THIS IS MY FIRST TIME AT ATTEMPTING FAN FICTION SO ALL FEEDBACK WELCOME ESP WAYS YOU THINK I COULD IMPROVE THIS... A FEW THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW FOR THIS TO MAKE SENSE,

ELLIS IS FINE WORKING IN NEW YORK.

MARK AND ADDISON ARE MARRIED LIVING IN NEW YORK.

I THINK THATS IT BUT IT ALL COMES UP ANYWAY SO THAT WAS PRETTY POINTLESS...

I Chose Life…

Meredith refused to look out of the window as the lights of New York became fainter, further away as the plane rose into the dark sky. Instead she stared down at the one photo she had allowed herself to bring, letting silent tears of gut wrenching pain flow freely, this Derek smiling up at the camera nearly a decade ago was the one she wanted to remember. Not the absent preoccupied man he had became or the man she had seen kissing another woman in his office at the hospital just forty-eight hours ago…

He didn't know she had seen him, leaving as quietly as she had came unable to face him, to hear his excuses or at worst for him to tell her he was in love with this nameless brunette because that would of broken her beyond repair. She knew her mother was right she was doing what she always did avoiding but this avoidance was saving her, saving her from the pain of finding out that the man who she still loved as she had done as the angry cynical eighteen year old didn't love her anymore. That love was the catalyst for her taking the only option open for her: leaving and not staying to fight for him, for them because to lose that battle would leave little chance for recovery.

In just a few more hours she would be back in the city she had last left as a child, returning to the house that had last been home to her and both of her parents. She would spend her time as an intern and resident at the same hospital she had spent hours in with her father whilst waiting for her mother before the divorce. Under the charge of a man who wasn't only an old friend of her mothers but also her soon to be ex husbands too.

Ex husband … how had they gotten here, the couple who had driven the five hours between New York and Dartmouth to snatch moments together , the couple who had talked countless nights through how had they ended up like this… Maybe her mother had been right for once and love wasn't always enough and the gold band hanging from around her neck would be a constant reminder of that.

COS EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED AND NOW…

I AINT GOONA LOOK THE OTHER WAY,

AFTER ALL THE CLOUDS GO BY IT'S JUST ANOTHER EMPTY SKY,

I AINT GOONA WAIT TO SEE THE RAIN,

NOTHINGS GONNA MAKE IT RIGHT,

LOOK AT ME COS I CHOSE LIFE…

SO MEREDITH HAS LEFT DEREK IN NEW YORK AND HEADING TO SEATTLE, THE NEXT CHAPTER DEALS WITH DEREK AND HOW HE REACTS ON FINDING THIS OUT... PLEASE READ ENJOY AND REVIEW...