Warning : This story is rated M for a reason hehe.

Disclaimer : I don't own Beyblade.

Molly : This is the first time I write a Kai/Hil story. I love this pairing. If you wanna read good stories about this couple, go read Moonlight Serenity's ones! She's an awesome writter!

For now, this story is a one shot but if I've got enough readers I may continue it since I've got a lot of ideas.

Anyway ENJOY!

I SPEAK FRENCH SO SORRY FOR THE MISTAKES YOU COULD FIND!

My Mistake

As I'm looking at my own reflection in the mirror, I can say I'm disgusted about what I've became. I guess it's my own fault. If I hadn't acted like a stupid bitch perhaps I would still have my chances with you.

I've loved you so damn much. And I still do. Do you know how much your words had hurt me? Do you even care? I have so many questions I'd like to ask you, but I know you won't answer me. I don't deserve it, I guess.

I still remember that day clearly. The day my life became a nightmare. I was drunk, I have to admit, but it doesn't forgive what I've done. All the teams were at this new club, even you and your team. I've tried all night to be closer to you but you pushed me away each time.

I stopped to insist when you send me the most disgusted look I ever saw you make. That's when my drunken self realised you didn't give a damn about me. When reality hits you so badly, your first reflex is to cry and then, you want the pain to go away no matter how.

That's exactly what I did. After crying a river, I started to drink even more and I kept on glancing at you. I held my glass tighter and it broke into pieces as I saw you dancing with this girl. I didn't know who she was but I didn't care. She was dancing with my men.

I was so angry that I didn't notice a red-haired Russian walking toward me. He saw me sending cold glares to the girl and he started to laugh in a way that could even scared a maniac. "You're pathetic, you know that?" His words were harsh and he was totally aware of it. I barely glanced at him and left him alone without a word.

He was following me. I started to walk faster and went upstairs. He did the same. I began to run and I went in a bathroom, but before I could lock it, he managed to enter and then locked it himself. Damn him for being so fast! "What do you want Valkov?" The fear was making me sobering up faster.

"Don't worry Tatibana, I'm not planing to rape you if it's what you're afraid of." I tensed up when he grabbed my arms and I tried to slap him but he easily grabbed my hand to stop me. "Calm down, you wouldn't want to hurt your hand even more, right?" That's when I realised that when the glass broke, it hurt my hand badly. He released both of my arms and looked in the lavatory and brought out some stuff.

He started to apply some product on my injury and I hit him above the head. "What's your fucking problem Tatibana?" He yelled coldly. "Can't you be less harsh? It hurts!" I replied. "Hn you're such a weakling. No wonder why Kai doesn't want you." The bastard smirked at his own comment. I didn't want him to know that his words had hurt me so I restrained myself not to cry.

Was it really why Kai didn't like me? Was it because he thought I was just a little girl and that he wanted a real woman like the one he was dancing with? I'll prove him that I am one too!

"Earth to Hilary. Did you plan staying here for eternity? I've finished bandaging you up." Tala seemed annoyed. I think the beers affected me too much because I asked him a question I never ever thought I would. "Tala? What do we have to do to be a real woman?" He seemed taken aback first, but then he started to laugh his ass off. He stopped when he realised I was being serious.

"Look Tatibana, I don't know why you're asking me this but I can say that it's everything you're not." He was about to leave but I put my body in front of the door so he couldn't. "I won't let you pass until you answer me." I threatened him. "Fine then." He grabbed my arm, pushed me on a wall, pressed his body against mine and started to kiss me harshly. I couldn't move and he knew it. He then started bitting my neck until a little of blood appeared on my skin. "This, Tatibana, is what women do."

His hands roamed over my body and his lips wound mines once again. I managed to suppress a moan and questions started to fill my head. Did I like this? Did I want this? Did I have to do this so Kai wouldn't see me as a little girl?

When his hands were about to reach my breasts, I started to shake of fear. He licked the blood I had on my neck and then let me go. "You're such a weakling Tatibana. Don't tell me you have done nothing like that before?" I lowered my head in shame and he smirked. "So you're still a virgin then... Little Hilary wants to wait for the 'one' before doing it?" He started laughing coldly.

I didn't want to hear more. I had to prove him I was strong and that I could handle this perfectly. I had to show him that I wasn't a thirteen year old girl anymore and that I've grown up as a beautiful woman. I did the only thing I could do to make him shut up. I pushed him against a wall just like he did before and started to kiss him hard. He soon started to kiss me as hard as I did. He then unlocked the door and dragged me in a room near the bathroom. I didn't do anything to stop him.

I don't remember much about what happened exactly in there after he closed the door. I remember his cold lips on mines, his hands roaming all over my body and undressing me, the way he was looking at me like I was only a toy. I still can fell the pain when he entered me without any warning and that he didn't let me any chance to adjust to this new feeling. I knew the first time hurt, but I didn't know the pain would be raging like this.

He wasn't loving nor caring. I think he even liked it when I was screaming in pain. He was always looking at me in the eyes and they were full of lust. That's all I was able to see. After a while, I've started to enjoy a little more what he was doing to me but I didn't want him to know. Unfortunately, he hit this spot inside of me and I started to moan.

I saw him smirked in satisfaction and he bit my neck to blood while hitting that spot over and over again. He enjoyed the mixture of pleasure and pain he was giving me. With one last hard trust, he came hard in me and collapsed on top of me. I didn't make any move to make him roll off of me. I didn't care at all. I was in pain but I didn't know if it was physically or emotionaly that it was the worst.

He looked at me and kissed me but more gently than the other times. That's when I heard the door opened and saw a too familiar Russian entered. Our eyes met and tears started to form in my eyes as he started to laugh coldly.

"Congratulation Valkov, you've spend another night with a new whore." The pain was unbearable now. Did he really mean what he said? "Yeah well she jumped on me and I'm not the one to say no." Tala said and kissed me. I didn't respond to it, I couldn't. My body wasn't listening to me anymore.

I tried to make eye contact with him but he just ignored me. He turned on his heels and was about to leave but I finally found my voice. "Kai... please..." He didn't even turned his head to look at me. "I don't talk to whores." And with that, he didn't only walked out of the room, he walked out of my life...

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That's when my life beame a nightmare... Tala had informed everyone about how he managed to take my innocence away and now they all thought I was an easy girl, a slut, a whore... I don't have friends anymore. No one could stand the fact that I've slept with the Russian. That's the cost I had to pay for my mistake.

That's the cost I had to pay to become a woman.

-Molly