Irreplaceable Memory
By Demon Eyes
Disclaimer: All related names of Type-Moon belong to them and A Tale Of Two Sisters is most definitely not mine.
Preview: Rin's thoughts about Sakura.
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I don't usually get sentimental in autumn,
But it's different this year.
I gaze upon the northern sky - The red sky.
It brings back the memory.
It happened exactly eight years ago.
With my being bathed in falling Sakura petals,
The sky I watched back then resembles the sky I am watching now.
I like the colour red.
I like the colour of the Sakura leaves near home.
I like the sky I gazed upon.
I like the quilt and pillow in my room.
Her dress was red too.
So I loved my house.
'I must have lived in this kind of house in my previous life.'
I imagined that.
It wasn't unfamiliar even on the first visit.
That familiar feeling. I still remember the feeling.
In the house I loved, I always felt I was alone.
Whenever I was in the house, I missed just one person.
The little girl who never hated her sister.
She could have been angry at least once.
Doe-eyed, she looked at me with pleading in her eyes.
My little sister, Sakura.
I didn't know I could miss one person for such a long time.
Whenever I was alone, I got very ill.
I couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat.
I didn't speak. I wept a lot.
I was very lonely.
Nobody knew of this though.
"I'm sorry I couldn't save you.
Do not forgive your sister.
Do not leave me," I said to my self.
But that just made my illness worse.
They say you bury the loved one in your heart.
That means...You don't forget them until you die.
I buried Sakura in my heart,
And I missed her.
Eight years have passed.
Whenever I see a familiar red sky,
I miss her.
And I am still sorry.
I have a memory that cannot be erased.
The memory of longing for this one person.
On every windy autumn day,
I get sad from the memory.
For, it is just a memory now, after all the barriers that I have put on my heart.
Still, I like this longing.
One day I will make everything right.
If only I could get passed this steel wall that is pride.