A/N: Hey, you guys! I'm not sure if you've read this in my profile or not, but this is one of the upcoming fics I had mentioned. The song, 'Without You' is at the beginning of each chapter, and will continue until the story's end. This fic has nothing to do with RENT. I just like the song, and it kinda made sense to the plot, I guess. Also this fic has IN NO WAY anything to do with 'VSU' (Vindicated part1, Stay part2, and Undiscovered part3). So u don't have to know anything to read this fic lol.

So, this is indeed a StanXKyle fic. No more pairings. Just SXK lol. The boys have completed high school as Kyle is attending Columbia University. And just to let u know, there is going to be A LOT of flashbacks. So if ur not clear about something, it'll probably be explained in later chapters. Seriously. I'm talkin' like at least one flashback a chap lol.

Okay, so this first chap is kinda like a prologue, i guess. Stan reflects on the past, and Kyle's horny heh heh XDD

Summary: Stan Marsh's future is coming back piece by piece gracefully. He has moved into an apartment in New York City with his bestfriend/fiance, Kyle Broflovski, the love of his life and they have just gotten a beautiful baby boy. Everything is going according to plan, but what happens when Stan's first love comes back into his life; haunting him as he gets weaker, and weaker to resist? What happens when that certain love is heroin? SLASH

Disclaimers: I don't own the song 'Without You' by Jonathan Larson, or the characters created by Matt and Trey.

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WITHOUT YOU

"Without you the ground thaws

the rain falls

the grass grows..."

IT WAS YOU:

Stan's POV:

"No.. no. This shit's no good either" I began to crumple up another sheet of paper, and threw it towards the trash can, missing the target completely as it fell with the rest of the rejected balls of paper.

I was beginning to get frustrated with my song writing as I sat in my apartment at the table in the kitchen area clad in nothing but a pair of dark plaid blue boxers with the moon as my only source of light. I ran a hand through my black hair in distress before I rubbed my eyes roughly as I could hear the sounds of New York City-- the city that never sleeps-- outside. Apparently, I was no different tonight as I had felt guilty for not coming up with any good song ideas for a while now.

I stood from my chair as I got up and got a glass from the cupboard, filling it with water as I took a drink, and sat back down.

I turned my gaze over to the second room, the door partially open as I could just see my son, Jamie's, crib with him now fast asleep in it. I smiled warmly towards him, though I couldn't quite see him in the darkness of his room, but I knew he was there, resting peacefully. I was glad I kept him. I was thankful that I had took him when Wendy was going to put him up for adoption. I mean, he was my son too. I knew that it was really tough sometimes, but I couldn't help but feel so lucky...

"Stan? Baby, what are you doing up this late?" I heard a groggy voice ask from behind. I turned to see my fiance, and roommate, Kyle Broflovski, advancing towards me with a sheet draped low around his waist as I smiled just from the sight of him.

"I thought you were just gonna take care of Jamie before singing him to sleep again, and then come back to bed" he spoke softly in my ear, pouting cutely as I felt his arms wrap around me, and then a feverish kiss laid just below my earlobe, which made me shudder.

I turned slightly to meet his alluring green eyes so full of life. "I'm sorry, Ky," I breathed before meeting his lips in a searing kiss. "but I just felt so bad for not writing anything lately, and I can't come up with any good lyrics" I sighed as I turned my eyes to fall upon my blank piece of paper and pen, and leaned my head back on my lover's shoulder.

"Well, maybe I can help" Kyle suggested as he began to stroke my bare chest with his hand softly.

I smiled. "Dude, the reason why I insisted on you staying in bed while I fed the baby was so you could rest for your morning class tomorrow"

Kyle smiled back. "But, Stan," he began, his voice husky and so close to my ear again as his eyes looked dreamy. "the only reason why I woke up was cause I was so cold without you beside me to keep me warm."

He began to run his lips down my neck, leaving a trail of kisses until he reached the crook. I tilted my head to the side in order to allow him better access as I watched his left hand continue to fondle the skin below my collarbone with my eyes half-open, enjoying the feeling.

The gold ring that I had given him glinted as I felt it rubbing along my chest. I can still always remember so clearly the day I had proposed, and how happy his smile was. I would never forget it. I could always still smell the fresh mountain air back in our quiet hometown, the way he looked so beautiful, and perfect that night, or the view on the town where I had taken him atop a hill with all the stars crashing into the horizon, sparkling as bright as diamonds. I knew I was in love as I still am to this day, and always will be. He was my hero as he had always stuck by me, and saved me from a most terrible life that I would've led if it wasn't for him. I had meant everything I had said that night...

FLASHBACK:

It was nearing high school graduation soon as I led my boyfriend by the hand once we had stepped out of my parents' car, a smile widened along both our faces. The summer air swept along my skin as I practically pulled Kyle along as he tried to keep up with me.

"Come on, Stan," Kyle laughed. "where're we going?"

I turned a grin towards him, and his adorable curiosity. "Somewhere" I answered simply.

"Oh, wait, I think I've been there before" he joked, wishing I'd be more specific.

"... It's a surprise"

We soon began to reach the top of the hill as I still had a firm grasp on him, towing him behind me. The light breeze began to pick up a little once I had stopped at the edge before the lights below, and the sheet of night sky above, stars dusted across like a million little speckles millions of miles away. Kyle had never once let go of my hand, but instead squeezed it tighter as he looked upon the enchanting sight, his rich eyes sparkling with wonderment. His soft maroon curls began to sway with the breeze as a light grin graced upon his lips, admiring all that the hill overlooked.

"Oh, Stan, it's beautiful" he smiled.

I smiled back, shrugging. "Meh, I've seen prettier"

"Oh, yeah? Where's that? .. Elsewhere?" Kyle joked again.

"No," I snickered as I let go of his hand, and turned to him. "he's right here"

Kyle simpered, giggling at my cheesy line as I cupped his neck, and gently stroked his cheek with my thumb, moving in closer to him. He slid his arms around my waist and my back as he deepened the kiss that we had shared between us. I pulled away, though, as I knew I had a few things left to say before I spoke tenderly, holding him close in my arms.

"Kyle," I began. "I want to thank you for being here for me all this time .. Even when everything was shot to hell, you still believed in me. I was just stupid enough not to see you here in front of me sooner .. but I've realized now that it was you who held me as I cried over my breakup with Wendy. It was you who loved me all along even through all that time I slid into depression, and then into drug addiction... It was you who helped me quite those drugs, and complete high school as you had become my loving boyfriend .. And then it was you who had supported me when I had told you that I was gonna be a father. I still don't know why, but even then you didn't leave me. You just happily plopped down beside me and said that you've always wanted a baby..." I spoke with great affection.

I saw Kyle's eyes shimmer with tears building up as he smiled warmly, and lovingly towards me.

"And now it's you as we're graduating, and the baby will be coming soon. I just want you to know that .. without you, I would never have known what it feels like to be in love, or know what my life would be like if you weren't there in it.."

Tears of happiness began to spill from Kyle's eyes, rolling down as he admitted a small waver through his beautiful smile.

"You rescued me, and you've treated me with so much more care, and support than anyone I've ever known .. even my family... which is why I don't want to spend a single moment without you.."

I pulled away from his arms as I knelt down, taking his hands into mine. I looked up at him with such love, and devotion as his eyes widened at my gesture. "It's you, Kyle. It's always been you who I've been waiting to find my entire life... Kyle Broflovski, will you marry me?" I brought out a small velvet box as I opened it, and presented an engagement ring to him, my eyes filled with such hope.

Tears of joy ran down my love's face as he smiled, excited. "Yes!" he nodded quickly, crying as his breaths were uneven with the biggest grin plastered on his face. "Yes!"

I grinned back at him as I took the ring out from it's case, and took Kyle's left hand before slipping the gold band around his finger, and then stood back up, tears now collecting in my eyes as well. I pulled him close, holding him tightly in my arms as I pressed our foreheads together.

"I love you, Kyle"

"I love you too, Stan"

I wiped the shinning beads that left trials down from Kyle's glossy eyes, filled with fleeting joy before I pulled his lips into mine, kissing him ardently. He kissed me back vigorously as he pulled me down to the soft ground on top of him...

END OF FLASHBACK

That night, we had made love under the stars for the first time as a betrothed couple. That night, I knew I had made the right step forward...

"Come on, baby. Come back to bed" Kyle pleaded sweetly.

"Okay.. I know I won't be able to fall asleep, though. I'm just not tired"

"Oh, I think I can make you pretty tired, Stan, once I get through with you" Kyle's voice was seductive.

I let a soft moan escape as Kyle's hand maintained caressing my chest, casually brushing past my hardening nipples. I could feel his hot breath on my skin sending shivers down my body before I turned my head towards his as his lips collided into mine with lust, me kissing him back fiercely. I was beginning to feel my lower regions stiffen as he began to explore my thighs with his hands before I felt his finger tips running along my excitement through the material so lightly. I gasped from the unexpected touch, which allowed him access inside my mouth before I moaned from deep within my throat as my erect manhood was left pulsating with a longing desire for more.

I then began to tug at his sheet, slipping it lower as it passed down against his groin, but Kyle had broken the kiss abruptly as he placed a hand on mine to stop me with a smile on his face.

"What's wrong?" I asked confused.

Kyle's smile grew. "Lets move this to the bedroom, shall we?"

I smiled back equally as wide as I grabbed his hand, pulling me up to his level, and quickly made our way to our bedroom, and shut the door behind us as all the apartment was still with the exception of our room, and the active city outside that surrounded us...

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A/N: There you go! Hope u guys enjoyed! More chapters to come! PLEASE tell me what you guys think in a review:D I'd love to hear from u!

Okay, this chap was kinda short, but the rest will probably be longer most likely. Okay so this chap was fluffy, but there will be drama, more romance, some angst, and more fluff to come XDD hehe the idea about the baby, Jamie, was based off of my wishes for a baby boy when I'm older :D AWW JAAAMMMIIEE XD!!

ANYWAY, again, PLEASE REVIEW!! XDD

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