Author's Note: Okay, this is definitely my first fanfic ever, so don't be too disappointed. I don't really support rikuxkairi, but I thought I might be able to go somewhere with this story line. I hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimer: I do not, in any shape way or form own kingdom hearts I or II

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A girl stood by the shore of the deep ocean, her feet getting sucked in by the sand beneath her. Her blue eyes scan the horizon, looking, hoping. She strains her eyes, squinting them, just in case…just in case he was further away. But no. There was no sign of him. It seemed he would never return. She bowed her head and let out a small sigh.

"Oh Sora…" whispered sadly. She had been waiting for his return for almost 3 months now. Even though his absence wasn't extremely strange, she still missed him more than ever. His arrival had been so bittersweet. He had returned for only a few days and then left abruptly, barely even saying goodbye. Those days had been too short and the silence that had followed was almost unbearable.

She was fed up with his coming and going. It was like he cared more about defeating those damned heartless than staying on the island to be with her. Of course she cared about the fate of world. Who didn't? But she cared more about him than anything else. Obviously he didn't share the same feelings. She just wanted…

"You're not looking for him again are you? Come on Kairi, he'll be fine. I know he will. You've seen him fight, you know he's good."

Someone who would always be there for her. And maybe, maybe the source of this voice could help. She turned to face him.

"Riku" she replied with a small smile. "I know. I know. But I can't help but worry about him…And you know as well as I do that I can't help but miss him"

He gave chuckle and shook his head. She watched his silver locks move ever so slightly with this motion and blushed, completely entranced by him. He came closer to her and put his arms around her, in a small friendly hug.

"You're right Kairi. I miss him as much as you do. But I'm here for you, okay? Don't ever think you're alone. Got it?" Riku told her.

Kairi pushed herself further into his arms and nodded. She had yearned for an embrace like this forever. And now she had it. But she wasn't sure Riku felt this way about her as well. Still, she held him tighter and smiled.

Riku, realizing her becoming too close to him, pulled away and backed up a few steps. Kiari, shocked by his reaction, looked up at him, sadness twinkling in her eyes.

"I...uh…I'm sorry Kairi. It's just…I remember I have to go now. I needed to find…that…something." Riku stuttered.

He couldn't do this. He didn't like Kairi quite like that. And anyways, it would be strange. She was Sora's. Not that she belonged to him exactly, like she was his property but…Riku thought of her like that. Of course she was a friend, and she always would be one, but first and foremost she was Sora's girlfriend. He knew his excuse for pulling away was horrible and that it was unbelievable but that was all that came to him.

"I understand" Kairi said, turning away on her heel but not moving forward.

He knew she didn't. He knew she could see the dishonesty behind his words. And that hurt him pretty hard. He just wanted her to see it like he did.

"I am sorry Kairi. I just can't" Riku murmured to her before he turned and walked back to his house.

Why did it always have to be this way between them? When Sora was there, it was secure and balanced. He held them down. Riku on one side, Sora's best friend. And then Kairi on the other, Sora's girlfriend. It was perfect that way. There were no questions about who's who, and no confusion. But with him gone…that balance left. Kairi seemed to want Riku instead. But Riku couldn't. He just couldn't. He entered his house confused and somewhat miserable.

Kairi, left alone on the beach, heaved a sigh and plopped down on the gritty sand. She pulled her knees to her chest and held onto them. She buried her face in her legs and closed her eyes.

"Why? Why do you have to go Sora? Why won't you let me move on?" she whispered, as she started to silently cry.

She did love him. But he was gone and she was tired of this inconsistency. Riku seemed to be there all the time, ready to hold her when she needed it. But why wouldn't he accept her? Was she too ugly? She had grown a lot, and in every way, since he had last seen her. She thought she looked so much better now. But did she? Maybe he liked the old her better. She just didn't know. Nothing made sense anymore.

But one thing grew clear in her mind as she sat there, the waves pushing and pulling on her toes. She knew that she would have to forget Sora or risk getting her heart broken. She knew that, if anything, she would have to gain Riku's love. She would do anything. No. She WILL do everything. She would give everything she have…just to win something no one can really see.