Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Marvel characters and I'm (unfortunately) making no profit of these stories what-so-ever.
A/N – I'm terribly sorry for not updating for almost a month, but it's been a really busy month for me. It still is kind of busy, but I decided to update before I start receiving death threats… The same goes for 'Truly Madly Deeply'…Anyway, I hope you're not too mad at me…hides form a bunch of furious reviewers Good reviewers, nice reviewers, I worship my reviewers for being so good and loyal…tries to calm the mob down with Leia's diplomatic skills
A/N2 – I just watched 'Cat on a hot tin roof' the other night (again, for the sixth or seventh time…I can never get tired of the Newman-Taylor pairing…) and I kind of felt sorry for not thinking about the movie earlier. I think it would be fun if the relationship between Rogue and Remy was more Brick/Maggie like. I even thought of making a kind of a crossover with X-men casting as the characters in the movie, but it would be to similar to this story soooo, maybe some other movie than…Anyway, I'm just wondering what do you think of the idea? I have some ideas for that kind of a crossover in some distant future and I'd like to hear your comments or suggestions.
And now, are you ready for the last chapter:) Warning: I'm going through a really emotional phase currently so it might get teary in the end. Tears by both genders…;D
EPILOGUE
Everything was in slow-motion for Remy from the second Storm mentioned 'Rogue', 'hospital' and 'injured' in the same sentence. Everything around him simply ceased to exist. Everything but paralyzing fear that seemed to be the only thing that still made him feel alive.
When they reached the hospital he couldn't even concentrate enough to say her name to the nurse on the reception desk. He looked at Ororo gratefully as he saw her mouth forming the name 'Anna LeBeau'. His heart almost stopped as he saw Logan's broken expression when they reached the room they were keeping her in. There was blood on his hands and clothes and Remy almost threw up from that cold heaviness at the pit of his stomach. He never saw Logan that devastated before and that scared him even more. They waited for what seemed like hours, but in fact was no more than 40 minutes. He tried hard to focus as Hank came form around the corner with a handful of papers and test results and forced himself not to yell when he simply entered Rogue's room without a word. He emerged form it a few long minutes later and finally spoke, answering all of their unasked questions. The diagnosis was rather positive. Hank held a soft smile on his face as he explained that she should recover soon and that she was awake already. Still, Remy could notice his smile fade eventually and his voice falter a bit as he made a small pause before continuing.
"However, I am afraid the baby couldn't possibly survive the inner injuries she received."
'Baby? What baby?' the world started spinning around him and suddenly he was feeling strangely dizzy.
"…And these tests I ran proved my doubts. I already said the bad news to her and I am sorry to inform you that Rogue had a miscarriage." He placed a hand on Remy's shoulder and gave him a comforting squeeze, reading the confusion in his eyes. "She did the final tests today. I believe she was planning on tell you the happy news." He added
'That's why she wan'ed t'talk t'me t'night.' He bowed his head in defeat as shame flushed over him.
"C'n I see her?" he asked hopefully, his red eyes holding a desperate expression. Hank had to think about it for a second. Rogue asked to leave her alone for a while. Still, the look of sorrow and utter desperation in the young Cajun's eyes almost broke the kind doctor's heart.
'They need each other now.' He thought as he spoke in a gentle tone. "Of course, Remy."
He entered the room quietly, the frantic beating of his heart muffling his hearing, the slow beating of the heart monitor distracting him so much, he didn't even notice the little things he normally did like the slight shifting of her shoulders as she tried to roll on to her side unnoticeably and her futile attempts to slow her breathing to give away the impression of being asleep. He approached her bed slowly and lowered himself next to her, his fingers brushing over the curls fallen over the pillow.
"Why didn' y'tell me?" he whispered as a single tear rolled down his cheek. This time he heard a hitched sob which assured him that she was still awake. He withdrew his hand shyly, a rampaging feeling of guilt eating him up from the inside. When they got married he swore to love and protect her for eternity. But he wasn't there to protect her today. Standing up, he slowly paced over the room leaning on a window frame, his eyes staring somewhere in the distance, trying to stop the signs of weakness gliding down his face. Still, with the corner of his eye he caught her shifting in the bed again and propping herself up on the elbows and wincing slightly as she tried to sit up. His heart wrenched as he took notice of the cuts on her still gorgeous face and the pain she held in her stunning eyes.
She was surprised when he entered the room and her heart started beating so fast when he got close to her. She realized it was no point of pretending to sleep. Not in front of him. So she took a deep breath and slowly, but surely turned to face him. However, he backed away and when she finally settled herself into a half-seating position, she could see him standing next to the window, not even looking at her. She didn't know what exactly to do so she just answered his previously whispered question.
"Ah wan'ed to. Tonight." she said, her throat suddenly feeling extremely dry.
Remy still stared through the window. Some strange mist has fallen on the town and it hugged the building tops making it impossible to see more than a few meters in the distance.
" 'M sorry. I …dunno how'm I s'pposed t'feel… by losin' s'methin' I didn' even know 'bout." He admitted not knowing how to say it in any other way. He was aware it sounded cruel, but he didn't know how to act. He focused his gaze on the dim shimmer of the street lamps that would occasionally blink somewhere down there giving the fog a somewhat golden shine.
She bowed her head, his words burning new scars in her heart. She felt so connected to that little creature growing inside of her even though she wasn't aware of its presence until that afternoon two weeks ago. Still, she couldn't blame him for feeling so confused. But the realization didn't make it hurt any less.
"Ah dunno either." She whispered.
His eyes watered again but he didn't say anything. All those things he wanted to say to her, all the feelings he wanted to express, it all simply vanished. He felt totally numb. He felt like a part of him died, like his life was never going to be the same ever again, like he would never be able to retrieve that happiness he wanted so bad with her.
"How did we end up this way?" her question was more silent than a whisper and it caught him completely off guard. That was exactly the same question he wanted to ask her. This meant he had no answer to it. He just shook his head and looked down, his fist clenching around the dark wood of the window frame.
Rogue turned her gaze towards a light-blue painted wall and focused on counting the small bubbles of air that got caught under the paint. And the words just came to her. She didn't think about what was she saying. It seemed like her mouth were moved by their own will.
"Ah alwahs wan'ed ta have a happy life."
Remy lifted his head a bit, but he still didn't say anything. He turned his head a bit and caught a glimpse of her sitting up in the bed, her head resting on the wall beside her.
"When Ah was little, evah since mah mother died an' mah life was getting' worse by the day Ah still hoped Ah'll have mah happily evah after someday. Ah survived all the beatin' and insults an' humiliation because of that dream. Ah would simply close mah eyes an' go away into mah own world in mah mind where Ah was safe. That's how Ah dealt with havin' an abusive father an' a psycho aunt an' with bein' picked on by the popular gals in school just because Ah didn't have nice clothes. Ah nevah fitted in. Ah was the weird gal who didn't like the popular music an' who watched old movies an' read books instead of skippin' classes an' chasin' boys" She stopped and breathed in deeply.
Remy bowed his head again. He knew she had a difficult childhood, but she never talked about it to anyone. He hated to see her so defeated. She continued soon and he couldn't help but notice a certain dejection in her quivering voice. He leaned his forehead on the cool glass in front of him and closed his eyes allowing her voice to fill his mind.
"But than mah powers manifested an' Ah wasn't safe in mah dream world anymoah. Ah had other people in mah head now an' Ah could nevah run away from reality again. So Ah ran from home because that's what Ah do. When things get tough, when things get to emotional foh me ta handle, Ah run, Ah push people away, Ah hide somewhere. Ah built up this attitude around me ta keep the impression of bein' strong, but Ah'm not strong. Ah nevah was. Still Ah couldn't fool you, Ah couldn't push you away. You alwahs seemed to stick around no matter how hard Ah tried. An' Ah finally dared ta dream again." She stopped talking again because the pain was simply too much for her to handle. Tears were starting to spill out of her eyes and for once she didn't try to stop them. She never felt this hollow. She felt like she lost that last piece of dream she wanted so bad to hold on to. She was completely mentally shattered. Strangely, all the voices in her head were quiet for a change as if they agreed on giving her a break.
"Ah… It was perfect." She breathed. Remy opened his eyes and gazed outside once again, not sure were those tears stinging his eyes or was it just the sudden flash of light violating his sensitive sight.
"In mah mind, in mah dreams, mah future was perfect. We run away from everything, in mah dream. From our pasts, form all the villains, the missions, the team, somewhere where no one knows us. Somewhere far away. An' there we get a beautiful lil' cottage on the hill. With a small garden that Ah take care of jus' like Storm taught me to. An' we alwahs have fresh flowers in every room. Ah nevah let them go all dry before replacin' them with new ones. We decorated the house together. You picked out all the paintings 'cause you love art so much. An' we also have a huge library with all of mah favorite books. An' every Friday night we pick out a movie ta watch together. An' we nevah forget ta leave the back door open so our dog can come in whenevah he wants." She took in a shuddering breath and closed her eyes. "An' we nevah fight 'cause the dog gets upset when someone yells. An' …" Her voice faded away. She couldn't speak anymore. Her throat tightened and she couldn't make another sound, still she tried effortlessly to finish her thought, to finally get everything off her chest.
She squeezed her eyes shut until it almost started to hurt. She opened her mouth in her last effort to continue when she felt strong hands pulling her close.
He was next to her in a few long strides. He simply couldn't allow her to torture herself anymore. He was still out of words, but when he ripped his eyes from that window and looked at her shuddering form crumbled on the bed, he knew one thing for sure. He didn't want it to end. No matter how painful and rocky their relationship was, he didn't want to end it. Even though his hopes on turning everything back to how it was were crushed the minute Hank told him about the child she lost, he didn't want to spend the rest of his life without her. So he finally came to his senses and rushed across the room pulling her into a firm embrace.
Her frail body shook from violent sobs as she gripped the collar of his shirt. He held on to her as if he never wanted to let go again, squeezed her so hard it almost ached. Tears spilled soundlessly out of his eyes as he buried his face in her hair.
"Ah cain't go on Remy." She whispered. "Ah thought the baby was gunna make things as they were, but now…"
"Non… non, chere." He whispered, his hands starting to tremble as he pushed the hair from her face and kissed her face hastily a couple of times, his tears mingling with hers as he brushed his face against hers. "Don' do dis." He almost pleaded.
Seeing him like this only made her sobs stronger as she couldn't stop the tears form falling anymore even if she wanted to. "We cain't go on like this, it's to hard, Ah… We… we've been through worse things in these past months than we were in all those years that took us ta finally open up ta each other. Ah'm simply not strong enough ta handle it anymoah." Her heart ached with every word she was saying, knowing she was trying to push him away once and for all, but she couldn't keep on hurting herself. And hurting him as well.
"I love you Rogue. I … I can' lose you." His voice sounded so broken and tears glistened in his ruby-colored eyes. "Jus' tell moi do y'still love me?" He requested after swallowing hard and looking deeply into her eyes.
"Ah…" she knew what should she say to push him away, but the words just couldn't get past her lips. She closed her eyes and embraced him tightly. "Gawd, Ah cain't! Ah cain't say it. Ah love you! Ah love you so much." She cried out, her hands clutching the shirt on his back as if she was afraid someone could take him away from her. She felt his arms closing around her body and suddenly she felt so small, so lost in his embrace.
"I'll make it bett'r. I promise, mon amour, I promise I'make it all as it was. I swear t'you…" his voice was quivering as he refused to loosen his hold on her, afraid she might run away from him like she ran form everything else in her life. She finally managed to pull back a little and looked up at him again.
"Ah'm sorry." She whispered and immediately felt his hold on her wrists tighten
"I won' lose you. Jus' tell moi what t'do to make y'stay, 'cause I won' lose you. I can'."
"Ah don't wanna lose ya either, but… we hurt each other too much. Maybe…"
"Dere's no mebbe! We'll make t'ings right. We have to!" There was fire in his eyes as he looked at her with determination written all over his handsome face.
She bowed her head and he felt her tensed muscles relax. When she finally looked up after what seemed an eternity to him there was something that looked like a shadow of a smile on her tortured face. His pleading eyes bore into hers as she spoke the words that made his heart beat again.
"Where do we go from here, than?" she whispered softly realizing again that there is no use in trying to push the persistent Cajun away, knowing in her heart that she, in fact, never truly wanted to push him away in the first place.
"We start from de beginning, chere. An' see where it takes us." He replied, something that looked a lot like his famous grin forming on his face.
Her smile deepened and she leaned her forehead on his as he kissed her temple gently, than his lips made their way towards hers finally linking into a slow and passionate kiss. They stayed like this for a long while, speechless, motionless, just holding each other close, knowing their future won't be the classic fairy tale their tortured lives longed for, but also knowing that neither of them wanted it any other way…
-The End-
A/N – Okay, this is officially more mushy than any soap opera I watched in my entire life…But I couldn't resist on making a perfectly bittersweet little Romy ending…Anyway, this is it! I sure hope you liked it!!
Huge thanks to everyone who reviewed and helped this story going!! You're the best!
At the bottom I listed some songs I listened frequently while writing this so you could say they kind of inspired me. So it's a kind of a soundtrack than…:) The songs are really great actually…The lyrics are perfect!
OF FAIRY TALES AND HAPPY ENDINGS SOUNDTRACK
Franz Ferdinand – Come on home
Aerosmith – I don't wanna miss a thing
Bon Jovi – I'll be there for you
Bon Jovi – All I wanted was you
Bon Jovi – This ain't a love song
Cascada – Reason
Enrique Iglesias – Hero
Incubus – Drive
Queen – Show must go on
Richard Marx and Donna Lewis – At the beginning
Ozzy Ozbourne and Lita Ford – If I close my eyes forever
Robbie Williams – Eternity
Robbie Williams – Angels
Michelle Branch – Goodbye to you
Celine Dion – How do I live
Christina Aguilera – Hurt
Nelly Furtado – Try
Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars
Interpol – C'mere
Sheryl Crow – Tomorrow never dies
Pink – Heartbreaker
Westlife – Queen of my heart
Bryan Adams – Everything I do I do it for you
John Lennon – Jealous Guy
The Rolling Stones – Wild Horses
Oasis – Don't go away