I slump down onto the sofa once I get home. I can't believe I just told Catherine how I feel about her. Not just how I feel, I gave graphic examples of said feelings then kissed

I must have gone mad, that's all I can think. I'll plead temporary insanity tomorrow when Grissom calls me into his office to fire me.

What if she doesn't tell Grissom? What if she decides to just make my life hell? Well she's been doing that for months now anyway, albeit unknowingly.

I can't go into work tomorrow, or ever again for that matter. I can never look Catherine in the face again.

I can still see the look or pure shock on her face as I spoke. I bet that was the last thing she was expecting to hear from me.

I'd hate to have been the first person to get in her way after I left the locker room. Why couldn't I have fallen for Greg? Oh how simple my life would be then.

I'm dragged from my thoughts by a knock at the door.

I check who it is and I feel my heart sink when I see Catherine. Oh shit. Why the hell did I come home? Why didn't I immediately move to Australia? Where the hell is the confidence I felt before gone?

That's okay; I just won't open the door. She doesn't know I'm here.

"Don't be so stupid as to pretend you're not in there Sara. I don't mind though, I'm just as happy to do this through the door." She says, sounding far to calm for my liking.

Okay, so I don't want the world hearing this. I open the door to see Catherine with what can only be described as a smug look on her face.

I bet she wants an apology. Well she's not getting one from me.

"I'm not apologizing." I tell her as she walks in and closes the door behind herself.

"Good job I didn't come here for an apology then isn't it." She replies as she turns to face me.

I don't even attempt to go into my apartment, although when she advances on me and I feel the wall on my back after just two steps I start wishing I had.

"For someone with such intelligence you act really stupid sometimes." She tells me.

She still looks smug and I have to say; it's scaring the shit out of me. I expected yelling, maybe even a slap, but this? I'd go so far as to say she's amused.

"That was not a smart move Sidle." She informs me.

"What wasn't?" I've done many things today that fall into the 'stupid move' category.

"Pissing me off."

"Which part pissed you off?"

"The part where you told me to shut up, professed your undying love for me, told me in vivid detail a few of the things you'd like to do to me, kissed me, then had the audacity to leave."

"Right, so basically everything." I say, suddenly finding the floor very interesting.

"Oh yeah, but your not apologizing right?"

"Right." I reply, wondering why the hell I said that, not that I'm going to take it back.

"Seeing as I had to, how did you put it? Shut up for once and listen, can I assume you'll extend me the same courtesy?"

"I guess so." Damn why didn't I go into the living room. Then I would be trapped against the wall a few feet away from Catherine.

"You guess? I would think after your earlier outburst that you would owe me that at least. After all, you didn't even stick around for my reaction."

"Okay, yes, I'll shut up and listen."

I watch as the amused look returns to her face. What the hell have I just let myself in for?

"I have a few questions that you're going to answer, okay?"

I nod in reply, wondering why the hell I opened my door. So the neighbours would have heard, but at least I wouldn't have had to go through this. I decide to just answer her questions, the quicker I do the quicker this will be over with.

"How long?"

"I can't pinpoint exactly, months, years even."

She just nods at my answer. Her expression is giving nothing of how she feels away and I can feel my nerves increase by the second.

"Why tell me now?"

"You wanted an explanation; I wanted you to know I wasn't being a bitch for the sake of it."

"Why then? Why at work? It couldn't have waited?"

"Apparently not. I'd have lost my nerve had I waited."

Okay. Wasn't expecting her to laugh there.

"I bet you're wishing right about now that you'd done just that aren't you?"

"That obvious?"

"The deer in the headlights look is giving it away. That and you seem to be having real trouble with eye contact."

"Can I take back the part when I said I'm not apologizing?"

She laughs again before replying. "Depends."

"On?"

"Would you mean it? Are you sorry you said it? Finally got it out in the open?"

"No."

"Then there would be little point in apologizing."

"True."

"Why leave? That's a lot to take in, why not at least wait around to hear my reaction."

"I was scared."

"Just like you are now?" She says with a smile.

"Oh yeah." Damn her for being right.

She takes a few steps towards me until she's so close I can feel her body heat. I close my eyes and fight hard against my body's reaction to her, when I open them a few minutes later I see her studying my face, watching my reactions. What the fuck is she doing? Yes I might deserve it, payback is after all a bitch, but I'll be damned if I'll put up with this.

"What are you playing at Catherine?" I ask.

"I'm not playing at anything Sara."

I feel myself getting angry again, she needs to just get to her point. "Then why aren't you yelling at me? God knows I deserve it."

"How did you put it? Because I'm so fucking sexy when I'm angry. Figured you would want to do this without the distraction."

Oh god can I just die now. "And this isn't a distraction?" I say, gesturing to her body, inches from mine.

"This distracts you?" She asks as she closes the distance between us, pressing her body into mine, pinning me to the wall. Oh god.

"I have no idea what you want from me Catherine. So can we just get this over with?" I turn my face away from her as I speak, if I don't I know I'll have to kiss her.

"As I said, I want you to answer some questions."

"Well ask them then get the hell out." I tell her, getting angrier as she continues whatever game it is she's playing.

"Okay. What do you feel right now Sara?" She asks as she brings her hands up to my hips.

I don't reply. I'm not sure I could find my voice.

"Answer me." She demands.

"Angry." Okay so I feel angry as well as a million other things right now.

"Damn woman, you are far too stubborn." She says shaking her head. "You see Sara." She says, lowering her voice as she leans in to husk into my ear.

"Had you stuck around, you would have found out how I reacted to your admission, to hearing about your fantasies. Do you want me to tell you now?"

I still don't reply. All I know right now is feeling her so close is amazing.

"I guess not." She says as she starts to pull back.

"No. Tell me." I say, grabbing her arms and keeping her in place. I'm enjoying her closeness far too much.

She chuckles before bringing her hands back to my hips.

I can hear my heart beating as she pauses before continuing.

"Tell me again what you were thinking about in the layout room."

"Catherine?"

"Tell me Sara." She demands.

I still have no idea where she is going here, but every part of me is saying 'do as she says, see what happens. Besides I have nothing to lose, I have no choice but to follow the tiny glimmer of hope her actions are giving me.

"I was wondering how." Okay this is harder than I thought. "How your legs would feel wrapped around me." I manage to croak out, my throat suddenly very dry.

"As you?" Oh god she wants the whole thing.

"As I...As I take you."

As I speak the words I hear Catherine moan right into my ear and feel a tiny shudder run through her body. Oh. My. God.

"God Sara. It's a good job you left when you did. I'd have ended up fucking you right there in the locker room otherwise."

Okay so now it's my turn to be shocked and I am sure as hell speechless. Helpless to fight the huge wave of arousal she has just sent washing over me. I know she felt the shudder run through my body then.

"Had you waited around I could have told you about my fantasies." As she speaks she pushes a leg between mine and slowly rocks her thigh against my overheated centre.

"Oh fuck, Catherine." I whimper.

"You tied to my bed, begging for my touch." Her voice cracks as she's speaking. "I want to taste you so much."

"Uh." Is all I manage as she thrusts against me once more. I can not believe this is happening.

Any words she has are cut off as I turn my head and kiss her. Groaning into her mouth as our tongues move against each other, god this is far better than any fantasy.

'Oh wow' is the only coherent thought I can come up with until she pulls back.

"So maybe Sara, if you're a very good girl, you won't have to fantasize for much longer."

I groan again at her words and lean back in for another kiss.

"Ah ah." She says as she steps back so she's a few feet away from me. I miss the heat of her immediately. "Save that for later." She says. "For now, I want that date you were talking about." She smirks.

I can't help but return her smile.

"You can pick me up at eight okay?" She says as she opens the front door.

I don't care that tonight isn't my night off. It is now. "Okay."

"Oh and Sara."

"Yeah."

"Don't forget the flowers."

And with that she's gone, leaving me with a million emotions, a date to plan and a huge smile on my face.

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