Second Chances
4th Chapter of Dark Fiction. Gravitation is not mine, characters are only borrowed for this fiction.
Yuki woke up in a hospital. He didn't remember what happened, he doesn't care anymore, ever since Shuichi died, he stopped living. He was sitting there, thinking it could never be, that he would not see Shuichi anymore, that he would not hear anyone call his name with so much love in them anymore.
Hiro walked in with the bag of groceries, "Oh, good, you're up." He said, putting down his helmet by the chair and put down his load by the bed side table.
"What are you doing here?" Yuki asked.
"Don't flatter yourself, Yuki san. Tohma asked me to bring you food because he's got a meeting he can't postpone." Hiro replied, preparing the older man something to eat.
He handed him some noodles, "Next time if you're gonna kill yourself, do it good, Yuki, you don't deserve him." Hiro said, with anger.
Yuki looked at him, he almost dropped the cup he was holding, Hiro grabbed for it before the older man spill it.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, you don't deserve that. You're not to be blame for his death, Yuki. He was murdered, you didn't kill him, so stop blaming yourself for his death." Hiro said, trying to hold back his angry tears.
Hiro knew that Yuki would have killed Taki if he found out where that murderer was hiding, him and Yuki both. But they can't all accept why does Taki have to torture Shuichi before killing him, raping him again wasn't enough, sending Yuki the video tape how Shuichi beg to spare Yuki from the humiliation and public scandal, and how he tortured the boy, begging him not to touch his lover, that Taki can do anything he wants to him but not touch Yuki, enraged and insane, Taki went too far and killed Shuichi in his blinded and twisted jealousy.
"I love you, Yuki." Those were Shuichi's last words before he died, that's the last scene on the video before Taki kicked the screen. And Yuki was never the same since that day, he attempted to kill himself countless of times, guilty probably from not showing the boy how much he loves him before he died. But Hiro didn't know it goes way deeper than that.
Yuki began to cry, "I'm sorry Yuki, I'm so sorry." Hiro whispered, holding the older man's hand. Yuki cried harder, as if his pain was bottomless and cannot be consoled.
"I would rather have one breathe of his hair, one kiss of his lips, one touch of his hand than an eternity without it. One, Hiro, just one. If I could have a second chance, I would give up my own life to have him back." Yuki cried, looking at Hiro, not ashamed of his tears anymore, Hiro was looking at a broken man, this is no longer the Yuki that they knew.
Hiro pat him at the back, "He's living Yuki. Not just the way you think. Go on with your life, don't let Shuichi's death be meaningless." Hiro said. "Taki's time will come, we cursed him to hell and back, he would lived with his conscience until he dies or until we find him and kill him."
"I will tear him to pieces." Yuki whispered. "Save some for me, okay?" Hiro said, with a sarcastic smile.
Hiro grabbed his helmet, "Okay, am off. I hope to see you tomorrow, try not to kill yourself again, Yuki." He said, and with a wave he was out the door.
Yuki sat there, pulled his laptop closer, and touched that familiar sticker on his keyboard.
He added another picture, Shuichi's. Touching it fondly, with tears in his eyes, he wrote a letter to Shuichi again. The boy might not be there to read it, but he knew he will get to read it somehow, wherever he is.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I could taste is this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's mad to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
The World Never Saw Me,
Only You Know Who I Am...
When he finished typing, he also stopped crying, he felt a sharp pain in his chest, constricting his breathing, is this how it feels to die? He asked himself, take me with you, Shuichi. He said, closing his eyes clutching his chest.
Yuki felt hands, enveloping him, he can smell that familiar flavor, strawberry as he felt hair on his face, "Yuki, let it go. It's alright. It's time to go. I've been waiting for you, Yuki. Let it go." He heard, Shuichi's voice in his head, he didn't want to open his eyes, he was afraid, Shuichi will go if he did, so he held on to that familiar person who was holding him, feeling that familiar skin, that familiar scent, hearing that familiar voice.
"Shuichi, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Yuki cried.
"Shh….it's alright now, Yuki, it's alright. Let it go, let me go. It's alright to die now." Shuichi said, he felt the boy kissing him, kissing his face. Yuki cried, and gave back the kisses given to him.
"Shuichi, I love you, I love you Shuichi. I just want you to know that. I want you to know how I feel. I want my second chance, I can't live without you." Yuki cried/
"Then take my hand, Yuki han, it's time for us to go. I've been waiting for you, I don't want to go without you." Shuichi said, getting up, releasing his hold on his lover.
Yuki grabbed for him, "No, no! Don't leave me again, I can't live without you! Shuichi! I love you!" Yuki cried, so afraid now to open his eyes.
Yuki felt himself being lifted, "I'm here, Yuki. I'm not leaving without you, open your eyes, my love. I'm here, you're here with me." Shuichi said. Yuki cried, cried so hard, if he was dreaming this he didn't want to wake up, it felt so real, he was so afraid to open his eyes, he didn't want to lose his brat again.
There was a beeping sound from the distance, "Code blue! Code blue! Stat!" the overheard speaker squawked, he felt himself being lifted by numerous hands, he felt millions of bolts of electricity hammering through his body, "We're losing him!" Again!" He was pumped with electricity again for the nth time and then, nothing.
When Yuki opened his eyes, he was back at the hospital, there was no sound, he was watching the nurses and doctors trying to revive someone. He looked closely, he saw his laptop by the wall, it was him on that bed, so he died after all, he said to himself, he felt his presence before he looked at him, he bowed his head, crying, he couldn't believe it, he is here, he couldn't believe that he could be with that boy again, that he could say what he meant to say the last time they saw each other.
"Yuki." Shuichi called to him, tugging at his shirt. "S-Shuichi…I love you." Yuki cried, and turned around and hugged the boy so hard. Shuichi laughed. "I love you, too, Yuki. Let's go home." Shuichi said, kissing his lover with the most passionate kiss they have ever shared.
Owari
(Thank you for the band, Goo goo Dolls , for letting me borrow their song for this fiction. Hope you guys liked it. Finally gave it a good ending. So don't kill me now, okay? Hehehe.)