Still completely NOT liking Vampire Knight right now…I only like Zero... When Yuuki opens her eyes and gets a clue URGH …we'll just have to wait and see…but you all seem to like this story so I update only for you…a little in between chapter! I tried to write it like confused, angry thoughts so it jumps around a lot...and I think there's only one word of actual spoken text.

It's heartbreakingly short but it's better then nothing...

This entire chapter was written to Coming to Terms by Caroline Liar which is my new ZeKi song…it just fits them so well…

In The Summer's Twilight

Chapter 8: Coming To Terms

Cause I'm using you and you're using me…
It's never as easy as we believe

Zero turned bitterly, clutching the frame of the door. "I'm going out…" He whispered and left, trying to leave all his hostile thoughts behind. What on earth was he possibly thinking? How could he have said he loved her so easily? He knew that she would always have feelings for that fucking Kuran, that whenever she saw him her face glowed. It drove him absolutely mad…

Yuuki watched him leave and shook her head of the thoughts to follow behind him. Zero was beautiful and she cared for him but seeing Kaname before her now made her question her thoughts and her feelings. She deiced it was best to stay right where she was, in Kaname's arms.

Zero sat down on the sand, the loud roar of the waves pushing and pulling in his thoughts. He hoped the sound; the droning noise of it would wash his feelings of Yuuki away with it. He tried to block out the fact that he always wanted her to be happy or the thought that he never thought he was good enough for her anyway.

Shame ripped at every single corner of his heart as he clenched his teeth together, so hard he could feel blood wash into his mouth, his own taste so unappetizing. He spat towards the side and began to plot, horrible ideas of killing Kuran and making Yuuki watch, of leaving and never ever coming back, maybe even committing suicide.

He shook his head and looked up at the starry sky, something only moments before had been a welcome now felt like a hindrance. He wanted gray clouds, he wanted rain…he wanted her.

None of the thoughts running through his head would make anyone feel any better. He had never thought of himself as a nice guy and all of his ideas all had one thing in common…they left Yuuki in pain.

But didn't she deserve it? Didn't she confess her love only to turn around and leave him for Kuran Kaname? Wasn't she the one who did something wrong this time?

Maybe it all wasn't as easy as he thought. Maybe once you told someone you loved them and they returned it happiness doesn't open its arms for you. She had said it to him and he knew that as soon as he entered that damned house again she was going to give him an excuse...but that didn't mean he had to accept it. She had moved to fast and was careless but he wasn't going to do that. He wasn't as stupid as that, he thought with a smirk.

She had completely rushed her feelings and didn't think anything through, that was Yuuki in a sense and he couldn't possible hate her for that, he couldn't hate her for anything. When she took it all back he would nod and tell her that one day she would fall in love with him completely. But could he be strong enough to actual say that rather then sit here like a coward and think it to himself?

Yes he was...

It was only Kuran who stood in his way. That fucking monster was always standing there, his arms embracing her and knowing that with a simple word he could have her in a heartbeat. He was using her for his own pleasure. He enjoyed just having Yuuki and that was all. He loved the idea of this beautiful follower trailing behind him and she was using Kaname as an excuse not to move on to the future. She felt that she would always be forever in that greedy monster's debt but that wasn't the case!

The whole thing now seemed obscene to him. He wanted to go back to the house and throw Kaname out, claiming that even if he was invited to stay he couldn't dare be under the same roof with a monster like him…even if Zero was the same in a sick and disgusting way.

"Fuck…" Zero bit out, as he looked down at the white sand beneath him.

She was always better than him, not mentally or physically but spiritually and humanly. She was greater and his busy thoughts fled from near hatred to deep admiration. Was she being true to herself or was she afraid? Zero ran a hand through his hair knowing that sitting there trying to figure Yuuki out would be a vain effort indeed.

Thinking was getting him no where and was making his entire body hurt with the pain of reject and shame.

She needed him though.

She really needed him.

His eyes widened as a strange realization came to mind. No matter if she loved Kuran more than she loved him- she was always love Zero just enough that it would make her wonder about him all the time. He smiled and thought of acting brash and blunt with Yuuki, throwing his arms around her and kissing her when he felt. It was so unlike him but the idea was more than pleasing.

Was all this what she needed? Maybe she needed two men in her life- the hero and the best friend, two different men that gave her a pleasant heartache and peculiar balance in her life. He didn't know anymore and as he rose from the beach he looked back up at the house. He could see Yuuki standing on the balcony they shared without Kuran near her, or so he hopefully thought. Even though she was so far away he locked eyes with her, staring her down.

This wasn't going to be easy but he was going to change her. He was going to throw off the balance in her life. He was going to make her choose. He was going to take her down from the pedestal he had placed her upon and make her his equal. He felt that final thing would be the hardest.

He bitterly walked back towards the house, his eyes leaving her form as he took a deep breath in for courage. Zero was starting to learn that his life was never going to be easy- that he was the type of person who had to fight for what he wanted, that he had to prove his strength.

And that's exactly what he was going to do…

He was going to fight.