God, Why I do so many Angel death stories, the world will never know. I try and try to write cheerful things, fluff, etc. But it never comes. Never.Nothing is ever mine.

It's always Johnathan's. Always.

Holding her hand softly, Collins looked lovingly into her dimming eyes. Nothing's worse than this. He thought grimly, searching for the old Angel in her eyes, hoping she would return to herself simply at the notion in his mind. Nothing can ever compare to this. What's going to become of this? Of life, after this…After Angel is…He stopped that thought immediately, unable to think of his life after his angel was gone.

Collins bit his lip to suppress the tears overflowing his eyes, unwilling to let Angel see him break down like this. I'm supposed to be the strong one. I'm supposed to be comforting her. He thought mentally scorning himself. Now that the situation has flipped, it's hard to readjust, to do all the things Angel did with what seemed ease and grace.

It wasn't supposed to happen so soon. Angel can't…not yet. She has- well, had- so much life, energy. Nothing compared to anyone I've ever met. It was beautiful and astounding What happened? Damn, what happened? Collins asked himself over and over still contemplating this until he heard a meek voice from Angel.

"Tom, honey, what are you thinking?" She asked demurely.

Hesitant to give his answer, he finally said the truth, knowing he could never lie to Angel well, she always knew when something was the matter. "Ang, I was thinking about you, when we first met, how much I was amazed by you, how I had never met another like you, how you were so full of life when you possessed such awful memories in your mind. And how much it terrifies me…it'll be gone."

She smiled feebly at him. "Honey, it won't be gone. I promise I'll be with you. Promise me, you will live normally, no moping. Forget Regret. Have the life I had to give up so early." She whispered out.

"I promise you, Angel. I love you." He said looking directly in her eyes, saying it with more meaning than anything had said, or will say.