1Dear diary,

Kurenai had suggested that I get a diary, I have no clue why...

Over the past few days, Kurenai has brought something up that made my spine tingle. Well, I guess I should start at the beginning. The first time, that... I felt like I was loved... when it happened it was during the time Naruto...Had gone away from Konaha... It was exactly 2 years after he left. With my idol gone, I had only one person pushing me, Kurenai. Of course Kiba-kun and Shino-kun helped, but Kurenai helped the most. She pushed me to my limit, and thanks to her I became a Chuunin.

Kurenai had offered me some special Genjutsu training. I agreed, and she took me out deep into the forest. She first tried to teach me Jubaku Satsu, she showed me several times. One time when she was in the tree she over her head so she could look me in the eyes, and explain to me what I did wrong. As I finally started to get it, I all of a sudden completely failed. I had successfully disappeared, the tree rose up, but I couldn't seem to finish it. So Kurenai did it on me again, I thought she was just going to show me the right way to do it, I was completely wrong and surprised what happened next. But, instead I felt her arms on my shoulders, then her hands on my breast. I was shocked at first, but for some reason, it didn't seem wrong.

"Kurenai..."

"Yes Hinata?"

I was confused about what I was going to ask...

"What am I doing wrong?"

"Im not sure..."

She ended the Genjustsu. Kurenai's hand were at her side now. I was looking at the floor. A little depressed. Kurenai could feel it, so she put her arms around my waist and held me tightly. She walked back several feet, and pressed her self against a tree. I was on the verge of tears. My fathers words kept coming back to me. I was useless and weak. I started to cry. Kurenai held me, she was one of the only people who knew how hard it was.

I still had my shyness, and Naruto was away, she was the only thing I had left to truly inspire me. As she held me, I felt more comfortable. I stopped crying and looked up at her. Her eyes were full of worry. Looking at them I began to cry again. It wasn't sad tears, but tears of joy. She really cared about me.

I layed my head in her chest. As I stoped crying, she let go of me. She suddenly walk past me. Then all of a sudden. My body was pressed up against the tree Kurenai was just on. She leaned toward me. I panicked and looked away. My cheeks were burning scarlet. I started to think, half of me was trying to convince myself that she didn't lean in to kiss me and the other half wanted to see what it was like.

The side that wanted to see what It was like finally won, and I looked back at Kurenai. She looked exactly like she did when I looked away. She gave me a nice smile as she came closer. I closed my eyes and waited. As I opened them, she was inches away from me. She was looking at me with eyes that I had never seen. She looked, for a lack of a better word, sexy. You can't blame me for getting a little excited. No, not a little, a lot, I was really turned on for some reason. As she began to lean forward a little more, my only thoughts were, 'I wish People would be this nice to me all the time...'

Finally our lips met. It felt so nice, gentle, and warm. But, much to my disliking, it was over quickly. That little time, I felt a lot of things: happiness, love, safety. As she pulled away from me I needed to catch my breath. I went to kiss her back, but, I stopped myself. I felt a little selfish.

She knew that I had enjoyed it. She put both arms around me, and pulled me up to her. Yet again. She stopped right before she kissed me. This time I didn't let her have her fun teasing me. I moved up to her on my own. The kiss lasted much longer. It seemed like are bodies were closer this time. I could feel her heart beating against my chest.

TenTen had told me that she felt relaxed when Neji-niisan first kissed her. But I didn't feel like that. My heart was beating fast, I was enjoying it so much. I was still excited from are first two kisses. The fact that we were closer and I could feel her breasts pushed against mine it turned me on. She pulled away from me again and I could still taste her cherry flavored lips.

I was lost beyond this point. I had no clue what to do. I looked at her, my eyes full of confusion. She held me tightly. I felt safe in her arms. All of a sudden she let go. I looked up at her. She looked back, her eyes moving quickly. I didn't take long to figure out she was panicking. At the moment, I was a little confused at what was wrong. Later, I had found out that Kurenai had dreamed of that moment for the past year.

"What, what was the problem?" I said concerned.

"You were only 15. You were just a teenager. I am a women."

I guessed that the age difference was the problem. Now, back to the moment.

I rested my head in her chest, trying to show her that it was perfectly fine that she kissed me. She got the message.

"Hinata..."

"Yes, Knai?"

"Knai?"

I blushed and buried my self further into her chest. Kurenai was a smart women. She had already gotten the new nickname. I toke the 'ure' out of her name. Leaving, Knai. I like the way it sounded...

"Ok, as long as I get to call you, Hinata"

In essence, it was exactly the same as my real name. But, that wasn't it. Her voice was extremely sexy when she said it. I started to shake a little. She held me, again. I stopped shaking, I felt so calm in her arms.

"Hey, would you like to. Sleep over?" Kurenai said...

END CHAPTER 1