Author's Note: Lack of updates. Wow. Well, anywho, here's a new chapter everyone! New one coming soon, I promise!
Story Title:
Everything To Lose
Chapter Rating: NC-17 (For some mature content)
Chapter Summary: (Don't read if you want to figure out what happens as you go.)
Peyto and Lucas find themselves drifting further apart, while Nathan and Haley are the exact opposite.
Chapter 6: Long Way To Happy
Peyton sat in the car with Lucas as he drove her home from their dinner date. Things were awkward, to say the least, and Peyton hadn't even figured out exactly why. Though, the fact that Haley had been on her mind (and Haley spending time with Nathan) might have been something to do with it. "Peyton? Peyton!?" Lucas finally exclaimed during a red light, waving one hand in front of her face.
"Hmm?" she corked an eyebrow, turning her attention back to her boyfriend.
"What is up with you lately, Sawyer?" he questioned, turning his attention back to the road as the light turned green and he stepped on the gas peddle. It had started only a few days ago, the drifting away on Peyton's part. Lucas had been trying to get her attention all night, but he hadn't been very successful to say the least. Not only did he feel like he was boring the girl, but he felt like she would rather be somewhere else, and that was an unusual feeling. Before Lucas and Peyton were inseparable, now it was just… well weird.
"Nothing." the girl answered for what felt like the hundredth time. "Just, with finals coming up it's kind of stressing me out." she lied.
Haley and Peyton had chatted for most of the night, until the two found themselves curled up together sound asleep. The two didn't seem to realize the consequences of their actions. Peyton Sawyer had a boyfriend, and Haley James was getting a divorce. Haley had never thought of herself as a lesbian before, it was just something that kind of happened. Those feelings towards Peyton were feelings she was sick and tired of ignoring. But, it was fine in Peyton's room, in Peyton's house, but what would happen in the real world where people didn't take that kind of news very well?
The blonde awoke from her first straight through sleep since she had gotten home from the tour. Whether it was the fact that she felt at peace with herself, or that she had someone beside her that had made her sleep well, she was grateful for it either way.
"Good morning, sleepy head." Peyton said softly, leaning her elbow on her pillow as the side of her head fell into the palm of her hand. Glancing at Haley, the blonde couldn't help but notice the stray strands of hair frizzing from the top of her head. Bed head. Even with it, Haley looked beautiful. Of course, Haley had always been one of those natural beauties without having to put on any makeup, but something was different. Peyton just couldn't put her finger on it.
"You know, if you're going to keep staring at me when I sleep, we're going to need to set some ground rules for rooming together." Haley joked with a shake of her head as she found her hand soon entangled with Peyton's. A smile spread across her face, but she had no intention of getting out of bed.
"We've got a snow day. Luke called." the blonde informed the girl who looked like she needed to know that she didn't have to worry about school. Peyton was never a morning person, but thanks to her damn boyfriend she had woken up early and hadn't been able to go back to sleep. Thoughts of the night before kept swirling around in her head. Peyton didn't regret it, she couldn't. It was those feelings that just kept messing with her head. She cared for Haley, and it definitely wasn't the way you felt towards a best friend, it was something more than that. Something that was definitely worth exploring, at least in Peyton's opinion it was. But, did Haley feel the same way?
After lacing their fingers together, Peyton stayed still for a few moments, glancing at Haley carefully as she tried her best to blow the stray strands of her bangs out of her face but with no luck her facial expression soon changed to a frustrated pout with her classic scrunched up face look. Peyton laughed and moved the hair out of her face for her with a smile.
"Lets stay in bed… all day." Haley decided with a half nod of her head, the best she could do seeing as how her head was still lying on the pillow. "It's too cold." she complained once more, her voice quiet and soft like a little kid's.
"Sounds like a plan to me." the other blonde agreed as she laid back down in her bed and stared at the ceiling for a few minutes. "We are going to have to talk about it, you know." she said, breaking the silence between the girls.
"I thought it was one of those things that we both know happened, but it was an unmentionable event." Haley responded honestly. She wasn't quite sure where this whole thing was going, or where they could even go if they started up a relationship. How many people would be open minded about Peyton and Haley? Especially since they technically had just cheated on her best friend… Peyton's boyfriend.
Peyton's mouth was open, but she was hesitant to speak for a few moments before glancing over at the girl. "Is it something you want to just forget ever happened? Because… if you do just say the word and it never happened."
"No." Haley said honestly, still staring at the ceiling, "Peyton, there's something there… between us, and I don't know what it is and it confuses the hell out of me, but I want to know. My curiosity has always gotten the better part of me, and this time it might be for a good cause. And I-" the blonde started to ramble on as she usually did when she tried to get her point across and was nervous. Haley was bearing her heart out here, putting it on the line and she wasn't even sure how Peyton felt about it, but she did get her answer. Just as Peyton's lips crashed upon hers for the second time, interrupting her speech.
"I wouldn't have said those exact words, but you pretty much said what I was feeling." Peyton confessed, never one to be good with bearing her soul or explaining her feelings. Haley smiled and pulled her hand away from the other girl's as she reached up and rubbed the girl's cheek with her thumb, their lips touching once more.
"I knew staying in bed for the day would have its advantages." Haley joked, breathing heavily after a few moments of kissing the girl. Peyton simply laughed and pulled Haley back towards her, letting each other explore their mouths and let their tongues dance around each other's mouths.
As the blonde reached for the girl's top, Haley pulled away. "Let's just take it slow, see what happens." she stated hesitantly, breathing heavily once more trying to catch her breath.
"Well, you know that we kind of already went past slow last night." the blonde informed, but nodded her head in agreement. It wasn't about that to her, and even she herself wanted to take things slow. Peyton was confused, and she wasn't quite sure what the hell was going on. Was she really a lesbian? Was that 'dyke' comment on her locker that was made a year ago by Felix Taggaro, true?
Stopping the car, the blonde boy once again found himself staring at the blonde curly haired girl who seemed to be more spaced out than ever. Concerned, he placed his hand on his shoulder and startled her a bit before she turned her head. "Are you going to tell me the truth?" he asked her curiously.
Peyton looked at him innocently, as if she had no idea what he was talking about. "Luke, I'm fine. I've just got to get studying. I'll call you later." she said quickly, unbuckling her seat belt before kissing him on the lips quickly and then hopping out of the classic Mustang and heading up towards her front door. Lucas just watched, not knowing what to do, even though he knew there was nothing he could do. And he also knew that she wouldn't be calling him later.
"Hey!" Haley exclaimed, hitting Nathan over the back of his head with her notebook as a laugh fell from her lips and she watched him with a glare a few moments later as he ate her cookie mockingly. The cookies she had made with Peyton.
"You know, I think you and Peyton need to go to cookie making school 'cause these things suck." Nathan joked simply as he stole another one from the plate closest to Haley.
"If they suck so much then why do you keep taking mine!?!" the girl exclaimed, grabbing the cookie back and eating it, with the expression as if she were telling him 'ha'. Haley shook her head, as if she were disappointed in the boy beside her as she put a total on his test. "Good job, Mr. Cookie Monster." she teased.
"With what? The test, or stealing the cookies?" he asked curiously as he took his test from Haley and smiled somewhat in accomplishment. An eighty-two? Well, that'll do. That'll definitely do.
"Am I… interrupting something?" a girl interrupted after clearing her throat and coughing loudly. Shifting a little, Peyton stood there in the doorway to her kitchen awkwardly, staring on at a sight that she had been afraid of. Nathan and Haley acting nice-nice around each other. Next thing you know, she'd be walking in on the two macking on each other.
Haley coughed on her cookie as she saw Peyton in the kitchen. Continuing her coughing spaz, Nathan patted her on the back concerned before Haley stood up. "Uhm. No. We were just… studying. You know, because I'm his tutor and everything." the girl stated awkwardly, feeling as though she had to explain something to Peyton. As if. She had her own boyfriend… it was only fair for Haley to spend time with her husband… ex-husband, right? Well, take no notice to the title of what they were, it was hard proving her point because of that.
"Well, don't let me interrupt." Peyton interrupted her, stopping Haley from continuing her babbling as she dropped her keys and bag on the counter and leaving the kitchen, not allowing anyone to say a word about it.