing the mix of water, acid, silt, and blood. I'm losing too much blood! His hands moved for his pants pulling them up to cover his shivering legs. He buttoned them back up not caring about the bloodstains that were setting in them.
"H-help…" he called out before coughing his voice getting lower with every cough. "S-somebody, anybody… h-help me." He fell onto his stomach turning his head to the side. "S-Sakura, N-Naruto, where were you guys when I needed you?" he coughed again sobbing violently. "Where w-were you?"
He looked over at the lightly moving water. "I-Itachi was right…" he coughed deep from his chest. "S-Shisui was lucky to die…" he buried his face in the ground feeling like he was seven all over again. "I-I wanted to die, why am I burdened with the v-vengeance of my clan? W-why me, Itachi, why did you choose me?"
The chills hit his body again as he wrapped his body into a ball his knees up against his chest. "H-help…" his mind was swirling through the darkness. "H-help me…" the air temperature was taking all of the feeling from his body, he was so cold. He shivered as he started to lose focus of the entire world around him.
"S-Sakura, N-Naruto, help me…" his chest was tight as the chills took his consciousness away from him, his body went limp in the cold as he was still curled in a ball, hugging his knees tightly. "H-help…"
The cold air blew up against his body making him colder and colder. His teammates never came for him. The moon remained high in the sky illuminating onto the lightly moving water filling his body with eerie chills. The chills that made his body almost stop functioning as the blood kept on pouring from his body.
Coming here was a mistake.
Author's Note: Please give feedback, honesty is always good. Thanks for putting up with how long it was, I know that it was kind of long. So what did you all think? Good? Bad?
There is more to this story, the next chapter Sakura and Naruto are going to find Sasuke.