Why?

Disclaimer: I dont own the characters. I'm just borrowing them for a time.

Why?

A simple question with so many answers.

Why was…?

Why was this…?

Why was this love…?

Why was this love so…?

Why was this love so forbidden?

A full question with full answers.

Why wasn't I allowed to love the man who owned my heart and soul?

Why was it wrong?

Why am I a queer for loving a man who loved me back with more than I deserved?

Why did I always say no to his propositions?

Why didn't I ever give everything I had just like Jack had?

Why do I have to live with so many regrets?

"Because you're a coward, Ennis. Because you didn't deserve him, Ennis. Because you're a monster, Ennis." The voice of his father ringing in his head, saying the things that the world thought.

Why is he dead and why and I still here without him?

Why?

A hard question with an even harder answer, but I have a better question.

How do I live without him?