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Greg jumped when strong arms wrapped around his waist from behind. He relaxed when he realized who it was and turned his head to smile at Nick.
"Happy anniversary." Nick whispered in Greg's ear.
Greg's smile widened. "You're supposed to be at work."
Nick took a step away from Greg, who turned around to face his boyfriend. "Nice to see you too." Nick said in mock-anger. He tried to walk past Greg, but was stopped when the younger CSI grabbed him by the shoulder and pushed him down onto the couch. The spiky-haired ex-labrat let himself fall onto Nick and smiled happily after having done so.
"You know I'm always happy to see you." Greg said before he kissed Nick's lips quickly. He shrugged slightly before saying, "I just thought my Thursday boyfriend got his days mixed up again and might have showed up today...that was a close call last time."
Nick rolled his eyes at Greg and pulled his head back when Greg leaned down to kiss him again. "Go kiss your Thursday boyfriend." He said sarcastically.
Greg tried his best to hold back his smile, but wasn't succeeding. "Awww come on Nicky. None of my other boyfriends are half as good at kissing as you are." Greg decided it was a good time to use his famous puppy dog eyes on Nick...again. "Please? It's our four year anniversary...you really should be used to me saying stuff like that by now."
Nick gave in to his own smile that had been tugging at his lips. "Yeah, good point." Nick reached up and threaded his fingers through the soft hair on the back of Greg's head and gently pulled his lips down onto his own. The kiss quickly intensified and resulted in Nick pushing Greg up off of the couch and into the bedroom, with both of their clothes somehow being removed in the process.
Greg rested his head on Nick's shoulder as he drew lazy circles on Nick's bare abs. He let his tired eyes slowly close and sighed happily. "That was fun."
Nick laughed and kissed the top of Greg's head. "Always is G."
Greg gave up on his geometry lesson and threaded his fingers with Nick's. "Can you believe it's been four years?" He said as he opened his eyes.
Nick nodded as he continued to trace the faint scars on Greg's back. "Yeah, I can. After all that's happened, it seems like it's been longer though."
Greg thought about it for a minute before nodding in agreement with Nick. "Yeah, that's true. It's been a pretty rough couple of years."
"This job's always rough." Nick said sadly.
"Especially for you." Greg said carefully.
Nick shrugged. "It was no big deal."
"Yeah, sure looked it. I don't know how you got through everything you did."
Nick squeezed Greg's hand firmly, but gently. "You."
Greg craned his neck so he could look into Nick's brown eyes. "What?"
Nick shifted slightly and smiled weakly. "I uh...never told you this...but when I was buried alive...I thought about you then entire time I was down there." Greg stared back at Nick silently. "Whenever I wanted to just end it and pull the trigger, you're what stopped me. You kept me going, and have ever since."
"Wow...I didn't know that." Greg said quietly.
Nick laughed humorlessly. "Well, there's a lot you thankfully don't know about me." Nick said before he thought about what he was saying.
"Like what?" Greg's curiosity never failed him.
Nick silently cursed to himself. "Nothing bad...just stupid stuff that happened to me when I was a kid."
Greg picked up on the change in tone in Nick's Texan accent. "Nick...what happened to you when you were a kid?"
"It's nothing. No big deal now, it was almost 30 years ago."
Greg slowly released Nick's hand and sat up next to him. "I'm trying not to pry, but I can tell it's more than you're saying it is. And I'm not gonna lie, it's kinda scaring me." He reached out and ran his hand through Nick's short, dark hair. "You know you can tell me anything, right?"
Nick nodded slowly and closed his eyes. "When I was nine...my parents went out to some Christmas party for my dad's work, and all my sisters and my brother were all at parties. So my mom had to call this last minute babysitter that lived a few houses down." Nick shook his head slowly and opened his eyes. "We were just watching TV...then she...started kissing me and rubbing my legs and wouldn't stop. She said I had been bad and was being punished...and if I told anyone I'd be in even more trouble. So I never did."
Greg looked down at Nick and the look in his eye's made his heart break. He was completely speechless. What was he supposed to say to that? They sat in silence for a long time. The entire time, Greg couldn't help but think that every time they had had sex, it could have brought up a memory of what his babysitter from Hell had done to him. If he had touched him somewhere she did or did something she had done...Greg couldn't bare the thought that he had hurt Nick, especially like that.
Nick had broken eye contact with Greg a long time ago. He was staring at the bedroom door as if he were in a trance. The silence was starting to drive him crazy. Someone had to say something.
"I get it if you don't wanna be with me anymore Greg." Nick said quietly.
Greg snapped out of his staring contest with Nick, who hadn't been participating. "What? Why wouldn't I want to?"
"Because I'm fucked up. I always knew I didn't deserve you and I'll never be good enough for you. It's okay, I understand."
Greg shook his head rapidly. "Nicky, you have no idea what you're saying."
Nick nodded slowly. "Yeah, I do." He looked back up at Greg. "I never understood why you were with me this long, but it's the best thing that's ever happened to me so I didn't question it too much. You can do better than me, you know that."
"What are you talking about? I love you cuz you're an amazing person...why would I want anyone else?"
Nick closed his eyes again and let his head fall back against the pillow behind him. "I never wanted you to know what I was like before I met you, so I told you a lot of lies."
"Like what?" Greg asked, still not believing Nick.
Nick sighed, his eyes still closed. "Remember when you asked me when I lost my virginity, and I told you I was 18?"
Greg nodded. "Yeah..."
"Well, technically I was nine cuz of the whole babysitter thing...but I'd rather not count that." Nick opened his eyes and looked up at Greg. "I was fourteen."
Greg shrugged slightly. "That's not that bad."
Nick went on. "And ya know how I said I didn't have sex with that many girls when I was in high school and college? Well that was an even bigger lie. I'd have sex with anyone who'd let me...which was a lot."
Greg grabbed Nick's hand in his again and rubbed it gently with his thumb. "I don't care, it's not that big of a deal Nick. You're worrying over nothing."
"That's not even the worst of what I've done."
"I'm sure you couldn't have done anyth-"
Nick cut him off. "I was a drug dealer for a while."
Greg shook his head slowly. "What?"
"Yeah, me and my room mate in college. I needed money, so we got into it. I actually got a kid killed because of it." Greg stared back at Nick silently. "Yeah, he died because of me."
"Nick...wh-"
Nick cut him off again. "I did drugs too, I didn't just sell them." Nick stretched his left arm out to Greg and showed him the faint scars on the inside of his arm. "Heroin." He said simply.
Greg pushed Nick's arm away. "Why are you telling me all this?"
Nick sighed. "I want you to know the truth about me so that you understand what an awful person I actually am and that you should be with someone better than me."
Greg shook his head. "Why are you all of a sudden like this? It's like someone flipped a switch and you immediatly changed or something. This is insane."
"I just...I don't know what got into me. I was just thinking about how lucky I am to be with you for this long...and couldn't lie to you about what I used to be like anymore." He tightened his grip on Greg's hand. "I know it sounds stupid and not important...but I just...wanted you to know I guess."
Greg shifted himself so he was straddling Nick's lap, still holding his hand. "I love you no matter what you may have done when you were younger. Everyone's done stupid things, it doesn't change how I feel about you now. It does't matter what you did...it's what you do that I love." He smiled down at his boyfriend. "Don't worry, I'm not gonna leave you. You're stuck with me Nicky." He leaned down and pressed his lips to Nick's.
Nick smiled into Greg's kiss. He pulled away slightly so that their lips were just barely touching. "I love you so much Greg. No matter what happens...always remember that. I'd do anything to keep you safe."
"What's wr-"
Nick silenced Greg with another kiss. "Just promise me you'll always remember that."
Greg nodded slowly. "I promise."
Nick smiled again and pulled Greg into a breath taking kiss, holding him as close as possible and never wanting to let go.