Chapter One
I have dreams... of my first real friend being persecuted on a cross.
I have dreams.. Of being chased by demons.
I have fears... that this friend could die..
I see... Ryuzaki.. Laying in my arms and asking me to help him with only his eyes.
Is he evil? How can someone have the name Light... and be darkness? I fear.
I wish these handcuffs could bind us forever, in an endless circle, so I could stop fearing.
I wish these handcuffs could bind us forever, in an endless circle, so I could stop fearing.
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My feet ran along the ground. Puddles splashed as I ran through them. The land was desolate and the water was hot. My feet burned as I ran through the puddles. I tried to shut my eyes but it made no difference. Where was I?!
"R... Ryuzaki!" I cried out around me. The chain around my wrist was mine alone and I was no longer connected with him. Something caught my foot and I fell into the water all around me.
How it burned. Like needles. Like I was burning alive.
I screamed.
"Holy water." "Murderer." "Killer." "Hero." "Villain."
I forced myself up, hurt and unstable. I continued on, not able to run as fast as before. What was chasing me? I just wanted to leave this place.
"W-where?" I huffed out, my legs starting to slow down. "Where am I?" I finally couldn't take the pain anymore and I collapsed to me knees. I punched the ground, the only dry place around.
"Dammit!" I screamed, my eyes beginning to tear. I could hear the soft laughter of beings in the dark. They hid from me and laughed at me. They put me in this hell.
"Kira!" Voices cheered, chanted. Lights came to life and shown down at a man right in front of me. He stood on the water, not sinking in it like I had. He gave off a light so bright it hurt to look.
"W-who are you?" I asked, shielding my eyes. The light became dim and I gasped. He wore all white but the look on his features was completely dark.
"My name is Kira."
"No!" I scrambled back away from him. Fear gripped at me and I didn't notice that all the water had vanished.
"I am... Kira." he smirked and began to walk towards me. I couldn't get away!
"It's not true!" I screamed, closing my eyes and wishing it to leave me alone. "No!"
"Light-kun...Light-kun!" A comforting voice called me. It's tone wasn't comforting but when I heard it I felt warmer.
"I-I'm not.." I tried to explain.
"Light-kun, wake up.. Please."
My eyes sprang open and I found myself in my bed at Ryuzaki's home. My racing heart and heavy breathing must have worried L because he was leaning over me, hands on my shoulders. He stared at me quizzically.
"You were having a nightmare." he stated bluntly.
"R-Ryuzaki.." I let out a long breath and held my head, leaning into my pillow. "I-I'm..."
He stood there in that hunched over position I had come to know and like, waiting for the end of the sentence.
"I-I'm.." I took a deep breath. I couldn't say it. I'm not Kira! But.. I was scared now. Scared of myself. That dream tormented me, always slightly different. This was the first time I'd seen 'Kira'. "I'll... survive." I breathed out.
"Hm. I hope so." Ryuzaki sat back on his own bed and wrapped his arms around his legs. He was probably watching me but I was so tired, I couldn't open my eyes to care. I turned my head to the side and found myself falling into a more peaceful sleep. He was watching over me.
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L held his legs and tiled his head to the side. Light-kun was sleeping again. He always slept. L couldn't bring himself to sleep at the same time. He hardly slept at all. This night was going to be sleepless as he couldn't define feelings in his stomach. It confused him when he couldn't understand himself.
Light had just had a nightmare but now.. He seemed peaceful, much like he was most nights. L raised a hand to his own forehead and then walked over to Light's bed and felt his. It was hot, but cooling down. It was probably due to the nightmare.
'R-Ryuzaki!'
L snapped his hand back and crouched on the floor by Light's bed. Light had called out his name in his sleep.
'I-I'm not..! No!'
Thinking psychologically, Ryuzaki was usually very good at figuring people out. However, people hardly actually spoke about what they were dreaming. But nothing in L's life was normal.
Was Light-kun dreaming of him? No.. Searching for him. He'd sounded panicked, desperate. He sure hoped Light wasn't dreaming specifically about him. Nightmares were bad omens.
L could hear Light's breathing and feel the bed move a bit whenever he breathed. He hugged his legs a bit, as though unsure or frightened.
"Light..." he muttered, but wasn't sure why.
Onee-chan 1: I promise... more things happen in the other chapters.