Disclaimer: I don't own anything Hellsing related, mainly the characters. I'd be rather well off if I did and be able to quit my job. jk...

A/N: This is just a one shot that popped into my head when I watched Hellsing again for like the twentieth time. This is mainly written in Seras' POV. Thought I'd warn you guys just in case you don't like that kind of story with a certain POV. It won't be strictly her POV as I'll be alternating between her details that other characters will be thinking, recalling and speaking. Either way, this is a different story and a first attempt at any kind of POV story so be gentle. :)

Why I Said Yes

By Nlightnd

Angrily spinning, I threw my weight towards the training dummy and delivered a vicious kick that would've sent most men to their knees or flying backwards about fifty feet. Stepping closer to the stuffed effigy, I pounded it with a varied round of punches, backhands and kicks. After a short time, I was exhausted!

It brought back memories of police academy training and the weekends when we had to complete required physical portions of a yearly exam. They always left me feeling worn out; earning the sympathy of all the guys along with a stupid nickname that I hated...kitten. But I went along with it anyway. Just for them. Just to try and fit in with the guys. Sound familiar girls? All in the name of fitting in with the boys. What was I thinking? That's the point. I wasn't thinking. I was trying to hard to find acceptance, a family. Yeah right.

Since I was still considered young, by the night's standards, I still didn't have much in the way of stamina. Sucked to be me. What am I , you ask, to be compared with the night? I am a vampire. Or a vampire's fledgling to be exact. I'm not kidding no matter what you may think. And no, I'm not crazy. Check all the asylums or mental wards if you don't believe me.

My name is Seras Victoria and I was turned by the oldest known vampire to man. Alucard. Better known throughout history as Dracula. Does that intimidate you? Right now, it means jack shit to me! Maybe because I'm so pissed off that a red haze has covered my eyes. I'm so angry that I feel I could literally kill the first person who set me off! So how's that for a confession? Why am I so angry you ask? I'll tell you. Then you can make your own call about whether I have a right to be angry or not. Why did I agree to walk the night with him? Good question. Maybe it was the way the wind teased his hair around his body. Or maybe it was the way his red eyes seemed to grab hold of mine, pulling me closer, pulling me towards a seduction so dark. Why is a damned good question. Listen close and I'll tell you why this is what I chose.

It all began last night while Master Alucard and I were on a mission..

Flashback...

Alucard and I had been dispatched to a small, local village. Strangely enough, it was reminiscent of Cheddar. That place still gave me the shivers. I still can't pass that stone ruin without freezing up and having flashbacks from hell.

Patrolling the green hills, we silently hunted the ghouls that were single handedly turning the peace loving villagers into cannabilistic ghouls. I had to suppress a shudder. The thought of those creatures with saliva dripping from their teeth and gums and gray, sunken skin were the things nightmares were made of.

In the distance we could hear them. We just couldn't see them yet. The sounds of their low growling, and the horrid sounds of flesh being torn and eaten almost made me gag. My master calmly reached over and touched my shoulder. I guess it was his way of telling me to calm down and remember who I am...a child of darkness, a child of the No Life King, himself! Not many could boast of that title amongst our kind.

Master's eyes shone with an unholy light. He was prepared to unleash hell. Of course he was always ready for that. Looking at me he spoke directly to my mind using telepathy. "There's twenty of them. I can take the majority of them. How many can you handle Seras?"

Nervously, I stared at him informing him that I'm not sure what I could or couldn't handle. Not a smart answer. In fact it seemed to piss him off pretty good. Way to go, Seras, I thought.

Alucard was counting on the fact that they were ignorant and had not clue that we were coming. Good for us. Bad for them. "Seras, just take the two directly to your left and I'll deal with the rest."

Nodding my head in agreement, I watched in morbid fascination as he leaped into battle firing off his Casul and Jackal; cutting down the enemy one right after another. He looked so good as he spun, kicked, shot, and decapitated his adversaries. He further proved his strength by thrusting his arm completely through a ghouls sinewy chest; turning it to dust! Talk about unbelievable! Talk about hot! Wait a minute! What am I thinking?

As if on cue, Alucard swiveled on the heel of his boot, facing me with a huge grin stretched tight across his face. I could have sworn he'd heard every thought that had crossed my mind. But he hadn't, had he? I could feel my cheeks reddening as the color of my embarrassment spread all over my face and other parts that I can't bring myself to speak about right now.

Hearing a noise behind me, I turned and a ghoul was right on top of me. Yelling at the top of my lungs, I shouted, "Hell no you don't, dusty bitch!" Aiming for it's heart, I pulled back on the trigger and released it with no hesitation. The ghoul fell to the ground in dust and my eyes widened in awe.

Wow! I actually did it! I killed one! Yelling at my master, I grabbed his attention momentarily telling him of my actions. He appeared pleased, then he quickly returned back to his own battle; killing off his undead puppets with little to no effort.

I was no longer paying attention to my orders as I watched him. Everything about him moved me. The way he moved was a dance worthy of the best choreography in the world. He made it look so easy, even though I knew better. If I could see the muscles under his shirt, and coat, I'm willing to bet I'd be drooling as they smoothly moved under his pale skin.

Oh, shit! I'm lusting after my master! How pathetic! And in the middle of a mission too! How far have I fallen? My eyes immediately glanced down at the ground in shame. I couldn't believe I was acting like this. This was not the time not the place for me to act like a lovestruck girl!

I was so caught up degrading myself over my actions and ripping myself to shreds that I never heard the ghoul sneak up on me. Funny, I didn't know they were aware of how to sneak. I thought all they did was moan, groan, wave their hands about and feed on the flesh of the living. I felt a hand shove clear through my middle, and I felt blood spurt out of my mouth. I heard a deep voice yell my name in horror. Surely that wasn't Alucard! Nothing ever bothered him. Well, I take that back. The only time he was bothered was when things, or people, pissed him off.

My eyes were slowly drifting shut, my body feeling so weak. I felt a pair of strong arms lift me gently up and against a firm chest.

I heard a voice whisper, "Seras, why? Why weren't you paying attention?"

Choking on the blood that was pooling at the back of my throat, I replied, "I was distracted. I'm sorry, Master."

Crimson eyes narrowed. His voice rang out harshly. "You're sorry? Sorry doesn't cover it, Seras! You can never afford distraction on the field! Never! What the hell were you thinking?"

Feeling the bite of his reprimand, my soul stung by the words he spoke, my eyes teared up. I knew that if I cried it'd only make him angrier; so I kept them buried inside for the time being. I refused to shed tears in front of someone who couldn't appreciate them or me.

Alucard waited patiently on an answer. One I couldn't give. One I wouldn't give. The reason- he would never understand. And I'd only end up with a hell of a heartbreak. Not to mention more emotional baggage than I'd know what to do with. So I did what was best for me-I stayed silent. My lips trembling, I turned my head away from his prying eyes. For I suddenly realized that if he truly wanted, he could just look in my mind for the answer he was seeking. But that would mean the end of all trust, what little trust, that stretched tautly between us.

Without warning, I felt a warm tongue languidly lapping at the wound on my stomach. I almost jumped completely out of his lap from shock. There was my Master licking at the blood on my flesh! Surprised, I watched as the torn, ragged skin slowly closed up stemming off any further blood loss. For the moment I experienced warm fuzzies for him for his actions, but I still couldn't forget the words spoken.

Now that my injury had been attended to, he speared me with another hostile glance. "Seras, when we return to Hellsing we'll finish discussing this matter. I refuse to believe you'd allow yourself to be so stupid, losing yourself in your surroundings; almost getting yourself killed! But enough of that for now. Let's head back. I've already taken care of the remaining ghouls."

With that said, he turned his back to me and said nothing further. I saw a huge black void open and I ran to catch him, but he entered it and let it close behind him.

I felt betrayed! Had my actions been that wrong tonight? Rage spilling from my soul, I shouted to the heavens, "How dare you leave me, you arrogant, spiteful, son of a bitch! I hope you choke on your blood, you fucking swine!"

Instantly, my eyes widened and my mouth snapped shut when I realized what I'd done. I couldn't believe I'd lost my temper so severely. I used to never be like that until I joined Hellsing. I'd been pushed beyond my limits since my subsequent turning and all at the hands of my so called beloved master! But the more I thought about it, he'd driven me to it. So now I was left here to walk and just hope I could make it back before dawn. Currently, I wished that if I was a smoker that I could roll Alucard into a big, fat joint and smoke the hell out of him! There! That thought put a little smile back on my face. At least for a little while.

I blew out a frustrated breath as I continued walking on into the night.

End flashback...

Remembering everything that had happened last night after my return also made me smile. Of course Alucard gave me an ass chewing I'll never forget and now I've got a lot of training with him for the next two months regarding the do's and don'ts of field behavior. Oh well, I guess it was a small price to pay because,well, Alucard got an ass chewing of his own courtesy of one, Sir Integra Hellsing.

The long, pale haired blond heiress stared down her servant. Her blue eyes so icy cold the temperature around them seemed to drop. "Alucard, you git! How dare you leave her behind! What if she'd been attacked again? What then?"

"She'd have survived. Besides, it's not like she was paying attention the first time. Maybe she needed to learn a lesson." The teasing sound had vacated, fury pressing it's way into his voice.

Integra's eyes flashed angrily at his statement and insinuation. "What lesson what that be, Alucard?" She crossed her arms waiting to hear his answer. But she continued before he could give it. "There can be no lessons learned if she's dead! You were the one who insisted she be brought here, Alucard! Regardless of whatever choice she made, you made the choice to be her master when you turned her."

I wisely chose to stay silent during their exchange. I didn't want to get either of them going on me so I just sat back and watched the show. Of course I'd felt fury of my own at his careless words. Personally, I wanted to reach up and slap some sense back into him.

Leaning back in her leather chair, Integra smiled mischieviously. "Alucard, for abandoning your fledgling in the middle of the countryside, alone and unprepared, I hereby declare that as for punishment you will spend the next two months training her. I'm talking about weapons, creature lore, black arts and other magic, and martial arts. Every bit of it. No exceptions. I expect the two of you to report to the training fields at eight pm every night unless there is a mission. Understood?" Her eyes just dared them to disagree.

I snapped a salute and replied, "Yes ma'am."

Alucard stared stonily at his master and muttered darkly, "Understood."

Integra smiled and said, "Your dismissed!"

Alucard immediately vanished leaving the two women behind.

"Don't worry Seras, he's just going to sulk. Sometimes not only can he be the biggest ass, but the world's biggest baby too." Integra laughed as she pictured the might vampire sulking with his lip poking out and she couldn't contain her laughter.

Nodding, I laughed with her. Suddenly, I grew serious. "Integra?"

"Yes?"

"My apologies for disappointing you and Alucard. I didn't mean to, but in a way I wonder if I'll ever truly fit in here."

Lighting up one of her favorite brand of cigars, Integra inhaled and gave the fledgling a knowing glance. "Seras, don't let Alucard fool you. You scared him tonight. According to him, you had a grave injury and had he not made it to you in time, you would've died your second death. You've been here but a short time and haven't had the proper amount of time to adjust. Give it time."

Integra watched Seras carefully before addressing her next question. "Seras, may I ask you a personal question? If you consider it as such?"

I smiled, showing a hint of fang. "Sure, I guess. If it's something I can answer."

"Well, that all depends on you. Why did you accept Alucard's offer? Strictly curiosity speaking, of course."

I had to think on that a moment. Just exactly why did I accept? And how much of my answer did I tell the woman in front of me? Would she criticize me for my reasons or would she see exactly what I meant? I just didn't want to say the wrong thing and end up being reprimanded for my thoughtless words. I'd already had enough of that lately. Pondering my answer carefully, I took a breath that I didn't even need and began my explanation.

"Well, I was going to die anyway, with the situation so hostile between Alucard and the priest. When you know you're going to die it kind of puts things in perspective. And when he asked me, I took a moment to think and consider my decision carefully. I thought about the things I'd be giving up and the things I'd be gaining as well."

A little nervous, I began pacing around in little circles in front of Integra's desk. "I can't help but admit that I was drawn to him. Who knows if it was his magnetism or if it was just a natural born chemistry between us? I don't know. His eyes pulled me in, so deep. I felt like I'd fallen into a river so deep, but I wasn't drowning."

Deep in my memory recall, I hugged my arms tightly around my small body, remembering the sounds, sights and smells. I couldn't forget a thing. My mind wouldn't allow me to forget. Nor did I want to. No matter what happened in the future I always wanted to remember the brief few moments when he held me like a lover, cradled so gently against him, as he tenderly eased my last human moments on this earth.

"His hair blew in the wind, black as midnight, his tall form, seemingly a unpenetrable fortress, his entire body and mannerisms screamed confidence. Most of all, he seemed sorry that I was involved. But if it hadn't have been me it would've been someone else. And when I heard him speak, his voice wrapped around me, bewitching me, mesmerizing me. I didn't want to fight it, didn't want to fight him. All I wanted was him, to be with him. So when he asked me what my decision was I told him yes. The reason I said yes was so I could be with him, fight along side him and eventually become a strongly independent vampire in my own right."

Snapping out of my reverie, I glanced at Sir Integra. "Does that answer your question, Sir Integra?"

Appearing every inch like the cat who stole the cream, she smirked. "Perfectly. Thank you. You're free to go now."

Smiling and feeling like a burden had been lifted from my shoulders, I stepped from the room a little lighter than before.

Alucard reappeared from the shadows staring at the door where I had just left. He was stunned and wasn't quite sure what to say.

"So, Alucard. I think this one's thrown you for a loop, wouldn't you say?"

"Something like that."

"I believe you've finally met your match."

His dark, fiery red gaze continued to stare at the door to Integra's study. "Maybe so, master, maybe so."

A/N: This is the end...there might be a continuation if enough people want it. Just review and let me know if you want it or not. Thanx!