It hurts more than you think: Chapter 1: I'm bleeding..

Sasuke's expression was blank. The only indication of his annoyance was the sigh that escaped his lips every now and again as he packed his clothing and other belongings into several duffle bags. "Could you please stop slurping, dobe?" The pale teen growled at the other occupant of the room.

Naruto stuck his tongue out, which was colored blue from the slushy. "You're just mad that you have to move." He retorted, resuming drinking his beverage even though it still made the noise.

"Hn.." Was the older male's reply, roughly zipping up a bag and throwing it in the pile with the others. He let out a huff of exhaustion, glancing around the room to make sure he had everything. "That's it, I guess.." He mumbled to himself, blowing a bit of his bangs out of his face. "Help me carry these." He told Naruto, not bothering to ask or say please.

"Sure thing, teme-hime." The tanned male said as he shouldered half of the bags. "Holy Godzilla, what do you have in here? Cinderblocks?" Naruto complained, struggling to open the door with the weight on his shoulders.

"Yeah." Sasuke replied smartly, pulling the dorm door shut as he exited. "It's two floors up, 408." He informed the blonde, pushing him in the direction of the elevator.

It didn't take them long to get there, opening the door using the key he'd been given. Thankfully, the room was empty. "I have to help you put this all back..?" Naruto asked, dropping the two bags he'd been given on the floor with a thud.

"What..? Like you helped me pack in the first place.. All you did was slurp that noisy drink and make lewd comments every time I bent over." The Uchiha retorted, yanking open the empty set of drawers on what he'd figured out what his side of the room. "Just.. Can you set my desktop up right here, and plug in all my electronics..? You know how to do that." Sasuke said, gesturing at the small desk beside him.

"Yeah, but if I accidentally download a shit load of porn due to the carelessness of my judgment, then that's your fault."

The pale teen rolled his eyes, throwing his clothing into the drawers. Four of them, to be exact. And they were smaller than his old ones, so he had to pack them tight, which he didn't like.. It made things wrinkly, even though it was just boxers, socks and pajamas.. Next, he began to hang up his clothing, mostly white shorts, black shorts, and dark colored jeans. He only had a few t-shirts, which were also relatively plain. He wasn't one for extravagant dress, unlike Naruto, who clad his body in ugly orange..

"Oi, teme, you've got icky manga in your folders." The younger teen said, clicking around and digging through Sasuke's computer.

"That's yours, you idiot.. You downloaded that last weekend when you were drunk. My desktop is for research and homework, and you've gone and polluted it with your filth." Sasuke explained, dragging his toiletries into the bathroom.

"Oh, yeah.. I think I remember reading them.."

"No, you started masturbating, so I put you to bed.."

A snicker was heard across the room, and Naruto hopped up to crowd around him in the bathroom. Horrible timing, as well.. Just as he hoped up on the counter, Sasuke dropped a small black box, spilling out several razor blades on the ground. "Ne, Sasuke.. I thought you quit that.." The blonde said, sliding down to pick them up. "Show me your arms.."

Sasuke sighed, ignoring him as he stacked his towels on an empty shelf. "I haven't done anything, not that I answer to you."

The tanned teenager frowned, grabbing one of the Uchiha's wrists and turning him around. He yanked up both of Sasuke's sleeves, examining the pale, scarred up arms. A few were semi-fresh, the scabs flaking away and the skin pink around them. "You liar.." He said, his thumb tracing over the newest looking one. "Why'd you do these..?"

The older male sighed, pulling his arms away and covering them up. "I was stressed out.. Get over it, it's been almost a year since the last time.." When he turned back around to remove a few more items, he saw the look of concern and hurt in his companion's eyes.

"We.. Got in a big fight a few weeks ago.. Did you do them because of that..?" His head was hanging low, fixating his gaze on the bland beige floor tiles.

Another exasperated sigh escaped the pale Uchiha, and he set his duffle bag back on the ground. "I cracked, alright..? You weren't there to stop me, not that it's your fault.."

The blonde suddenly moved closer, throwing his arms around the older teen. "I'm sorry, Sasuke, I won't argue with you anymore.."

"Get off, deadlast. I like arguing with you." He said, with no real meaning behind the first sentence. His lips found the other's tan forehead, kissing him softly. "Help me finish unpacking, and then we'll take a nap."

Naruto nodded, backing away and heading into the bedroom. Without a word, or his usual rude quips and insults, he plugged up Sasuke's cell phone, lap top, alarm clock, and radio. Once he'd completed his assigned tasks, he proceeded to put the sheets and blankets on his lover's bed, the way he knew he liked them. He climbed on the soft mattress, which was much smaller than the one when Sasuke had a single room.

A few moments later, he felt cool arms slipping around him as the bed dipped slightly due to added weight. A soft kiss was applied to the back of his head, and before either of them knew it, they were asleep together.

Nearly an hour later, another pale figure entered the room, stopping dead in his tracks when he saw the pair laying in the bed. "It's so cute, I think I might vomit.." He said, drily, effectively waking the two. He paid them no more attention than that, though, heading into the bathroom and locking the door.

Sasuke rubbed his eyes, sitting up slowly. Naruto did the same thing, but stood up from the bed completely. "I guess I should go finish that homework I've got for tomorrow.." He said, glancing at his lover's clock.

The pale teen nodded, standing up and moving over to where the blonde stood. "Put some actual effort into it. We don't need you failing a class this semester." He said, before moving to give him a quick kiss. "I'll be online, if you need help with any of it."

"Thanks. I'll see you later..?"

Sasuke shook his head. "No, I'll come over after a while. But I'm gonna do some research for that English paper I've got."

"That's fine, then." The blonde returned the kiss with a slightly longer one, before bounding out of the room, calling a "later" over his shoulder.

He hated when Naruto left.. It always had him feeling somewhat empty. That little moron was something of a liking he had.. With a sigh, Sasuke turned and knocked on the bathroom door. It was oddly silent in there, and he had been informed of his new roommate's behavior. Even though he had done and still did the same thing, even if it made him a hypocrite, he wasn't allowed to sit back and let it happen.

"What do you want..?" Gaara called from the other side of the door.

"You have to come out. Iruka says you aren't allowed to lock the door." Sasuke replied.

The red head yanked open the barrier, sending him a glare. "I wasn't doing anything. Want to strip search me..?"

The younger male narrowed his eyes. "Cute." He said, sarcastically. "Rule is, if you lock the door three times while I'm here, Iruka's taking the door off."

"Don't care."

"Me either." Sasuke turned and retrieved his laptop, ending the small conversation as he sat on his bed. He pulled open his messenger application, sending the only person on his list a message.

Sasuke: …. I don't like this.

Naruto: Like what..?

Sasuke: This Gaara kid..

Naruto: ?

Sasuke: My new roommate..

Naruto: Oooh. Yeah, I don't like him either..

Sasuke: You've never met him, but I assure you won't like him.

Naruto: I just don't like him, cause you don't.

Sasuke: You're weird.

Naruto: I know.

Sasuke: … Are you doing your homework..?

Naruto: uh.. Depends. What do you mean by 'doing'?

Sasuke: Start working on it, deadlast. You're calculus grade is shit..

Naruto: I'm just kidding. Yeah, I'm working on it..

Sasuke: Good. How many more problems?

Naruto: Just three, I think. Pretty easy, too. Maybe.

Sasuke: Then get it done.

Naruto: Wanna watch me? I'll turn on my cam. You know that's hot.

Sasuke: Haha, dobe. Not a chance.

Naruto: Way to crush my dreams, Sasuke.

Sasuke: You'll live.

Naruto: I know.

Naruto: I bet I can finish them before you get up here

Sasuke: There's a stipulation to that, and I know it.

Naruto: Yeah. If I finish them by the time you get here, you'll bottom next time we do it.

Sasuke: Why are you so smutty?

Naruto: It adds a little spice to this boring dormitory.

Sasuke: Alright. Sure. If you have your calculus homework finished, and correct (I will be checking it), then I agree to meet your conditions.

Naruto: Why are you so weird talky?

Sasuke: It adds a little elegance to your inappropriate dialogue.

Naruto: Touché.

Sasuke: Alright, well, you better work fast. I'm on my way up.

Naruto: Well, you better walk fast, I've already completed one of the final three.

Sasuke: I'm confident.

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Sasuke stood up, shoving his laptop under the bed. "I'm going out. Iruka says I have to be back here by seven every night, but that doesn't mean I won't be back before then." He said to Gaara as he grabbed his key to the new room and slipped on his shoes.

"You'll learn rather quickly that I don't care."

The Uchiha wasn't in the mood for any kind of idiotic banter, heading out of the room and towards the elevator.

"Sorry, kid. Working on the panels right now. You'll have to take the stairs…" Said a random maintenance man, who was obviously nowhere close to being finished with his work.. They got paid by the hour after all..

The pale teen made his way to the stairs, knowing already that the time it would take to go down the three flights of stairs would be plenty of time for Naruto to finish his calculus homework. He wasn't particularly thrilled about losing that bet..

Once he got there, Naruto was standing outside of his dorm, holding the finished paper up for him to see.

"Don't brag. It's unbecoming."

A smirk covered the tan teen's mouth. "Oh, I'll be coming, alright."

"Hn.. We'll see." Sasuke replied, pushing him out of the way and walking into his room. He sat down on the corner of the bed, toeing off his shoes. "I'm not taking it today." He announced, pulling his legs underneath him.

"No fair. You lost the bet."

The Uchiha smirked. "I'll make it up to you."

Naruto wasn't sure what that look meant, but he thought he might like it. "Right now..?"

"Yeah."

"Like.. Right now, right now?"

Sasuke's expression deflated. "No, right now tomorrow afternoon. Now, do you want it, or not..?"

The blonde grinned, flopping down on his bed and spreading his arms and legs. "Have your way with me, Sasuke." He said, cheekily, his eyes shut.

The pale teen quirked a brow, turning to sit in between Naruto's legs. His fingers worked slowly, teasingly, to unfasten the other's pants, his hand forming a gentle grip on his forming erection. "Get ready, deadlast. It'll probably make your head explode." So he was a little cocky. Whatever.

Without considering how much the younger teen would want this now, he dipped his head down, running his tongue over the tip before swallowing as much of his member as he could. It was hard not to gag, but that was a given with Naruto's size. At least he could hear the dobe groaning encouragement.

He sucked hard as he came up, licking the small amount of fluid there before going back down, this time letting Naruto's cock reach the back of his throat. His fingers wrapped around the base, massaging him and squeezing. He hummed as his tongue rubbed the underside of the tanned male's organ.

The vibrations from Sasuke's mouth were just enough to send him over the edge, spilling his seed straight down the back of the Uchiha's throat.

The pale teen sat up, swallowing what was left in his mouth. He looked down at Naruto. "If you tell me 'how I did', I'll rip your balls off." In his mind, there was nothing worse than hearing the blonde idiot say 'you did great'.

Naruto wasn't sure he could even speak. His brain was swimming around in his skull, but the grin on his face said enough. He sat up, giving Sasuke a brief kiss. "Alright, I won't tell you how you did."

Gaara had waited a few minutes until he was sure the other occupant wasn't coming back. He stood up and headed into the bathroom, digging out the razor blade he'd hidden on the small ledge of the open-up mirror. He lifted his t-shirt, slicing open the skin across his abdomen and sides. The red-head bit down into his lip as the wounds began to bleed, dropping down his black shirt.

He turned the blade on his arms, the sharpness biting into his wrists. His life sustenance spilled out from the cuts, but he didn't mind it at all. He repeated the actions on his right arm, hiding the blade back in its rightful location. The pale teen grabbed a towel and wet it, wiping the marks until they stopped bleeding.

He changed his shirt as he got back into his room, tossing the now stained one into his hamper, which he kept next to his dresser. Gaara lay down on his bed, unable to find a comfortable position due to the wounds on his stomach and sides.

It wasn't until Sasuke woke up that he realized he'd even been asleep in the first place, jerking up into a sitting position in the bed. Naruto was typing away on his laptop, seated at his desk across the room.

"Who are you talking to..?" He asked, the fact that he'd just woken up obvious in his voice.

"Just Neji." He typed a few more words, before turning to face Sasuke. "He says 'hi'. I showed him you sleeping on the cam. The general consensus on Facebook is that you're super cute asleep."

Sasuke frowned. "You put pictures of me sleeping on your Facebook..?"

Naruto nodded.

"You're so stupid.. What time is it..?"

"Uh.. Ten after."

Sasuke quirked a brow. "After what, deadlast?"

The blonde turned around again and sent him a glare. "After nine, teme."

The Uchiha dropped his face into his hands. "Christ.. I'm supposed to be back there by seven.."

"You have a curfew now..?" Naruto sounded annoyed.

"Yeah. I have to watch the baby so he doesn't give himself any boo-boos." Sasuke stood up from the bed, heading over to Naruto's chair. "I'll get online when I get there." He said, leaning down to kiss Naruto.

The younger teen put a hand on the back of Sasuke's head, holding him there as he kissed him back, despite the struggles put forth from his partner.

The older male allowed it for a moment before roughly pushing Naruto away, a smirk on his face. "See ya, moron."

"Later."

With that, the pale teen left Naruto's room, heading back into his own. Luckily, Gaara was asleep, and alive, in his own bed. He breathed a sigh of relief, retrieving his laptop and signing on to his messenger.

Sasuke: Well, he looks alive.

Naruto: Poke him with a stick to make sure.

Sasuke: No thanks. Any reason in particular you would wake up a sleeping dragon..?

Naruto: Good thinking..

Sasuke: It's always been obvious who had the better logical skills here.

Naruto: Well, I'd rather be illogical than bottom as much as you do.

Sasuke: I'll have to disagree with that. I believe, if I've counted correctly, that you've taken it from me just a few more times than I have from you.

Naruto: You keep count?

Naruto: That's gross.

Sasuke: You're illogical, remember? It's normal.

Naruto: Oh, yeah. You're right.

Naruto: Sarcasm.

Sasuke: You know what sarcasm means..? I'm amazed.

Naruto: You're a douche, that's what you are.

Sasuke: At least I smell clean.

Naruto: That's disgusting..

Naruto: I can't believe you just said that.

Sasuke: I can't believe you don't believe I just said that.

Sasuke: I've said worse haven't I?

Naruto: For example..?

Sasuke: That time your friend caught us doing it in the shower

Naruto: I don't remember..

Sasuke: I told him I was thoroughly enjoying where your penis was, and I'd appreciate him leaving so you could put it back.

Naruto: Hm.. Don't remember.

Sasuke: You should. He blabbed his mouth to the whole school.

Sasuke: You got called 'Sasuke-doer' for a whole semester

Naruto: Really..?

Sasuke: You're a moron.

Naruto: Well at least I'm not gay.

Sasuke: If you keep being stupid, I'm going to bed.

Naruto: You make me so sad.

Naruto: Just kidding.

Naruto: Have you checked on your kid..?

Sasuke: Real funny.

Sasuke: No, but I'm fixing to take a shower.

Naruto: Alright. Coming back when you're done..?

Sasuke: I suppose.

Sasuke: Be back in ten..

Naruto: Okay.

Sasuke shut his laptop, standing from his bed and retrieving his black pajama bottoms and jacket.. He headed into the bathroom, shutting the door before stripping down. He turned on the warm water, wanting nothing more than to stand in its comforting stream for the rest of the night. But, as all good things must, the shower came to an end. The pale teen got out, and quickly dried before slipping into the clothing he'd brought.

He tossed the towel towards the hamper… And missed. He sighed and walked over, bending down to pick it up and set it in with the others. That's when he noticed the towel on top of the pile, its white cotton material stained with a brighter color of red. Blood, actually.

He rolled his eyes, heading back into the bedroom. "Gaara." He said, effectively waking the other from his slumber. "You took advantage of me being out of the room, and you left the evidence in the bathroom."

"Don't care.."

"I do. I have to take the blame for you mishaps, and I don't find it funny."

With an annoyed sigh, Gaara sat up in his bed. "I don't care."

Sasuke headed over to the other's bed, grabbing him by his shirt collar. "Straighten the fuck up, or I'm moving out, and I won't give a shit what happens to your dumb ass after that."

The red-head formed a tight grip on Sasuke's wrists, yanking them out of his shirt. "Don't touch me." He said, pushing the other away. "Nobody cares anyway. Why would it bother me if one more person didn't give a shit..?"

He watched as Gaara stood up and headed towards the bathroom. He knew what he would do if he got in there, so the younger teen put himself between the other and the bathroom door. "Relax, Gaara. I can't let you in there."

"I've got to piss.."

"Then I'll watch."

Gaara frowned, turning on his heel and heading towards the dorm door.

Sasuke beat him there, too. "You're not leaving. You're not going to the bathroom. Just sit down and forget about it."

A look of anger suddenly came over the older male, his eyes narrowing dangerously. "Forget about it..? It's the only thing I have..! I'm seventeen, and still in tenth grade! I have no family that wants me, no friends! I've never had a girl friend, nobody gives a damn about me, and you want me to forget about hurting myself?" It was probably the most amount of words he'd ever spoke in a day, much less in a minute.

Well.. That caught him by surprise. "I'm sure somebody cares about you.." Which also caught him by surprise. Had he ever offered any form of comfort to anyone other than Naruto..?

"No. Not a single person.. I grew up in an orphanage, while my siblings grew up in a fucking mansion, because everyone blames me for my mom dying..!"

Sasuke swallowed. What could be said to that..?

"She died giving birth to me, if you're wondering.. And it's my fucking fault. So nobody talks to me.."

"I'll talk to you." Oops.. Well.. The cat was out of the bag now. And everyone knew they were exceptionally hard to put back in the bag.

"Yeah, right.. What would you talk to me about..? All the money you have..? Your precious fucking boyfriend..? What could you possibly have in common with a self-mutilating freak..?"

Without thinking about what this would spark between them, Sasuke turned over his arm, pushing up the sleeve of his hoodie. His skin was covered with scars, some pale pink, and others white.

Gaara's brows furrowed, his pale fingers coming up to trace a few. "I.. I didn't know." He said, green eyes coming up to meet black ones.

The Uchiha shrugged. "Being rich doesn't exactly have its perks. My parents fought because of money, divorced because of money, and my brother hates me because I got more of the money from their will because I haven't gone to college yet. Itachi graduated the year before they died.." He pulled his arm back, covering them back up with his sleeve. "They were in the car together, on the way to meet their lawyer to find out how much money my dad would have to pay my mom for spousal and child support, and they got in a wreck. Money isn't exactly the happiest thing in the world.."

He wasn't sure what to say.. But.. "Can we be friends then..?" He didn't know what that entailed, though he supposed it couldn't be too hard.

"Sure." Sasuke said, tucking his hands into his pockets.

Without saying anything else, Gaara got back into his bed, covering himself with the blankets and falling back asleep with ease. Sasuke's expression was confused. He had an idea this might end up badly..

The younger male sat back down on his bed, opening up his laptop.

Sasuke: Back..

Naruto: Enjoy it..?

Sasuke: Not particularly.. I might be in trouble after all, for staying out late..

Naruto: Why..?

Sasuke: I'm not sure my roommate would appreciate me mentioning it..

Naruto: That bad, huh..?

Sasuke: Yeah..

Naruto: Anyway.. Can I come up to sleep with you? It's cold.

Sasuke: Sure.. But just to sleep, alright?

Naruto: I promise.

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Sasuke sighed and stood up to open the door, standing in the frame until Naruto got there. "Didn't want you to knock and wake him up.."

Naruto nodded, stepping inside the now dark room and crawling into Sasuke's bed. He heard the other locking the door, and soon felt him crawling in behind him. The younger teen turned on his side, smiling at his lover. "I love you."

"You, too.." Sasuke rarely actually said the whole thing.. "Night, dobe.." He said, kissing him gently.

"Night."