It hurts more than you think Watch you as you go, a naruto fanfic

(thanks for reviewing guys, the reviews are coming less and less, but leaking through.. I've been kinda out of FF for a while, my uncle died, and I've been busy.. Sorry sorry.. btw, I kinda changed a little bit of the Naruto history, so don't get pissed

It hurts more than you think: Chapter 14: Watch you as you go

A knock on the door woke Sasuke from his sleep, and he carefully removed Gaara's body from across his chest to see who it was. He didn't care, either, that all he was wearing were a pair of black sweat pants. He pulled open his door, seeing Iruka standing there, a not so pleased look on his face.

"Sasuke.." The brown-haired man started, his voice catching a little. "I have bad news I need to share with you.." He finished, clearing his throat in a sad manner.

"Um..Alright.." The pale teen answered, pulling the door open and turning on the light. "Come in, I guess.." He moved over to the bed, shaking Gaara awake. "Hey, wake up.. Iruka's here.."

The red-head rubbed his eyes, sitting up in bed with a yawn.

Iruka pulled a chair up towards the corner of the bed, sitting down as Sasuke sat on the plush mattress. "The news isn't great.. The only reason I was called was because they couldn't get your number.. They knew I worked at the school you went to so they called me to get your number. I told them I'de like to tell you, because I'de worked with you.."

"Tell me what?" The Uchiha asked, worry surfacing within him. Calling meant bad things, and sending Iruka meant worse. He just knew something was wrong, and that it would affect him greatly.

"There was an accident.. Itachi was driving home after work. It was raining and the car in the opposite lane lost control, slamming into his car. The other guy is perfectly fine, but Itachi isn't. He busted his skull against the window and his chest and rib cage were crushed against the steering wheel. He passed on the way to the hospital."

Sasuke's brain quit functioning properly. The words he'd just heard were jumbled up, forming sentances that didn't make sense. His bottom lip was quivering, and apparently he hadn't realized he was crying in front of people he normally didn't let see him cry. His throat was burning with the urge to scream about how unfair that was. Him and his brother had just made up, and were brothers again, and barely a month later, Aniki was dead.. How?

The pale teen choked on a breath, and that was when Iruka decided to leave. He handed Gaara a piece of paper with a number on it. "Call this tommorow to make funeral arrangements and such. Good night." The man turned and left the room, his heart low in his chest.

"I just want you to be there with me.." Sasuke explained over the phone, his voice sore from lack of sleep.

"I will, Sasuke.. I promise, I'll be there for you." Naruto answered, his soul cracked a little bit for his ex-lover. The blonde couldn't believe that Itachi had died.. He'd met him a few times going over with Sasuke, and it was kinda of hard to know that he'd died in such a horrible way..

Sasuke sighed. It had been more than eight years since he'd been here. He didn't like it here, since it was so depressing, and he hated looking at so many head-stones, all of them engraved with the name Uchiha. His family was so large when it started, that the very first Uchiha's hundreds of years ago created their own grave yard. The Uchiha's were, along with the Hyuuga's and the Nara's, one of Japan's more important clans. The three clans were the largest, and contributed greatly to the early japanese society. The Hyuuga and Nara were both located with in closly neighboring city's, while the Uchiha were further away. The Hyuuga's were in Osaka, Nara in Kyoto, and the Uchiha were on the other side of the mountains, in Yokohama.

The extremely light eyed Hyuuga clan was known for its pristine environment, social exclusion, and incestuous marriages. The leaders made sure that if a person wasn't marrying a close cousin, then they weren't marrying at all. They were a secretive clan, with strict laws along with the laws of the society they lived in. However, it was known that they looked down on the outside, and wearn't worried about society laws. The Hyuuga compound was sectioned off from life by a wall taller than all the houses that had been built up after an invasion from neighbors. The only damage that had been done was a broken window, but the man that did it lost his life, thus forcing on the de-assimilation of the town and the clan. They built up several shops and such in their new 'town', and closed all communications with Osaka. The one door to the outside world was only opened for the shop owners to go in and out with new stock.

Since then, though, the wall had been torn down, and the laws were cast out by newer clan leaders after several younger males were tortured nearly to death for sexual relationships outside of the clan. The newer generations were still as pride-ful, but yet different from the early Hyuuga's.

The Nara's were known for their deer farm, which were sold to butchers and used as the primary source of food for Kyoto. Also, they discovered many medical advancements, and saved many lives with their herbal remedies. Really, the Nara clan was just very contributal, not controversial, or anything. Sure, they had their own clan laws and everything, like every clan, but nothing to serious. They were a.. impassive group of people.

And still, even now, they still provide medicines to doctor's, and still have their deer farm.

The Uchiha clan was the most remembered for the mass murder that had occured the generation before Sasuke's. One of the males, he was about seventeen at the time, went crazy and cut his parents throats in their sleep. He moved through most of the other homes, killing each occupant while they slept. The only ones left alive were the elderly, who soon died anyway, and a few children.

Sasuke's dad had been one of those children, and had married outside of the clan once he grew. And now that both his parents had died, and so had the few children who had survived, the pale teen was the only one left. He kind of felt guilty that he'd chosen to not have a wife and have kids, officially ending his clan forever. He'd expected Itachi to get married when he was younger, but now, Itachi wasn't alive anymore, and it had ended up that he wasn't going to have kids either.

Sasuke set a flower on his parents graves, and then set one on Itachi's. The dirt was still fresh, and grass hadn't grown over yet very much. And then, the pale teen sat down between his mom's headstone, and his brother's, breathing deeply, and meditating on everything that had ever happened in his life.

Suddenly, he was glad he hadn't died that time just before him and Naruto had broken up. Though, he knew the outcome of life if he had. Him and Gaara wouldn't have ever got together, the red-head probably would have resorted to suicide after a while, they never would have gone to Itachi's, Deidara wouldn't have touched him, wouldn't have killed himself, and then Itachi wouldn't have died, because he would have still stayed home all day while Deidara worked. Either way, two souls would have been lost, and people would be hurt. But at least he got to make up with Itachi, and be friends with him for those two short weeks.

With a sad sigh, Sasuke let his hand run over the fresh ground, letting the dirt sift through his fingers. He picked up a little of the sand, sprinkling a little bit over his parent's graves. Sighing again, he pushed himself up from the ground, heading back over to his car. He opened the door and slid down into the driver's seat, looking over at Gaara. "How long was I out there?" He asked, sniffing, and ignoring his cracked voice. The pale teen could tell he was going to get sick, only because of how cold it was out there, and all he was wearing was a pair of shorts and a t-shirt.

"Almost two hours.." The red-head answered, pulling his seat belt back on. "Are you okay?" He asked, reaching over and pulling Sasuke's hand in his own.

"Not right now, but I'll get there." He answered, squeezing his lover's thumb reassuringly. The pale teen allowed the other to lean over and press a kiss to his cheek, before he started the car and exited the grave yard. Very mechanically, he drove his way to the small apartment he and Gaara owned, not far from the university they were enrolled in.

'Gone to get away for a while, Gaara.. I just need some time to think. Be back tommorow night. Love you..' Sasuke scrawled on a piece of paper, before setting it on the pillow next to Gaara's sleeping body. Naruto had called him the night before and said something about emotionally comforting each other.

And he was more than needing it. The blonde was his escape, his get-away, when he was down, and lately, he'd been thinking more and more of his ex-lover.

Sasuke's phone was ringing.. It was two early to answer.. But it had been going off for some time.

"Hello?"

"Hey.." Came Naruto's familiar voice, broken. It was obvious he'd been crying.

"What's wrong.."

"Sai died.. He flipped his car and died.."

There were a few moments of silence on the line, before Sasuke heard Naruto sigh loudly. "I'm sorry.." He offered, not knowing really how to console the boy over the phone.

"Yeah.. me too.." He paused.. "Hey, Sasuke?"

"Yeah?"

"I really love you, okay? And I don't want you to cry over me when I die..." The blonde quickly hung up his phone, not wanting Sasuke to talk him out of his plans. He dropped his cell on the floor, slipping the rope around his neck. Just as he stepped off the desk he was standing on, he could hear Sasuke's familiar ringer I.D.. The one song from the show called friends, that went 'I'll be there for you..' And the sound of the song was the last thing he heard, before everything went black, and he felt his heart beat stop completly.

Sasuke had left him.. He said something about not wanting another lost loved-one, so he'd just quit loving.. Gaara sat in his bed, crying harder than ever before. Two years of his life had been spent with him, he'd gone through some of the worst things, and Sasuke had helped him though it all.. He quit thinking about it, and slashed the blade numbly across his arm several times, before moving to his own throat and sliding it deeply across. He coughed, and felt blood running down his shirt.

He dropped the bottle of alcohol, listening to the satisfiying crunch of glass. What was it worth, anyway? He had no one left.. Sasuke closed his eyes, and leaned forward, the wind rushing through his hair and he fell of the fourteen story dorm building. He didn't feel the ground.

Sasuke sat up gasping in his bed. He'd had the worst nightmare ever.. "N-... Naruto?" He whispered, shaking his blonde lover awake.

"Nuu... What do you want, Sasu?" The tan teen asked, turning towards him.

"I.. I had a dream.. We had got in a fight, and I tried to kill myself.. and I had to move into this Gaara kid's dorm, and.. then I dreamt that Itachi and some blonde guy died, and.. so did some new guy you met, and you, and then.. that Gaara kid, and then I jumped off a roof.." His heart was still beating hard, god, he had thought for a minute he really was going to die..

"Yeah? Well go back to sleep.. We have Kakashi's class in an hour.."

And Sasuke layed back down, resting his head against Naruto's chest. "I love you, Naruto.. I really do.. I know we never say it, but.. I do."

End... omg, did you like the ending? a twist? Lol, sorry, but none of the entire fic ever happened... 3 3 love you guys, thanks for reading..