Hi. Okay. So this is just me indulging myself. Not sure where this is gunna go, I mean I have a few things set, but its kinda just writing itself right about now. Its set mid season 3 and I got the idea after watching a promo for IS season 3 and I just felt like writing something… so here we go. Bold is lyrics italics are flashbacks. Song used is Skips- Alexz Johnson herself. I don't own any of this stuff. Though it be pretty sweet to. Just read and bare with me all. 

" I feel my heart doesn't fit cause it beats too many times and it skips running races in my head and then"

It hurt. No, she hurt she thought as she sung into the mic. She watched Kwest mindlessly toy with some sound controls and she couldn't help but think it didn't feel right with him behind there by himself.

"I feel my hands don't work, touching your skin in the dark I was put here to watch. Not meant to get caught up in it, close to your skin."

Kwest was a brilliant producer, she could never deny that. And if she could leave her bias thoughts at the door, she would be able to realize she was lucky to have him as a producer and any singer would jump at the chance to have him work with them on an album. But he wasn't who she wanted.

"Up and down on this merry-go-round. Take me up, put me back in one piece but let me feel you."

She silently willed the tears that suddenly manifested to dissipate. He did it again. She like Jamie predicted, just like Sadie all too willingly pointed out. Tommy broke her heart, again.

"Well here I am, landing myself again. Ready to fake it on a win. Let me break him in, let me break him in."

Yet, unlike the other times, this was worse. This was far worse than anything he's ever done. And This time she swore to herself this would be the last time she ever gave Tommy Quincy the opportunity to hurt her.

"I made a choice, try to make myself invisible. make sure i can fit it, cause im sick of feeling miserable. Hidden by some lies, sacrifice my friendly ties, wont attack if he walks my way. Hear what he has to say."

She kept replaying the scene over and over again. It wasn't any easy one to forget, though she tried with all her might to. Her heart ached and her stomach turned violently as she though about it and her mind drifted back to two weeks earlier.

Jude walked with a smile on her face as she approached the doors of G Major. The streets were quiet, and the inside of G Major even quieter. It was about 6 am and she had a 6:30am meeting with Tommy .He had been away for about a week and he had gotten in late last night .He wanted to see her first thing in the morning, before anyone else got there. She was happy to ditch a couple extra hours of sleep to see him considering how good things had been going between them lately. Especially since she turned 18 a few months ago. She knew this was their time. He was already a part of her and it all felt so right. She couldn't help the excited smile that appeared as she neared the studio door. She reached for the handle without a second thought and swung the door open. Her smile instantly fell and was replaced with an expression of shock and disgust. "Tommy." She choked out as she spied him on the floor with his arms wrapped around a half naked brunette.

He looked up at her with an equal amount of surprise. "Ah, Jude. What are you doing here." She watched Karma stir from her sleep on the floor as he scrambled up.

"I guess I could ask her the same thing. But even I'm not that dumb." She looked towards Karma and the contempt for her shone in her eyes. When no one said anything, Jude continued. "We had a meeting remember?" She waited a pause, before she gave a hollow laugh. "But I guess you were a little preoccupied with this over here." She jerked a hand over at Karma. "Virgin my ass." She spat out.

Karma stepped forward ready for a fight, but Tommy pulled her back. "Don't." He warned as Jude and Karma shared looks of hatred. He sighed heavily. "I need to talk to Jude, Karma." He looked at her as she huffed and stormed off, dressing herself as she walked out the door with a slam.

"How could you do this to me Tommy? With Karma of all people! Why didn't you just stab me in the heart, it would have been a lot less painful." She threw at him, awaiting a reply. When he said nothing, it only served to fuel the flames. Jude's hurt disappeared as she grew more and more infuriated. "You're just gunna stand there and say nothing?" She stepped closer to him as he continued to do exactly what she said. "Say something Tommy!" She shoved him slightly, just to get a reaction out of him. "Say something !" She shoved him harder and harder as the tears started to roll down her cheeks. "Say something!"

He let Jude's first push move him back slightly. He took the second push, but when she started to cry, he grabbed her wrists with a soft, but strong grip. "Jude," He whispered first, but it was lost on her. "Jude," He said a bit firmer, but still she ignored him, as she struggled out of his grip. "Jude, please!" He yelled finally getting her attention. She stopped abruptly and looked him in the face, willing him to say something.

For a second, Jude wished he would make it right. Her eyes pleaded for him to try and deny it. To convince her that what she saw wasn't what it seemed. That it was all some huge misunderstanding.

Tommy stood there, knowing what she wanted to hear, but he couldn't bring himself to say it. He let the excruciating silence continue as he loosened his grip on her wrists but still kept his fingers around them. "I'm sorry." He quietly offered as she choked out a sob and pulled her wrists out of his grasp.

"I hate you." She hissed out as she brought her hand up and swung it towards his face, instantly leaving a red mark on his cheek.