A/n I don't own CM no copyright infringment in intended.

Two Tests

Tick… Tock… Tick…. Tock

JJ watched the timer inch closer to the large zero. Who knew that three minutes could feel like an eternity? She sat on the edge of the counter, and counted the seconds. Her hands were shaking so hard, she'd hardly been able to set the timer. She told herself that now was not the time to panic.

One minute had passed.

Her feet began to swing back and forth, nervously. Her mouth was so dry she could hardly swallow. This was interminable, and all because they hadn't been careful.

Sure, they were married with good careers, and Spence loved her as she loved him, but were they ready for this? Was this what she truly wanted? Would he be happy or angry?

Two minutes had passed.

Now her heart was pounding so hard, she felt faint. She'd never known that just contemplating this could cause some many emotions to well up inside her at the same time. There was fear… nervousness… panic… and yes - even elation.

Ding

It was time to look. She didn't want to look. What if it was positive? Oh God…what if it was negative? What would she do in either case?

Come on girl show a little backbone… go look at it!

No, if I don't look at it, then I can continue to live in blissful ignorance.

Do you really think you can do that?

Yes… I can… I'll just walk away, and nothing will change.

Al right, let me ask you this… can you keep it from him?

She turned, and looked at the test. It was positive! Oh God… it's positive! She began to cry. They were tears of relief, and happiness, because before that moment, she hadn't realized how very much she wanted a baby with him.

Spencer… what will he say?

They'd had this discussion; he was terrified of passing on his mother's mental illness. She didn't have that concern, how could a child created from their love be so cursed? Maybe it was naïve, but she didn't think it was possible.

Anyway, it was still too early to worry about those things. She wouldn't believe it was true until she'd seen her doctor. She would go today, and then it would be real. Still she couldn't help herself; she began to sing softly as she exited the bathroom, and entered their bedroom. She joined Spencer as quietly as she could on the bed. She had deliberately waited till he'd been asleep to perform the test. She didn't want to upset him, or distract him from his job, till it was a known fact.

If he'd noticed her worry, he hadn't said anything about it. She had tried hard to hide it from him. It was hard enough to surprise him. He was after all, one of the best profilers in the BAU. She was glad that Gideon was distracted with his own baby. He hadn't said anything about what she hoped for, and she didn't have to make lame excuses he would see through immediately. In fact, it was Stephanie's pregnancy that had started her thinking about a baby. She'd seen all that her sister in law had been through to have a baby. She'd killed the man, who'd damaged her, but she hadn't given up, and now she had a one year old daughter. Diana was so beautiful - all of the tests and bed rest had been worth it just to have her.

JJ awoke the next morning with a smile. She had dreamed of babies all night. She dressed warm because it was a chilly November day, about three weeks before Thanksgiving.

She got into their SUV, and was pretty quiet on the drive to work. Spencer didn't say anything to her about her silence. He was used to her thinking about cases during the commute, and he left her to her thoughts.

She didn't know how she was going to get through the hours, till her afternoon doctor's appointment. She decided to tell Spence, that she was going to do some early Christmas shopping, and she crossed her fingers that they didn't get a case.

He kissed her in the SUV after they parked. Their one rule was to keep their relationship out of the office. It had preserved the peace in their marriage so far. It also kept tongues from wagging in the office gossip circuit.

She had been surprised at how many of her girlfriends at work, had been upset with her when she'd first hooked up with him, and then married him. He would be astounded to hear how many women in the office had been nursing crushes on him. Some of them still did, even though she'd made it clear, that she was able, and willing, to kick the ass of any woman who so much as looked his way. So far she hadn't had to make good on that threat.

They parted ways; he went to his desk and was confronted by Morgan, who always had some teasing remark to make. They all knew it was in good fun; after all he was like a brother to Morgan. As she crossed to her office she watched him banter with Morgan, and then tackle the endless paperwork. It was time for her to do the same.

They hours dragged by, and they flew by at the same time. Then it was time for her to go to her appointment. Then she had to wait in the office. Then she was in a room, and waiting for Dr Sharon Campbell.

"Hey Jen… how are you?"

The doctor breezed in the door, and stepped over to hug her. They'd been friends going back to college. She refused to see any other OB, especially a male doctor. They just didn't seem to understand some of the problems women have, and Sharon did understand.

She explained her symptoms that she was a week late, and she'd been suffering a little from what she thought, was morning sickness. She'd lied to Spencer, and said it was the flu. But it was going on long enough, that soon he wouldn't believe it anymore, which is why she needed to know for sure if she was pregnant.

Sharon did all of the necessary tests, and told her she would call her as soon as they knew for sure. She assured her friend that physically all was well, so that if she was pregnant, she and the baby would be fine.

When she returned to the office, she stood for a moment looking at him, and wishing she knew the results so she could run to him, and tell him the news. She turned around before someone saw her staring at him, and went to her office. Oh the waiting…it was killing her!

Just as she was getting up to leave for the evening, her phone rang. It was her Doctor.

"Jen, I have good news for you."

JJ sat back in her chair; her legs would no longer hold her. Her hands began to shake once more.

"I'm pregnant… Sharon. Her voice was barely over a whisper.

"Yes, about five weeks."

She couldn't help it; she squealed and then began to cry.

"Hey Jen… you ok?"

"Oh… you have no idea Sharon… thank you… thank you so much!"

They made arrangements for her next appointment, and then JJ hung up the phone. How was she going to tell Spencer? This was going to require planning. She hurriedly fixed her makeup, and checked to see if it would be obvious she'd been crying. She didn't want him to know, not just yet anyway.

There was a knock on the door. She called a distracted "come in" and in walked her sweet husband. She smiled broadly, and got up to kiss him.

"Hey, what's the occasion, babe. You never kiss me in the office."

"I'm just glad to see my gorgeous husband."

Spencer flushed red. He'd never gotten used to hearing her say things like that to him, but he liked it… a lot.

"Well come on then… let's get out of here… I'm starved."

"So you're feeling better then?" His beautiful eyes showed such concern, that she almost broke down, and told him them… almost.

"Oh yeah - I feel great!"

She grabbed his hand, and pulled him out of the office, not caring who saw them.