Gravity
By: Guiltshow
Disclaimer: Don't sue me.
Chapter One: Gone
Been
a long road to follow
Been there and gone tomorrow
Keh. What a waste of time it was. If I hadn't had anything better to do, I wouldn't have been there. Trust me on that. After all, dogs mean loyalty - don't they? Yep. Without loyalty, you are basically scum to me. Blame the dog-like qualities, but that's how everyone should think. Okay, so maybe they shouldn't find Akamaru's food tasty, but they should have loyalty. It's a key essential to being a nice, um...loyal person. However nice loyalty sounds, it sure does suck sometimes. I mean, if I wasn't loyal in the first place, then why would I even bother to encourage a certain friend to pursue a certain male? It's being loyal, damn it, and it's my way of the ninja. How do you like that, you idiot? I just took your catch phrase. You better believe it! Look, I did it again. Now, say something along the lines of 'I love you, too.'
Come on Naruto, say it. You aren't that stupid... Wait. I take it back.
It's not like Naruto, here, isn't a nice guy; it's just sometimes...he isn't the brightest. I can't be one to talk, but seriously. I mean - Wait! Naruto. Why are you taking so long? Don't make her wait in anticipation. Aw. Look there. She's blushing. I hope she isn't about to pass out. Hm. That would be a little bad.
Okay, so maybe spying wasn't nice. Ninjas spy all the time, no? I will call this 'Kiba Learns to Be Stealthy'. Heh. It rhymes. I'm so clever for a ninja. I'm such a nice, clever, stealthy, dog-like ninja. What's there not to like? I mean, I don't think I'm ugly. I can be dense at times, but I can still look good, damn it! If I'm such a great ninja, why do I feel like shit? I mean, I should be hopping up and down for Hinata right now. I should be patting her on the head, and giving her more motivational speeches. I should hug her in joy when Naruto says he feels the same. I should hug her and kiss her passionately like in Icha Icha - Wait. No. I shouldn't. I should not do anything but encourage her even more. Heck, I shouldn't even feel this way for a team mate. Nope. I shouldn't have, um, 'sexual frustration' when I'm around her. Nope. I should just be the same way when I was a Genin...only more motivational. I shouldn't be feeling worried...I mean Naruto probably still likes Sakura. He probably still finds her -
OH MY FUCK! He just didn't say he liked her, too. What the hell? That bastard. Oh no, he better not try to kiss her. Watch your hands, buddy. Don't you dare carass her milky, white skin. Holy crap! Hinata...you aren't shy anymore. I shouldn't watch this. I shouldn't. No. No. Must...I must look away. I must look away before they - OKAY. That bastard is going down.
I roll up my sleeves, furious at the placement of his lips on her's. I get ticked off even more when he places his hands on her hips.
I think the worst part about it, though, is that Hinata is kissing back. She seems to...enjoy it. I try not to frown. I try to act tough as I walk away, sleeves still rolled up in a hasty manner. I can't help but viciously bite my inner cheek; I try not to say anything to on-going villagers. Most of them can tell I'm in a pissed off mood because Akamaru, that beast, is cowering behind me. However, once in a while I can't help but to tell someone to go fuck off. I'm sorry, but this is just crazy.
Its ridiculous that I even get this angry. I believe it must be my age. I heard being 18 had to be a step into matured, hormonal bliss.
I walk down the streets, and I place my hands in my pockets. This gesture would even be admired by Uchiha himself. My pace quickens as I feel an alarming wetness well into my eyes. I walk, practically jog, through Konoha. My face stares at the ground as I reach the straight way to my shack.
I moved out of my mom's place just a few days ago to go train on the skirts of the forest. I needed to become better to become a Jonin. I needed to heighten my tracking skills, I had to get stronger. Now look at me. I'm about to cry because my heart has been trampled on. I barely make it to the door, when I pound on it with my fists. I slowly sink to my knees, and I feel the cool metal against my forehead. I sit down, and lean against the door. I'm afraid to go in. I'm afriad to enter that loneliness. I stare at the moon.
Wow. If I wasn't so upset, I probably would have serenaded it. It looked down at me, and it looked so golden. I stare up at it, and I instantly think of her. I think of my Hinata. The only girl to tame my heart. The only girl to laugh and learn to love my imperfections. I feel, not one, but two tears slowly roll down my tattooed face. I finally give up and I begin to sob.
I cry to the moon. I cry to whoever is up there making me feel like shit. I cry because I'm weak. I cry because I feel broken. I cry because I'm not a man. I cry because of another failure in life. All I do is gasp, heave, and sob. My face scrunches up as I bite my tongue, trying to muffle my sobs. I don't even try to wipe them away. Heck, if you couldn't tell I was crying...you would be pretty blind.
I think, though, that it's Akamaru who is making me cry even more. It is because, no matter how much of a pansy I am, he is there crying, too. Only, he's the one who is sadly howling up at the moon. It looked relaxing, so I decide to do it, too. I get up, tears still streaming, and run to the top of a grassy hill. What comes out next is not something I can't describe. It felt strong, and angry. It sounded rough and forced. I howl at the moon along with my best friend. I stare up at it, and it stares back down. I do this until I collapse to the ground, only I don't hit. Akamaru is there for me, and he carries me to the door. I open the door and walk in.
Her scent just poors out of every nook and cranny. I try not to smell it, but I do. The sad thing is - it comforts me. I know she wouldn't want me to cry. She always told me how she wanted to grow and become stronger like me. For what seems like an eternity, I sit. My hands tap on my legs, I fidget. This is a sign that I'm thinking, or trying to focus. I ponder what to do. I get a few ideas, but beating up Hinata's happiness and then shipping him off the Akasuki doesn't sound like a great idea. I could just stay here, and be a mature adult. HA! Not. Where would the plot go? Then it hits me.
I look down at Akamaru, who is laying on the edge of the bed. I rub his head, and grin. He blinks and smiles back. "Akamaru." I begin. "How about we leave Konoha?" He looks uncertain at first but barks deeply. I allow him to climb on my bed. I was afraid the weight was going to kill it. I curl up into his warm fur and I mumbled a goodnight. I try to bury my face in his coat, but Hinata's smell can't be suppressed. When I close my eyes, she is there smiling, and haunting my dreams.
I always liked the mornings. Getting up wasn't too pleasant, but the scent of the dew hanging off the grass and the cool breeze was a very good constellation prize. I sit outside, and grin. It is sorta stupid. I mean, I bawled like a baby, and now I'm smiling because I'm going to leave. I'm going to leave this hellish village and go embark on an adventure with Akamaru. No one can stop me. Only thing to do is wait out a few days. Why? Because if I leave now, it would be obvious that I left. Everyone would think it was because of Hinata. Nope. Not the case. I am leaving to um...find myself. That sounds mysterious and yet slightly intelligent. Yeah. I'll go with that.
I get up and leave. Heading to see the Hokage and tell her my proposition. I make sure to take the long way, just so that I won't run into anyone, but sadly I do.
"Shino..."
"Kiba."
Then there was silence. Damn him. He just stares at me and I realize he understands what was happening.
"So, lovely weather we are having, no?" I joke lightly, my hands put behind my scruffy, brown hair.
"Kiba..."
"Keh. What do you want?" I feel my foot twitch. I wasn't suppose to get angry at him, but for crissake. He is smirking at me.
"What are you going to do?"
"To see the Hokage." Before he asks me why I tell him.
"It's not going to solve anything."
"Yeah it will. It will teach me some life lesson, I'm sure of it."
"Stupid dog."
"Creepy bug."
I smile lightly at him, and continue to walk. I feel his eyes bore into my neck. I give him a friendly middle finger and continue. I hear him laugh lightly, and makes my smile grow. If you can't count on him, I don't know who you can.
I enter to see that old lady. She stares at me with pity.
Oh my God. Does everyone know about this?
"Old lady, what are ya looking at?" I smirk, trying to avoid any unnesscary hugs or apologies. Luckily for me I duck the chair aimed at my head.
"Brat." She grumbled and I place the chair in front of her desk, and sit. I quickly think about it, and I decide I need to be serious, to be taken seriously. I wipe the smirk that appeared on my face, and I stared blankly at her.
"I'm leaving."
"The door is right there." For a Hokage, she sure isn't too bright.
"I mean, I'm leaving the village." I state simply, surprised that I can focus.
"Ah." She says simply, and continues with her work.
"So, I'm allowed to?"
"Of course, as long as you come back."
"What? Did you not hear me? I want to leave this place completely. I want -"
"I know what you mean, Kiba. However, you will come back. Whether it's an order or not, we all know you can't stay away from Hinata for more than a few weeks."
I get up, frowning at her. "I'm glad you think so little of me. I'll have you know that I will not be back. And I'll send your old ass a lovely picture of me in a year. see ya."
I walk away, knowing I showed no respect for our leader. This only makes it easier to leave.
I avoid people for the next few days. I pack up what is needed and put it in my knapsack. I change clothes. I take off my green vest and wear a mesh shirt, with a jacket over it. Like my old one, only this one was red and had no buttons. I wear black pants, and my ninja sandels. I take off my forehead protector and I place it in my bag. Akamaru is beside me and I walk to go say goodbye to Hana.
She looks at me and smiles sadly. I tell her no tears and she smacks me.
"Just because I'm a female does not mean I cry."
"I know, I know. Geez." I smirk at her, and then I hug her. I marvel at the fact that I'm taller than her.
"Be safe, baby brother. Make sure to send a letter at least once a month." I nod, knowing I will probably send more than just one. I turn to leave, and she grabs a hold of my sleeve. "Make sure you say good bye to mom."
I follow her orders, but before visiting her, I stop by Ino's shop to get some flowers. She stares at me, and I ask her if something is wrong. She blushes and shakes her head furiously. I blink, not getting why women seem to blush around me. Especially now. I mean, I'm just wearing different clothing, they aren't that hideous...are they? I thank her quietly for the flowers and ask her in a low voice not to tell anyone. This seems to get her more flustered as she nods to me. I smile, which sends her over the top, and I thank her.
I walk, trying to ignore all the stares. Why are women so weird?
I make my way towards her. I kneel before the gravestone, and place the flowers at her grave. I smile sadly, refusing to cry. Mom always told me not to cry. I won't. At least, not infront of her.
"I won't disappoint you, Mom. Just you wait and see." I say gruffly and stand up. "Lets go, Akamaru." Turning to leave, my body crashes with someone else. I get up, scowling at who it was.
"Kiba."
"Naruto."
"Heh. What are you doing here?" He asks, grinning at me.
"Visiting my mom."
"Ah, I see." His nonchalant answers make me furious. Why isn't he with Hinata? I grab him by his collar and lift him up so we are face to face. I snarl at him, and his eyes narrow.
"You make sure you take care of Hinata." His eyes widen. "If I hear that you have harmed her in any way, I will be back. And I will kill you. Even if it means using my life for it." I drop him to the floor. "I know you won't disappoint me, Naruto." He smiled and nodded.
I walk through the gates, and see Shino there. I hug him, and he obviously doesn't enjoy it.
"I'll see you, man." I smirk, letting go.
"Don't be a dumbass, Kiba."
I nod and leave. That must have been the best advice anyone has ever given me.
A/N - Its over! Well, the first chapter at least. Sorry if my major suckage hurt your eyes. Hm. Writing in 1st person is quite troublesome. So, my readers, I ask you if you think I should stick with first or go to third? Or maybe even both. Ha. Also, I had big paragraphs. I'm use to skipping lines like at the end. You could, if you wanted, also tell me which you prefer.
I know Shino talked more, but I still think he would have said those things.
Don't worry, all you people who want to see KibaxHinata fluff! There will be cute memories of them together with each chapter. I'm following the song Gravity, from Wolf's Rain.
I would like you to go read one of my favorite fanfics; I've been reading it, and it never ceases to amaze me. Its called Sunshine for Sorrow, by The Denominator. Its great!
Please read and review. Thank you guys, so much.