Mission to Sleep

Meredith's POV

"Crap"

said out loud as I tossed and turned for the umpteenth time in 5 minutes.

"I can't sleep"

I'm exhausted, I've been on call for the past 25 hours with still 6 to go and yet I can't sleep.

I hate being on call alone all night. Izzie was asleep in her bed, George asleep in his bed, Alex asleep in his bed, Cristina at home with Burke in their bed, Derek. Derek all alone at home in our bed.

I'm here all by myself. Bailey's here. But yeah she doesn't count. I'm here in this cold bland chrome looking on call room attempting to sleep on this bunk bed style uncomfortable small mattress.

I grab the pillow and put it over my head in frustration hoping it suffocate me into sleep.

Doesn't work.

Let's count sheep.

Doesn't work.

After 30 minutes of this, I give up in frustration heading out of the on call room to wander the halls hoping that walking would do something.

You know what? This is all Derek's fault. Derek with his warmth and holding me while I sleep. Stupid McDreamy has ruined me to the point where I can't sleep alone and without his arms wrapped securely around me. It's all his stupid neurosurgeon self's fault and where is he? At home fast asleep in our bed, he probably stole my pillow too.

"Hmm I wonder" I say to nobody since I'm walking down an empty hallway when a thought on how to achieve my mission to sleep pops into my head. I wander around looking for a custodian with keys. They clean rooms and offices and they have the keys to the kingdom. Well in this case the hospital and in this specific case the Head of Neuro's office.

I see a nice looking custodian with lots of keys pushing a cart down the hall.

"Excuse me yoo hoo sir? I left important charts that I need right away in that office over there and was wondering if you could let me in to get it?" I ask sweetly while pointing to Derek's office.

"Sorry miss but it's against the rules." He said blankly and went back to pushing his cart.

Crap.

"Sir Sir," I chase after him while formulating a plan. I'm pretty sure me breaking into

The Head of Neuro's office is against some rules on it's own but it's too late to ponder that.

I reach him and beg and plead that this is important and patients are at risk. Which in a way is technically true because if I don't sleep, it won't be that good for anyone I'm medically treating later.

I think he knows I'm lying because he gives me this disbelieving look, you think the night custodians even know that I'm the slutty intern who slept with the married attending and broke up their marriage?

Considering the look he's giving me. I'm pretty sure he knows who I am and whose office I'm asking him to let me break into.

All those thoughts are pushed aside as I realize that he had given in and opened the door while I rambled on to myself. I mumble a thank you as I walk into his office seeing his white lab coat sitting on his coat hook. Not bothering to turn on the light, I just grab it and put it on. It wraps around me like a huge robe, it smells just like him and I just curl up on his couch while inhaling his sent on the coat makes me feel like he's here.

At peace and not feeling like something is missing as I finally succumb to the sleep that's been plaguing me.

Mission Accomplished.