Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Kindgom Hearts. .
a/n: Okay, this is a story about Sora's feelings towards Kairi. It takes place after KH II, and he's wondering if he even has feelings for her. Or if she truely has feelings for him. What does Riku have to do with it? What were the wierd feelings that Sora gets whenever he talked to or thought about Roxas? Happy Readings.
Sora's POV:
Dim light was drifting in through the tiny sliver of a gap in the curtains. In Hollow Bastion (Radiant Garden, whatever you wanted to call it) the days were always bleak. The nights always pitch black, only being able to see two feet in front of you. The clouds seeming to have drifted far away, so you could see the stars for a few hours before bed. Then as soon as you could feel the dawn approching, they would jump back to their usual posts, like soldiers as their commanding officer arrives. Today however, there must have been a few stragglers. More light than usuall was drifting in, and I could see the faint tint of the sunrise emminating with an angelic glow towards my sleepy eyes.
Turn off that DAMN light! I'm trying to sleep! Roxas growled angrily from a corner of my mind. I smiled as I heard him say this, rubbing my eyes slightly and stretching them above my head.
I pushed the covers off of my slim figure and felt cool morning air caress my bare skin, little goose bumps erupting everywhere. I slipped my sleep dead feet delicately to the floor and opened my eyes fully. I sighed as I looked around my room. I had moved to Hollow Bastion out of lonlieness. Destiny Islands just wern't the same without everyone else. Plus, it turns out that my mother had moved away since she thought that I was never going to come back. Two years alone must have taken a toll on her. I wish I could tell her I was sorry, but I can't. I have no idea where she might have gone. So now I guess I am an orphan. My family being all of the friends that I had made during my adventures. I now live with Merlin on the second floor of his house. In a corner room.
I sighed once more looking across the room and scanning everything in it. It was clean, a little messy, but that was just my style. The desk had papers strewn over it, some dirty clothes lay over the sofa in the other corner of my room, my bookshelf held not only books, but old plates and glasses, memento's and other memerobelia. I ran my hand through my touseled hair seeming to mess it up even more. Slowly I stood up and stretched again, looking over at the clock and seeing that it was actually quite early. 5:46 actually. The sunrise must just be starting. I padded over to the window, feeling the cold wood against my bare feet. When I reached the window I flung it open. Pidgeons immediatly took flight in surprise. I smiled as the light wind blew gently across my face, and I saw the sunrise just begining over the tops of the buildings.
The pinks, oranges, purples, and all the other colors dancing across the small patch of sky that had decided to stay cloud-free. Entranced I watched the whole thing. Overture, performance, and finaly. Just as the last stray colors began to dissapear clouds came and turned this gloomy town back to it's normal state. I turned back to the clock and saw that it was 6:17. I felt my stomach give an almighty growl, and I patted it. I know. Let's go get some food.
I grabbed a navy blue hoody and threw it on, zipping it up over my white t-shirt. I grabbed a pair of loose grey sweat-pants and threw those on over my light blue boxers. Good to go now!
Sora! I'm starving! Roxas whined, having woken up along with me.
"Okay I'm going!" I said oppening the door to my room without a sound. I tiptoed slowly down the stairs, avoiding the spots that I memorized were squeeky, and went into the kitchen.
What do we want today then? Roxas asked using my eyes to scan the kitchen.
"Why not have just a bowl of cereal? I'm not really in the mood to cook anything fancy." I said hopefully, slowly edging my way to the pantry where the non-perishable food was stored.
That sounds pretty good actually. By the way, that sunrise was something huh? Roxas said sighing, sounding like he was in some far off haven of his own mind.
"No kidding." I replied, also thinking back to that spectacular not-happening-every-day-in-Hollow-Bastion momment. It was rather romantic. Just as I thought that, I felt a blush creep onto my face and I don't know why. Not wanting Roxas to notice anthing I grabbed a box of plain grain cereal, a bowl, and a spoon and chowed down. About twenty minutes later Yuffie came stumbling down the stairs to join me. She was definitly not a morning person, you could tell that plain as day. Her hair looked like mine did normally, and her eyes were struggling with just barely staying open. Her legs could barely hold herself up, and her feet dragged one by one across the floor to let her slump into a chair.
"Morning." I said softly, so as not to irritate her. She didn't have the best temper either.
"Murnin'." she mumbled incoherently, "Wrt time you git up at?"
"5:46." I said bluntly.
"Ughhh!" she groaned and let her head fall on top of her folded arms.
"How you do it Sora!" she said, her voice muffled.
I shruged saying, "I don't know. I guess I just do."
She groaned again as another someone came trudging down the stairs. Leon. He was just like Yuffie, tired, angry, definitly not a morning person. Same with Merlin. He wasn't exactly an early riser either. I think that it was only Aerith and me that got up early. She was out of town however. Leaving me to be alone with three grumpy people with either deadly weapons that could kill me in a second, or magical powers that could probably turn me into a pile of shit as soon as I opened my mouth.
Leon joined us, mimiking Yuffie and looking like he was ready to pass out right there on the counter. But, Merlin wasn't like how he usually was in the mornings. He leapt down the stairs and started yelling at the top of his voice (to the protests of Yuffie and Leon), "I'VE DONE IT! I'VE FINALLY DONE IT!"
I had risen to my feet and had cautiously made my way over to him. I asked, "What Merlin? What is it?"
He saw me standing there and got the biggest grin I had ever seen. He gabbed me and nearly shook me out of my pants, "My boy! I finally found a way to separate Roxas from you!"
"WHAT?" everyone asked shocked, including Roxas.
"Yes! Isn't it wonderful? Ever since you found out that Roxas was inside of you, I've been trying to find a way for both of you to become your own separate selves. AND," Merlin said holding up a finger, "you will both be human. Roxas won't be a nobody anymore! Ha! I AM a genious!"
I was in complete and total shock. Roxas must have been too because he didn't say anything. And then I heard his shaky voice. It was so soft that I almost didn't hear what he said. Y-you mean...I'll have a heart? It nearly broke mine in two to hear that.
"I guess so." I whispered back, looking over at Merlin and Yuffie dancing around. "You can finally have a life of your own. A real one."
Silence again. And then, YAAAAAHHOOOOO!
"Jesus, Roxas! You're going to give me a headache." I giggled, rubbing at my temples slightly, trying to get the ringing out of my head.
I'm sorry Sora, It's just that I'm so...excited. I can finally know what it's like to be sad, or happy, or angry, or...in love. He said growing quiet when he said those last few words. I got a little uncomfortable too, and I felt that blush start to creep up again. Why am I doing that?
Just then Merlin popped up beside me and said, "So when do you want to get started?"
"Ugh..." I began, not quite sure what would happen in the first place. "Well, what exactally are you going to do to me anyways?"
"Oh! Well, it's a little difficult to explain, but the short version is that I'll use my wand, magic words, a funky heart tranfiggerizer, and whala! You have Roxas!" he said still bouncing on the balls of his feet and grinning.
"That's it?" I asked confused.
"Well...no. You're probably going to be out for a while after the procedure, and you might be in some pain afterwords." Merlin said shrugging slightly, "But there is something I have to tell you about what Roxas will be."
I nodded, showing him that I had his attention still, "You two will be connected in a way. He will have parts of you within him, keeping him alive. And you will have parts of him, keeping you alive. Do you get it?"
I thought about it for a momment. So, it would be like we are each others life supports. What happens if something happens to the other? And I voiced this question to Merlin.
"I was just about to say that. If one of you dies then the other will have to get a new life to support them. Otherwise, they too shall die shortly after. Since that chunk is missing, something has to fill it back up again."
"I see." I said quietly. I stuck around to party and chat a while longer with the guys, but soon I excused myself. Telling them that I was going to go out for a while.
"Come back soon and give us a date and time SO-RA!" Yuffie yelled from atop the table out after me as I exited through the front door.
I wandered through the streets with my hands in the pockets of my jacket, slowly heading to my favorite spot to think. I trudged along, through the Great Maw, to the Crystal Cavern, and to the spot where I had fought Sephiroth. There I sat, letting my legs dangle off the overhang. Off in the distance, the great castle loomed. It's heart slightly starting to peel off, the walls crumbling. Parts of the vast structure had already collapsed into itself, leaving remnants of loose stone standing all by their lonesome. This was because of angry civilians blasting and hacking all on their own. It was kindof sad. I mean, that was a symbol of all the adventures that I had. I'm fifteen and a half now. My birthday will be comming up soon. March 28 (If you don't know that date, it's when KH2 was released in Japan). I'm not excited for some reason, maybe it's because none of them have been very special. My b-day during my first adventure had already been celebrated on the island. And it was like it always had been, cake, singing, inviting all of my friends over, so on. My fifteenth birthday I completely forgot about. I had woken up the day of said day, and I was so intent on finding out what happened, that I spaced.
Sighing I looked down at the ground thousands of feet below me. It was so peacefull down there. I mean, nothing was moving, it was calm. I smiled as I pulled a small rock out of my pocket that I had picked up on the way. I held it out in my hand, facing down. I opened my hand slightly and watched as the poor pebble tried to hang on, but only after a few seconds, it dropped. Screams from it not being heard as it flew down, down, down. Finally after thirteen seconds I heard the dull thud echoing back up to me. I smiled again as I leaned back onto my hands, swinging my feet back and forth, listening to the wind.
Hey Sora?
"Yeah Rox?"
When do you want to do the...you know?
I thought for a second before I answered him, "I think that I'd at leased like to wait for one day. I need to see Kairi and Riku before we do anything."
Yeah...I understand. Tommorow we'll visit the Island and then on wednesday we'll do the procedure. I can wait.
"Thanks Roxas."
For what?
"For being so patient. It must be hard to, considering you could be out and on your own...You really do care alot about me don't you?"
He didn't say anything for a second and I thought that I might have said something wrong. But he finally said quietly, It's nothing...and besides I can see Namine for a bit too, so that will be good.
I nodded, knowing that he could feel it, and got up. I scanned my surroundings one last time and went back to the house. Merlin and everyone else had gone out for the rest of the day to do whatever it is they do. Merlin, I bet, was preparing for the procedure. My thoughts were only confirmed when I found a note on the counter. It read:
Sora-
Merlin went to a friends place to pick up some equipment for your transfusion thingy. He was also going to go to The Land of Dragons and get some herbs from Mulan and the Emperor. So he won't be back till later. Leon went to visit some of his friends to catch up on old times and so on. And I had to answer an important call from Cid and everyone else on a lead for Cloud, so we'll be gone for a while! Have fun with the house being all to yourself!
-Yuffie
I threw the note in the trash and tudged up the stairs to my room. Once inside I closed the door softly and picked up the phone. I dialed in the chosen number and listened to the ringing.
Four rings later a girl picked up and asked happily, "Hello?"
"Hey Kai! How's it going?" I asked shifting slightly on my chair.
She didn't answer right away, instead she screamed gleefully (I had to hold the phone away from my ear about three feet) and yelled, "OH SORA! We havn't heard from you in forever! Hold on, I'll get Riku!"
I heard her set the phone down roughly and run away screaming, "Riku! Sora's on the phone! Get your ass up here!"
I heard Roxas chuckle slightly and soon she was back a little breathless. She said breathing hard, "So, Sora...how are you?"
"Great." I replied, "I moved in pretty easily and-"
Riku cut off the conversation with a, "Sora! Oh my god dude, how've you been?"
"I was just telling Kairi that I'm fine. The moving went well. I feel more comfortable, not that the Island wasn't, it's just that-"
Kairi cut me off this time tutting and saying, "We understand already! You're more at home there, and it's good that you're happy."
I smiled saying, "Thanks. That means alot."
We continued talking for about an hour and a half, reviewing on new events who Selphie had been dating, and so on. It was just like I was on the beach with them again. Sometimes I missed the sun, the warm sand, the palm trees, and the waves crashing gently against the shore. It created a perfect atmosphere. It had a special place in my heart, but when I had returned and stayed there for only a week, I realized that something was missing. I missed Hollow Bastion, and all the other worlds. Kairi had put it into words exactally right. I am more at home here now than I would be at Destiny Islands. And I was glad that they understood.
But, I had to tell them about what we were planning over here. Kairi was talking, and when she was finnished I cleared my throat awkwardly.
"Sora? Something up?" Riku asked concernedly.
"Yeah. Well, you know how Roxas is a part of me right?" I asked feeling uncomfortable all of a sudden.
"Yeah." they said in unison.
I cleared my throat again before I continued, "Well, Merlin figured out a way to separate us. So he'll be a human, with a heart."
No one spoke. Kairi was the first to say anything, "That's great! If Roxas can hear me, Namine is practically jumping for joy!"
Really? Sora, tell Kairi to tell Namine that maybe it could work on her too. Maybe we could ask Merlin about it?
I repeated what he said over the phone, and shortly after we said our goodbyes after Kairi said that she and Namine would talk it over. After I had hung up the phone I went over to my bed and flopped down on top of it. I looked at the clock and read that it was 8:30 at night. Wow, time flies by fast nowadays. Just as I felt a wave of tiredness overcome me, I heard the doorbell ring faintly from downstairs.
"Gahhh!" I moaned as I pushed myself back up. I went down the stairs moodily and flung it open, ready to chew out the solicitor that was there to sell me some new scam. But it wasn't a sales-person.
As soon as the door had opened, a mixture of fur and feathers collided with me. I fell back and landed hard on my ass. The poor entranceway was flooded with a mass of laughing yelling friends. Goofy and Donald had slammed into me and were now smothering me with hugs.
"Guys! Guys! Guys!" I said between laughs, "Stop!"
They finally got off of me, and pulled me up with them. Donald was still jumping around and said, "Sowa! It's gweat to see you!"
"Gawrsh Sora! It's been a while!" Goofy gufawed slapping me on the back. I stumbled forwards and laughed again.
"I've missed you guys too! How's the Queen and King?"
"Thewre gweat, the King is having a long desewved bweak." Donald said crossing his arms in pride.
I smiled to myself as I led them into the livingroom to talk. After they were seated I decided that before another long conversation started that I would tell them what was to come. So I did. I told them the whole story, and just like Kairi and Riku they were too stunned to speak. And before they could I said softly stifling a yawn, "I'm going to go to bed now, I'm sorry I can't stay up later. You can stay if you want and we can hang out tommorow. Well...goodnight."
And I left. Slowly but surely I got up to my bedroom and fell onto my bed once again. Almost instantly I drifted off into a peaceful sleep, with the sound of Roxas' soft snoring in my head.
a/n: Yeah. There you have it. .