Disclaimer: I definitely don't own Grey's Anatomy.

So, the bottom line is I suck. At updating that is. It's been, gosh I don't even know how long. And I sincerely apologize. But I was trying to keep my grades up so I could graduate. And then I was getting ready for graduation. And then I was graduating. And then I was at the beach. And then I was doing other stuff. Basically, I procrastinate. But I'm back. This chapter jumps ahead a bit, a few months maybe, so Burke (who's not fired from this story) and Cristina are about to get married and Meredith and Finn are dating (sorry!).

"Baby it's just you and me, we got a thing they can't shake… "

Finn was great. He was the perfect boyfriend. He opened the door for Meredith on dates, and brought her flowers and kissed her goodnight. But there was one thing he wasn't. Derek. Meredith and Finn had been together for 2 months, long enough that she was willing to let him call her his girlfriend. And she called him her boyfriend. Except to Derek.

Derek knew about Finn. He had found out about it when Finn made unexpected visits to the hospital and when he showed up to try to talk to Meredith, only to interrupt a date. They just didn't say the word boyfriend. It hurt Derek too much to think of Meredith with another man and the only man Meredith wanted to use the word boyfriend with was Derek. And today, Meredith not only had to deal with one Shepherd, but two. Derek had made plans to go over to Meredith's house after both of their shifts were over and help her cook for Cristina's bachelorette party. But she was also lucky enough to have been assigned by Bailey to Addison's service for the day.

"Iz" Meredith called through the hallway to Izzie as she was heading to meet up with Addison.

"Hey Mer, shouldn't with be with Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd?"

"I'm on my way. I just wanted to let you know that I need to the kitchen tonight. So no baking."

"Why? You can't cook."

"Believe me I know. Derek, he's um…coming over…he makes really good lasagna so he's going to help me make some for Cristina's bachelorette party," Meredith explained.

"Seriously? Derek? Mer, are you sure that's a good idea. I mean, I know you two say you're just friends, but I think we all…"

"Thanks Iz. I know what's going on with me and Derek, but I need him to help me with this so, we're just going to have to get through it. I've gotta go find Addison but I'll see you at lunch," Meredith said hurrying off, and avoiding conversation about Derek.

Meredith hurried into the patient's room, to see Addison giving the patient an ultrasound that she should probably be doing, had she been on time.

"Nice of you to join me Dr. Grey," Addison said, sarcastically.

"Sorry. I'm here now." Meredith replied, a bit out of breathe.

"This is Danielle Beckett. She's 18 weeks, in for an amniocentesis because her last child has Down's syndrome. I need you to run some labs and let me know when you get the results. I'll be back to check on you later Danielle," Addison gave the patient a smile and Meredith a glare before leaving.

"Damn. What'd you do to piss her off?" Danielle asked.

"I'm an intern," Meredith said, and I'm in love with her husband she thought to herself.

Meredith knew that Addison knew about she and Derek's flirting and odd relationship. Gossip spread around the hospital like wildfire, especially when it involved the dreamy neurosurgeon and a lowly intern. But she was almost 100 percent sure that Derek hadn't told his wife that he was in love with another woman.

"I heard she's the best there is. And a lucky woman too. I heard one of the nurses talking about her husband."

"She is the best," Meredith replied, without a word about Derek.

"And her husband? Is he really as hot as they all say?" Danielle asked as Meredith drew blood from her arm.

"Um…" Meredith stammered, "Derek is…I don't think Addison wants me to talk about her personal life. I'm going to take these results to the lab," she said quickly, taking off her gloves.

"He must be something if he has you stuttering like that."

"I have to go. Dr. Shepherd and I will be back with you later."

The rest of the day went by slowly. As usual, Meredith spent lunchtime with Izzie and George. Bailey had commanded that Cristina take the next couple of days off to prepare for the wedding, not without objection of course. After lunch, Meredith went to the lab to get Danielle's test results and then found Addison at the nurse's station.

"Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd?"

"Can I do something for you Dr. Grey?"

"I have the labs on Danielle Beckett that you asked for. Everything looks good. Are we going to go ahead with the amnio?"

"Yes. Go ahead and prep a room and do a final ultrasound."

The amnio was completed without complications. Addison even let Meredith perform most of it on her own. After the procedure was done, Meredith went to the locker room to meet up with Izzie and George and head home for the evening to get ready for her night of cooking with Derek.

"Izzie, did you buy all of the other stuff for the bachelorette party?" Meredith asked, frantically searching for the ingredients that Derek had told her to buy.

"Yes. For saying your just friends, you're awfully anxious about this."

"I just…Finn, and…Derek and I are friends. We are just friends. And he's helping me cook. That's the kind of things friends do. Plus, I'm the maid of honor; he's the best man. We're cooking together. It makes sense. Plus, we're just friends."

"It sounds like you're trying to convince yourself of that, Mer."

A knock on the door interrupted her reply, and Meredith went to the door to let Derek in.

"Hey," Meredith said with a smile reserved just for Derek.

"Hey yourself."

"Did you buy everything I told you to get?" Derek asked as they headed into the kitchen.

"Yeah. And some extra because knowing how I cook it might take a few tries to get this right."

"Don't worry. Chef Derek will keep you in line," he winked.

"Smart ass," she giggled, hitting him on the stomach.

"If you guys don't stop flirting and start cooking we won't have anything to eat tomorrow night," Izzie said.

"We're not flirting," they said in unison.

"Yeah, and I have 8.7 million dollars. I'll be upstairs if the kitchen starts to burn," she said heading up the stairs.

"Okay, lets get started," Derek said, clapping his hands together, "God knows how long this is going to take with you helping me."

"Hey! I'm not that bad…okay yes I am. I should have just ordered take-out instead I got stuck with you," she said, playfully shoving him.

"Take-out doesn't even compare to my lasagna."

"Well, I guess we'll find out won't we?" Meredith smiled.

They started cooking, Derek made the sauce and Meredith put the first layer of cheese and pasta down in the pan, with some direction from Derek here and there.

"How's the sauce coming?" Meredith asked, leaning over Derek, "It smells amazing."

"That's because it tastes amazing," he lifted the spoon to his lips and took a taste, before making a face.

"What? Did you ruin it? Derek, you told me you were the best at…"

"It's fine. Just needs a little bit of salt."

Meredith handed Derek the salt shaker and watched as he put a little bit in and then stirred it up and then took another taste.

"It's perfect," he said, putting some more on the spoon and reached over to give Meredith a taste.

Derek hadn't been lying when he said he was the best at this. The sauce was the most delicious thing she had tasted in a long time, besides one of Izzie's cakes.

"Oh my gosh, that is…so good," Meredith said, licking the rest off of her lips.

Derek laughed; "Mer, you've got some sauce right…" he walked over to her and leaned close to her face to wipe the sauce off of the edge of her lip.

Before Meredith could get the sauce off of her lips with her fingers, Derek was getting it off with his own lips.

Derek's arms looped around Meredith's waist while hers wrapped around his neck. The kiss started small and continued to become more passionate, their tongues battling for power. Meredith let out a small moan as Derek lightly traced his tongue along Meredith's tips, teasing her.

Meredith's heart began to race as her tongue entangled with Derek's. She knew this was wrong. Derek was married and she was in a relationship with Finn. But while it was wrong, it felt completely right. Being in Derek's arms was exactly where Meredith felt like she belonged.

But any thoughts or reason were erased from her mind as Derek began to suck and gently nip at her neck, Derek laughing at Meredith's reaction of giggles and gasps. Meredith moved one of her hands to the back of Derek's neck as she pulled him back up and kissed his lips more urgently than before.

"Achem…"

They broke apart quickly to see Izzie standing at the door to the kitchen with her hands on her hips, looking like a mother who had just caught her teenage daughter with her first boyfriend.

"I should go," Derek said, "Just you know, put the sauce on and then another layer of pasta and then bake it for 20 minutes or so. Call me if you…Izzie probably knows what to do. I'll see you at the wedding," he finished, leaving as quickly as the kiss had begun.

"Meredith…" Izzie started.

"I know. It's just…"

"What about Finn?"

"Finn is…great. He's amazing."

"Then what are you doing with Derek?"

"I'm not doing anything with Derek. He's married."

"That didn't look like not doing anything. Meredith, you owe it to yourself, to Finn and to Derek to figure this out before you all get hurt."

"I know, I know…" Meredith said, as she started to finish lasagna with the instructions Derek had left her with.

"Maybe it's a little hard sometimes to take…"

Don't really know how I feel about this chapter. As usual, I'm really, extremely insecure about my writing. But I have some ideas for what's going to happen in this story. Hopefully, I'll be able to write the next chapter tomorrow. But we'll see. If I get lots of reviews, I'll be more motivated to write more!!! I hope you're all still reading!!

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