The Death of the Game

Slide to the left, slide to the right, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

How long have we been playing this mirror image game? How long have we been caught up in this dance? Our timing has always been perfect; we always make the exact same moves at the exact same second. It wasn't until today that one of us was off.

Slide to the right, slide to the left, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

Which one of us tripped? It was such a shock that I can't even remember if it was you or I who fell. All I remember is that when one of us fell, I couldn't stop thinking – "Why didn't the other fall too?"

Slide to the left, slide to the right, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

This game we play, this dance we dance, it's over now. This whole charade fell to pieces with that fall. We've been losing our rhythm for a while now; today ended it all.

Slide to the right, slide to the left, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

Things have changed since she came. A distance has appeared between us and now the gap is so wide our fingers can no longer touch. I miss the days when it was only you and I… but I know that this distance means progress. It hurts to see you so far away from me, making moves all your own without me beside you. This distance between us terrifies me. I thought that I would at least have until midnight, until the spell on the carriage wore off, but the spell on us was broken much sooner. All it took was the pointing of a finger; all it took was for her to tell us apart.

Slide to the left, slide to the right, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

I'm happy for you; I really am. I'm afraid of this progress but I know this is what you need. I'm glad you're finding a world outside of us. Even if I'm happy for you, though, I'm scared of this new world. If you're scared too, you at least have her to turn to. I'm happy for you. But I… I am all alone.

Slide to the right, slide to the left, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

You don't realize how scared I am. You don't see the change that's happening. That's alright. Perhaps it's for the best that you not realize the growing space between us. Perhaps you'd be as scared as I am… of being just you and not a piece of something larger – the two of us. I'm glad that trip didn't seem to faze you at all. At least one of us is having a decent transition into normalcy.

Slide to the left, slide to the right, turn a quarter turn, wink and smile…

Ladies and Hosts, this is the official end of the "Guess Which One's Hikaru-kun Game." We can't keep pretending everything's the same anymore.