Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Spike/Buffy

'Complex'

Spike has some issues.

(A/N: Just to warn you kiddies, Spike's not so much about the laughter in this one. He's a little Crazy In Love, you dig?

Thanks again to my amazing beta KT, who rocks my world sideways (lol))

"Either you tell your friends about us, or I will" - Normal Again, Season Six

"I could NEVER love you!" - Dead Things, Season Six

Love's a many splendored thing, you guess, for other people. People not being you. But then again, you're hardly 'people', right?

You used to eat people, you think nostalgically.

Stupid people, running around like little Happy Meals on legs, but only without the toy.

But it's not like you can do anything about it now, not with all the junk in your head. You're neutered now. All fixed up so you can't play with the other puppies.

Why do you feel this way? How can you feel this way? You have a chip in your head, not a bloody soul. How the balls can you love someone without a soul?

You never loved Drusilla, you get that now. That was just a warped, mother-complex driven, insane obession…. thing that you don't really like to think about.

You always had a thing with your mother.

God, you loved her to death.

You're really glad you killed her though.

It is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.

Really?

Yes.

Never a doubt in your mind?

Never.

You know that you really love her.

The Chosen One.

The Slayer.

Buffy.

It's like fire in your veins, vodka down your throat, lightning striking, again and again.

You don't want it to stop. Ever.

She feels the same. You can taste it everytime you touch. You know it.

She loved you back.

…Why won't she sleep with you again?

That whole thing with Anya was, well is kind of a blur - you don't usually drink whiskey, so the Jack Daniels hits you a lot harder then anticipated.

You got your jollies, and then left.

You don't like to admit you were thinking about Buffy - her smooth skin, and her nails scraping down your back and her moans in your ear and -

NO

You were so preoccupied trying to clear your head of her you barely dodge the axe whistling toward your head.

Then there's talking, but your too busy staring at the hurt on Buffy's face.

She's hurting so you're hurting and you're sorry, sorry sorry and you wanna rip your heart out for her and do anything to get that look of her face, but you're in too deep and she hates you, you souless thing hates you hates you HATES YOU -

"It's good enough for Buffy."

The look on her face floors you.

The only reason you go back later is because you have to make her understand.

You love her

You're sorry

You want to be with her

She'll understand - she loves you too, and things will change. Her friends know now, so you can be together openly now, in the dark.

You honestly did want to talk to her, but she's saying all these lies to you - "Move on Spike" "I don't love you -"

ENOUGH

You have to make her stop, make her understand make her love you make her feel it back, your hands are out and on her, she loves you she loves you she loves you You take her down and move on top, trying to stop her arms form moving as you kiss her softly Get off me Spike! Please, get off me! Stop it stop it stop it you run your hand through her hair and she smiles up at you and you kiss her again, your hand opening the bath robe easily Oh god stop it please, (she's begging as the tears pour down her face) Please please please make is stop You sigh and kiss her again, until -

She's stood up, and you're lying on the thing you crashed into.

"Ask me again why I could never love you"