Chapter 40
-here is the last one...i wanted to give you both at the same time because i didnt want to leave you hanging so to speak...so thanks again to everyone...and i hope you like the ending...i know its sad but...
Say goodnight not good-bye
You will never leave my heart behind
Like the path of a star
I'll be anywhere you are
-a few days later-
Lucas sat on his bed, not wanting to move. He didn't want to do what he had to do next.
"Peyton I have some bad news" Lucas cried into the phone
"What is it? What's wrong"
"Brooke's…..Brooke's gone" he cried
"what? No, you're lying. Luke I just saw her a few hours ago and she looked fine."
"I'm so sorry Peyton. She didn't want to go. Believe me" he began to cry harder
"this cant be happening" she began to cry. How could this have happened. Brooke Davis was so strong, and now, now she was gone. He then had to call Haley and tell her. He didn't want to have the responsibility of telling everyone. It was just too hard. Haley had cried so hard, and him along with her. How could their friend just leave them like that. It just wasn't fair. The following day, Lucas blamed himself. He felt like it was his fault, that he couldn't save her, just this one time.
"Hey sweetheart" Karen said as she stood in the doorway to his room "are you ready to go" she asked quietly
"am I ready to go? How the fuck could I be ready to go to Brooke's funeral." he cried
"I know honey" she said walking over to him and trying to comfort him
"this isn't fair mom. She was always the strong one. She should be here, right now, sitting here with me, talking about our futures. We were suppose to grow old together. And now, she's gone. How could she just leave me" he cried into his mother. He never felt so weak in his life.
"I know honey. This sucks and it isn't fair."
"How did you get through it mom. Get through the pain of losing the love of your life"
"I don't think you ever do Luke. You always want that person with you, I guess you just have to move on. Brooke would have wanted it that way. She wouldn't have wanted you to mourn over her. You know that"
"I know, but guess what, she's not here to stop me now is she?" he cried. The two sat there on the bed, crying.
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In the spark that lies beneath the coals
In the secret place inside your soul
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight not good-bye
"I cant do this" Peyton cried as she looked in the mirror. She was wearing a black dress. "I cant go and burry Brooke. This isn't right." she cried
"I know babe" Jake came in and put his arms around her to comfort her.
"This isn't happening right now. Brooke should still be here. How am I suppose to go on living. How am I suppose to go on without her" she cried into Jake. "she helped me through everything, why couldn't I have helped her? Why Jake?"
"Life's not fair Peyton. This sucks. But we have to move on" he hugged her. "its gonna be so hard, but you know she wouldn't have wanted you to be like this"
"Brooke was always stubborn. She never wanted people to see her weaknesses. Damn it, why wouldn't she just let us in. Maybe then we could have helped her."
"Peyton there was nothing you could have done. Shit happens. And I'm so sorry this happened" she cried into him, allowing him to hold her as hard as he could.
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Don't you fear when you dream
Waking up is never what it seems
Like a jewel buried deep
Like a promise meant to keep
"Haley" Nathan sighed into the bathroom door. She had been in there for an hour. "are you okay"
"I'm fine" she barked back
"Haley, let me in" he asked. He could hear the door knob move and the door slowly opened. Haley was sitting on the toilet, staring at a picture.
"Brooke had taken this when we first moved in here. She said we needed to remember this day because although we were both hurting, things would get better. How come things didn't get better Nate. How come Brooke isn't here to take more pictures and make us laugh." she cupped her face in her hands and cried, dropping the picture of her and Brooke to the floor. Nathan walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her.
"Haley, its going to be ok"
"No its not Nate. Brooke's gone. The one person who let me yell at her for stupid things and never wanted an apology. How am I suppose to just move on Nate. Why didn't she get the chemo earlier. Why didn't she just let us help her. Why did she have to be so damn stubborn" she cried
"Because its Brooke Davis. She never wanted anyone to see her weaknesses, that was just how she was. Don't get mad at her for that Hales"
"I'm not mad at her, I just….I just want her here." she cried
"I know" he said, cradling his wife in his arms
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"we are gathered here today to join these two lovely people in holy matrimony. Lucas Scott and Brooke Davis have come to present their love for each other in front of all of us." the preacher went on with the ceremony. Brooke looked over at her two brides-maids, Peyton and Haley, and smiled. "Lucas Scott, will you take this lovely bride to be your wife, to love and to hold, in sickness and health, forever as long as you both shall live?"
"I do" he said, sliding the ring onto her finger
"And Brooke Davis, do you take this man, to be your loving husband, to have and to hold, in sickness and health, forever as long as you both shall live.?"
"I do" she smiled sliding the ring onto his finger.
"If you have any reason for these two not to get married, speak now or forever hold your peace." after a moment of silence "by the power vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife. You may now kiss the bride." Lucas turned to Brooke, smiled, and leaned in to kiss her. As his lips touched hers, his body shook and he woke up.
"Damn it" he said
"What's the matter" his mom asked. They were on their way to the cemetery.
"I had a bad dream" he replied before turning his head to look out the window. This all had to be a bad dream, he though. It just had to.
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You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
I'll be right by your side
Say goodnight not good-bye
They arrived shortly to the graveyard, walking slowly to the site. After a few minutes, other people began to gather. Haley, Peyton, Jake, and Nathan, all giving Lucas a hug as they arrived. The preacher arrived and the ceremony began. After a while, he asked if anyone would like to speak. Everyone looked at Lucas, who didn't budge. Soon, Peyton walked up.
"Ok, so I'm not really good at this" she began, tears already rolling down her face. "Because, between our friendship, Brooke was always the one with words. She always knew how to comfort me when I lost my mothers, or when my dad would leave for a while. She was always the strong one" she paused, trying to collect herself before moving on. "Just a few days ago I was holding her in my arms, talking to her about Paris and our past memories. And today," she paused "she's gone. I will always remember her as the strong and stubborn Brooke Davis, always and forever, she has left a place in my heart. Brooke Davis, I love you, with all my heart. There will never be anyone like you" she stated before walking back to her spot. Jake gave her a hug. She looked over to Haley who was bawling. She walked over there and gave her a hug as well. The two were so busy hugging each other that they didn't notice that Lucas had begun to walk up.
"Brooke Davis had the biggest heart I had ever seen. She very rarely allowed other people to see it, but I knew it was there. She always had an opinion for everything, even if she didn't know the topic all that well. She was my heart and soul, and I will never forget that." he paused, tears trickling down his face "People keep telling me that its gonna be okay, and that things will get better. But, sometimes, I really don't believe that. How do you get over the loss of the one you love. You don't. Brooke was definitely the strong one, everyone knew that. Sometimes she thought she was too strong. More than anything, she wanted people to save her, and…..I couldn't" he began crying. Haley and Peyton were bawling. "I couldn't save her, and everyday I must live with that. Brooke Davis had the brightest and warmest smile I had ever seen, and now no one else will be able to see it. I loved her with all my heart, and I always will." he said before returning to his place.
The preacher continued. When it was time, Lucas, Karen, Haley, Nathan, Peyton, and Jake threw roses onto the new dirt grave. Their dearest friend, had been burried. Now where would they go? Could they keep on living without her?
You are everything you want to be
So just let your heart reach out to me
Keep my light in your eyes
Say goodnight not good-bye
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I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
-3 months later-
Haley and Nathan have moved to Duke University, where they're both taking classes to further their education. Nathan is playing basketball, and the two are expecting their first child in 7 months. Both Nathan and Haley are hoping for a girl.
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
Peyton and Jake have moved to New York City. At first, Peyton didn't want to go anymore. She wanted to stay in Tree Hill, with what was left of her friend. Jake had tried to point out that that wasn't right, that Brooke would have wanted her to move on, and get out of Tree Hill. Jake continues to take classes at NYC while Peyton has started creating her own art studio. They live together, with Jenny, in an apartment overlooking Time Square. Over their fireplace, a picture of the brunette beauty sits on the mantle, lighting up the entire room, watching over them forever.
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
It took Lucas the longest to move on. He didn't know if he ever could, but was finally starting to get out of the house after a while. He visited her grave everyday, sometimes even twice a day. One day, his mom brought him a package that had arrived in the mail. He opened it to find the tickets to Paris her purchased a while ago. It had caused him to cry. After a little thinking, he decided to leave Tree Hill………….As he stared up at the Eiffel Tower, only one thing came to his mind. Not the beauty of the wonderful city. Not the breath-taking monuments around him. But Brooke's big smile faded across his face. This is where she wanted to be, and he promised he would take her here some day. He held the engagement ring in his hands as he looked up at the towering monument. Once he reached the top, he stared out at the beautiful view around him.
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
"I promised you Paris baby, and here it is" he said, laying the ring on the ledge. "Someday, Brooke Penelope Davis, someday, I will see you again. Until then, enjoy the city you love and remember baby, I will always love you." He stared at the view one last time, kissed the ring, and the descended the steps, to begin his new life.
But I will remember you I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose And I will remember you And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories