EL: This is a one shot of femSasuke pondering her relationship with a certain blonde haired dobe. It will probably be short. Also if you have requests for one-shots put it into a PM or Review or E-Mail. Thanks and now I present to you Shadow Requiem. Sorry if there are any mistakes and such I really need a beta T.T

NOTE: Actually if you prefer to view this as a male Sasuke I don't care.

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Shadow Requiem
One Shot By EL

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He was… Special I suppose… I cared about him a lot that was for sure. Love? Maybe… The fact that he cared about me was all that mattered. The fact that he would love me even though I was cold to him and everyone around me astounded me. He melted my heart in that special way of his. He made me feel actual emotion. I smirked at him, cursed at him, yelled at him, hit him even. He would hold me in that way of his and comfort me. My heart was melting. Did I want it to melt? Maybe… Maybe I just wanted him… Maybe I just wanted him holding me, hugging me, kissing me… I'm rambling aren't I? I just want to pour my emotions onto these sheets of paper. Pour my frustration into this writing. Maybe I did love him. Maybe I cared about him more than I let on. Maybe I'm just insane. All I know is he cares and that's all that matters. Every time I hurt him in any way my heart aches for some reason. I don't want to hurt him. I can't help it though. But… He loves me anyways…. I suppose I could always love him back right?

I cry when he's not here with me. I become quiet around old friends and they also wonder what's wrong with me. My heart breaks when I see him talking to other women. I feel jealousy every time I see him pay attention to one more than he does me. Even though I know he loves me and always will I can't help but worry; 'What if he doesn't want me anymore?', 'What is I made him think that I don't love him?', ' What if I hit him too hard.', 'What if.. What if…'

In my mind I pretended I didn't care. On the outside I was completely stoic which was actually odd for my gender, or was it? On the inside my heart screamed at me to stop lying to myself and to accept the truth, the truth that I loved him. I loved him… Funny it feels so right and so awkward to think that… I digress. I hope he notices… No wait… I hope he still loves me back. After all the hurt I gave him. After all those years I ignored him. I hope he still loves me. He's the one for me… I know…

One day I'll confess to him. I promise myself. I promise him. I'll let him know that I love him back. Just as he told me he loved me…

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EL: Crappy? Not Crappy? Plz R & R

Naku: Or else she won't feed me so R & R!