Author's Note-Okay, so I know I have several fics that are in need of updating. However, as of late, I have been hit by sudden inspiration, and this fic came because of it. I haven't been going through 'writer's block' persay, but lately I feel that I could have/should have done better with some of the stuff that I had planned (but haven't) put out. So, I'll bring you up to speed...
Like I said, this is an Addex fic. It'll be a little dramatic and all, but basically, they've been "non-dating" (or friends w/benefits) for about three months on and off, but haven't told anyone in the hospital about it. Izzie suspects, but doesn't know. In this story, Meredith and Derek are together, but will not be the main focus. Mark exists, but will not play a dramatically huge role. Also, at this point, Alex is Addison's intern (so he's still under control of the gynie queen), but he no longer complains.
Disclaimer: Yeah, I don't own this stuff. Shonda and the folks at ABC do.
Addison walked out of the operating room, pulling her mask off. Sighing, she knew what she had to do. She hated things like this-breaking bad news to people. It was one of the few things that she didn't enjoy about her job. "Addison-"Alex Karev called from behind her.
Spinning around, she saw him walking out of the OR as well. "I told you...at the hospital, it's Doctor Montgomery."She said, in a tired voice.
"Sorry. Listen-lemme tell the parents...you're tired."
"Karev-"
"Hey, i'm tryin' to do you a favor. Just thought I could take this one off of your hands."Alex replied, seeing how clearly upset she was.
Nodding, Addison understood. "I know. And I appreciate it. However, as Mrs.Warden's doctor, it's my job to inform her. You earned a break."
Addison made her way to Julia Warden's room, only to see her and her husband greet her with hopeful faces.
"Doctor Montgomery..."Julia said. "Where's my baby? Where's little Jonathan?"
"Julia, I'm sorry."
Looking up at her husband, Julia instantly burst into tears. "What?...No...No, he-he can't be gone. No...Jason, Jason tell me-"
"Like I said...there were complications. The baby-"
"Jonathan."Julia insisted.
"Jonathan-"Addison said, correcting herself. "his heart was unable to pump enough blood through his body, he barely had enough energy to survive on his own. Due to the fact that he was born prematurely, there wans't much that we could do without risking his life even further. We did what we could Mrs.Warden, but Jonathan's heart stopped beating shortly after we began the surgery."Addison said, feeling herself grow weaker.
Julia Warden crumbled against her husband, silently sobbing. "This isn't fair...it's just not fair..."
Knowing that they needed a moment, Addison left the room. Rushing down the hallway, she suddenly felt a hand on her shoulder.
"You're not okay."Alex said, studying her eyes.
She shook her head. "No, you're right. Things like this happen all the time, though. You think I'd be used to it by now."
"But you're not. Nothin's wrong with that."Alex insisted. "Why don't you go grab a cup of...JuJu...coffee...whatever. I'll take care of the rest of everything."
"Karev, you really don't have to-"
"No...I don't have to. But I want to. You trust me, right?"
Looking into Alex's eyes, she felt relieved to know that there was someone there, willing to take on the job. "Would you? And thanks, Karev...I'll be back."
Alex stood in the hallway finding himself being able to do nothing else but watch her walk away.
Addison wearily made her way to the cafeteria with nothing but the case on her mind. Her feet felt heavy, as did her eyes. She knew that something like losing a patient-a baby at that would always be hard, but she was feeling unusually tired. She felt sick and she had no idea why. Deciding to grab an orange juice instead, she lazily sat down at a table.
It wasn't long before someone approached her. "Are you okay?"Meredith asked, sitting down. The two weren't entirely friends or anything of that nature, but over the past months, they had been able to forge a civil relationship. Meredith had come down for a late lunch, but when she saw Addison, she had a feeling that she should stay.
"A baby died today...because of me."Addison said, her head in her hands.
"I'm sure it wasn't your fault."
"No. It wasn't my fault. But I know that the parents think it is. So Grey, how's your...day?"
Meredith offered a smile, shrugging. "I've had worse. Here-"She said, pushing an unwrapped sandwich her way. "I was planning on saving it for later, but you look like you could use something to eat."
Smiling, Addison nodded. "I haven't had anything to eat all day. Thank You, Doctor Grey."
Meredith's pager went off, and she stood up. "I have to go. I'll see you around."
A week had passed, and things slowly began to return to normal. Mrs.Warden had left the hospital, and with her, the thoughts of losing the baby. Addison was standing at the nurses' station when Alex approached her. "Hey...I just put in the labs for the patient in 2023. Looks like it'll take a while, the lab's backed up."
"Figures."Addison muttered, staring down at the paper before her.
"What's that?"Alex asked, pointing to the paper she had.
"Release forms for Ms.Cramer...the woman with the twins from a two days ago."Addison said, dabbling with her pen.
"Well, if you don't think she's ready to go home, don't release her."
"It's not that. It's-"
"Excuse me...Doctor Montgomery..."A voice came from behind them.
Addison turned around to see a nervous looking Mr.Warden. "Mr.Warden...is there something I can help you with?"
"It's my wife. She...she hasn't been the same. She never says anything. She just-"He stopped, his eyes misting over. "Lies in bed saying how horrible her life is ever since she lost the baby."
Exchanging a puzzled look with Alex, she decided to answer him. "I'm sorry, sir. If you need to schedule a psych. consult, I can point you in the right direction."
"No."Mr.Warden said, pulling out a gun. His hands shakily moved towards Addison. "A psychologist can't help my wife. What would help her would be if she could have Jonathan back...but he's gone so-"
Alex moved foward. "Dude, the baby's gone. I get the fact that she's upset. But pulling a gun on Addis...on Doctor Montgomery won't help anything."
"We have bills now...stacked up. Because Julia came in here to have her baby. But instead, her baby died. And yet, we still...have...the bills."
"Okay. Just calm down. We'll talk about this."Addison insisted, seeing that people were beginning to watch. Suddenly, she felt sick, her world spinning and, to her surprise, she felt Alex's arm wrap around her. "I'm fine. I just need to sit down. I need to...help Mr.Warden." After that, everything went black.